I hate my brain

[Former Shortcel]

Its just constant thoughts hitting me all at the same time, it all feels so chaotic

It hurts to think, my brain never feels peaceful

I wish i was able to just switch off my mind at an instant whenever i please, its all just so overstimulating i hate it

Too bad i constantly forget to take my ritalin, god i fucking suck at managing executive functions. cant even mentally handle the easiest tasks possible

 

[enlightful]

Its just constant thoughts hitting me all at the same time, it all feels so chaotic

It hurts to think, my brain never feels peaceful

I wish i was able to just switch off my mind at an instant whenever i please, its all just so overstimulating i hate it

Isn't this genuinely what its like to have a high iq?

 

[Ren Hoek]

I worship white women

 

[Former Shortcel]

Isn't this genuinely what its like to have a high iq?

Would be something Id have to research into more

Ive never done an IQ test, from what I know im just ND

 

[mangotimer]

my dick is small

 

[theblueprints]

do you not feel tired from Ritalin

 

[x_stghl_x]

Its just constant thoughts hitting me all at the same time, it all feels so chaotic

It hurts to think, my brain never feels peaceful

I wish i was able to just switch off my mind at an instant whenever i please, its all just so overstimulating i hate it

Too bad i constantly forget to take my ritalin, god i fucking suck at managing executive functions. cant even mentally handle the easiest tasks possible

Lobotomy bro, trust

 

[PSL Ethereal]

Its just constant thoughts hitting me all at the same time, it all feels so chaotic

It hurts to think, my brain never feels peaceful

I wish i was able to just switch off my mind at an instant whenever i please, its all just so overstimulating i hate it

Too bad i constantly forget to take my ritalin, god i fucking suck at managing executive functions. cant even mentally handle the easiest tasks possible

I can relate. An approach I use when im in a shitty mood or doing things that are miserable like studying or working, is having the longterm goal in mind, the place where I want to be in life, and thats what justifies the temporary miserable things, then the constant noise, and daily stressors turn down a lot, because they truly don’t matter or affect where you’ll end up in a year if you take the correct actions.

 

[Former Shortcel]

do you not feel tired from Ritalin

Id rather feel tired with a less chaotic mind

Issue is i suck at mentally handling even the easiest tasks possible, i even avoid doing tasks i enjoy

 

[Tenres]

What type of thoughts?

 

[Saint Casanova]

Its just constant thoughts hitting me all at the same time, it all feels so chaotic

It hurts to think, my brain never feels peaceful

I wish i was able to just switch off my mind at an instant whenever i please, its all just so overstimulating i hate it

Too bad i constantly forget to take my ritalin, god i fucking suck at managing executive functions. cant even mentally handle the easiest tasks possible

Where did you get Ritalin for ?

 

[Saint Casanova]

Also how is your sleep ? Are you an insomniac too ? I see you here very late too

 

[Former Shortcel]

What type of thoughts?

I wouldnt even know how to explain it to be honest

I worry a lot about my self image, so im constantly thinking about it

I even worry and think about other thoughts im having. For example ill worry about having multiple thoughts that contradict each other, or ill worry about all the stupid shit and contradictory things ive done in the past. Since id rather i was just linear and never made mistakes

Like just the thought of me making mistakes day by day, even the littlest things itches me and i worry about it

 

[Former Shortcel]

Where did you get Ritalin for ?

Prescribed it since i have adhd
Id wish to get adderall at some point under the counter though since its stronger

Also how is your sleep ? Are you an insomniac too ? I see you here very late too

wouldnt say im an insomniac, but i definitely lose track of time a lot when its night since its one of the only parts of the day where im completely free

I have to stop myself from doing this a lot on work days

 

[Tenres]

I wouldnt even know how to explain it to be honest

I worry a lot about my self image, so im constantly thinking about it

I even worry and think about other thoughts im having. For example ill worry about having multiple thoughts that contradict each other, or ill worry about all the stupid shit and contradictory things ive done in the past. Since id rather i was just linear and never made mistakes

Like just the thought of me making mistakes day by day, even the littlest things itches me and i worry about it

Ohh. Interesting. Some of that definitely makes sense like trying to minimize cognitive dissonance and have this linear stable identity. That's something I've been trying to work on for sure. Might not help but there's two ways you can kinda think about it, one thing that self identity is illusory. In the sense firstly that you don't choose your thoughts, they just happen to us and we try to compartmentalize it into theories that we have about ourselves. More broadly it's very hard to identify what grounds our identity over time. Like why you are the same person you were a year ago, or more radically even 10 minutes ago. Another thing is that it's actually all you, and even before and after you did these things you still have the disposition that you did prior. In this scenario, you were going to act in this way. So then you kinda view it like there isn't a problem with acting differently some times because it's still you.

It also sounds a lot like OCD, which can be very debilitating. I had something like it for a bit where I'd have intrusive thoughts and I couldn't stop. But yeah, rumination kills you so the best you can do is direct your attention after some breath work.

 

[Former Shortcel]

Ohh. Interesting. Some of that definitely makes sense like trying to minimize cognitive dissonance and have this linear stable identity. That's something I've been trying to work on for sure. Might not help but there's two ways you can kinda think about it, one thing that self identity is illusory. In the sense firstly that you don't choose your thoughts, they just happen to us and we try to compartmentalize it into theories that we have about ourselves. More broadly it's very hard to identify what grounds our identity over time. Like why you are the same person you were a year ago, or more radically even 10 minutes ago. Another thing is that it's actually all you, and even before and after you did these things you still have the disposition that you did prior. In this scenario, you were going to act in this way. So then you kinda view it like there isn't a problem with acting differently some times because it's still you.

It also sounds a lot like OCD, which can be very debilitating. I had something like it for a bit where I'd have intrusive thoughts and I couldn't stop. But yeah, rumination kills you so the best you can do is direct your attention after some breath work.

Interesting description on the fact that self identity is illusory, I plan on looking into this more

Considering the fact that if im already just constantly thinking all the time, and its extremely overstimulating, I may as well should just research into this whole topic of discussion further