i hate my face, society, and people

[Iwannabeprettyboi]

I hate socializing with people irl. I’m literally just a hikikomori who watches anime, reads manga, and lwk larps looksmaxxing (trying a bit). Whenever my relatives pull up to the house, I straight up sprint upstairs to lock myself in my room because I'm terrified they’re gonna judge me.
Today was the freshman meetup and someone from my faculty snapped a pic of me and dropped it in the cohort group chat. I’m so embarrassed and I hate them and myself. I just wish I was respected for once. Like, I never even do weird shit, I literally just stay quiet and follow instructions.
I wish I was never born so I wouldn't have to deal with any of this or if I had to be born, I wish I was at least good looking. Because looks are literally everything in this world.