I hate my fucking life so much

[rawr]

Spoiler

before you say you don't care, just fuck off bro

i hate my life so much
im only posting this as kind of like a journal entry or whatever
but its crazy just how awful my life is
i mean i remember a couple years ago back when i was 13/14 thinking "muhhh suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems" "ill never kill myself life is worth living" "if i kill myself ill go to hell so ill never kill myself"

to now being 17 and a complete failure in every aspect, truly despising my life, and thinking of suicide 100x more
i probably think of suicide, what id say before i kill myself, how id kill myself like atleast daily or every other day

the only thing that makes me hate my life as much as i do is living in poverty. im dealing with a neglectful mother, like every fucking infestation possible, EXTREME infestations aswell. fucking roaches and bedbugs everywhere, rents never paid, got held back in school & im gonna have to go to an alternative school, lost a shit ton of faith in religion, i spend my entire day just trying to escape reality and cope, painfully insecure of my voice & looks, no friends, family seems to hate me, life truly does not feel worth living

i seriously don't think ill realistically get out of this situation for ATLEAST a handful of years.

if you live a normal life: you have friends, you look normal, you're not as insecure as me, have a social life, don't live in awful poverty
cherish that shit

im just so lost lol i have nobody to talk to
no friends, nobody to rant to, nobody to listen to me
so im just gonna make a vulnerable ass post onto a forum where like everyones gonna say "kys", "dnr" or get 0 replies/made fun of

its fine

 

[rawr]

bump

 

[walrehxx]

i genuienly feel bad bro

 

[rawr]

i genuienly feel bad bro

sometimes i feel really depressed and i start wondering why i feel this way and then i just remember the way my life is

 

[walrehxx]

sometimes i feel really depressed and i start wondering why i feel this way and then i just remember the way my life is

i suggest just going to the gym at that point, saved me from my deppresion and kept me focused

 

[rawr]

i suggest just going to the gym at that point, saved me from my deppresion and kept me focused

yes honestly i should probably go to the gym & find other copes
at least with the gym i'll spend less time at home, build up confidence, strength, and i'll feel happy with the progress from it

 

[walrehxx]

yes honestly i should probably go to the gym & find other copes
at least with the gym i'll spend less time at home, build up confidence, strength, and i'll feel happy with the progress from it

yes i suggest taking walks aswell, it relievs so much

 

[6’7whitechad]

Spoiler

before you say you don't care, just fuck off bro

i hate my life so much
im only posting this as kind of like a journal entry or whatever
but its crazy just how awful my life is
i mean i remember a couple years ago back when i was 13/14 thinking "muhhh suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems" "ill never kill myself life is worth living" "if i kill myself ill go to hell so ill never kill myself"

to now being 17 and a complete failure in every aspect, truly despising my life, and thinking of suicide 100x more
i probably think of suicide, what id say before i kill myself, how id kill myself like atleast daily or every other day

the only thing that makes me hate my life as much as i do is living in poverty. im dealing with a neglectful mother, like every fucking infestation possible, EXTREME infestations aswell. fucking roaches and bedbugs everywhere, rents never paid, got held back in school & im gonna have to go to an alternative school, lost a shit ton of faith in religion, i spend my entire day just trying to escape reality and cope, painfully insecure of my voice & looks, no friends, family seems to hate me, life truly does not feel worth living

i seriously don't think ill realistically get out of this situation for ATLEAST a handful of years.

if you live a normal life: you have friends, you look normal, you're not as insecure as me, have a social life, don't live in awful poverty
cherish that shit

im just so lost lol i have nobody to talk to
no friends, nobody to rant to, nobody to listen to me
so im just gonna make a vulnerable ass post onto a forum where like everyones gonna say "kys", "dnr" or get 0 replies/made fun of

its fine

Sorry man

 

[iamnotyourfailure]

self-loath gives us comfort i guess

 

[rawr]

yes i suggest taking walks aswell, it relievs so much

personally walks are my go-to solution for when im stressed
i love walks so much man

 

[proxxyy11]

dnr but rape shirt kid mention

 

[walrehxx]

personally walks are my go-to solution for when im stressed
i love walks so much man

fr man, keep doing that and i hope life goes well for you, enjoy the walks, sunset, go to a beach during sunsets aswell

 

[rawr]

dnr but rape shirt kid mention

$25 max

 

[rawr]

fr man, keep doing that and i hope life goes well for you, enjoy the walks, sunset, go to a beach during sunsets aswell

thanks man

 

[proxxyy11]

$25 max

 

[walrehxx]

thanks man

Enjoy this life man, go gym and walks, and find somerhing that makes you happy and calm

 

[proxxyy11]

if u need someone to talk to just pm me

 

[rawr]

if u need someone to talk to just pm me

Enjoy this life man, go gym and walks, and find somerhing that makes you happy and calm

thanks guys

 

[caleb555]

im just so lost lol i have nobody to talk to
no friends, nobody to rant to, nobody to listen to me

You can message me

 

[proxxyy11]

thanks guys

ly mud im genuinely curious why u think ur only solution is suicide so i deadass hope u pm me but if u dontn its fine

 

[subhuman37]

Spoiler

before you say you don't care, just fuck off bro

i hate my life so much
im only posting this as kind of like a journal entry or whatever
but its crazy just how awful my life is
i mean i remember a couple years ago back when i was 13/14 thinking "muhhh suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems" "ill never kill myself life is worth living" "if i kill myself ill go to hell so ill never kill myself"

to now being 17 and a complete failure in every aspect, truly despising my life, and thinking of suicide 100x more
i probably think of suicide, what id say before i kill myself, how id kill myself like atleast daily or every other day

the only thing that makes me hate my life as much as i do is living in poverty. im dealing with a neglectful mother, like every fucking infestation possible, EXTREME infestations aswell. fucking roaches and bedbugs everywhere, rents never paid, got held back in school & im gonna have to go to an alternative school, lost a shit ton of faith in religion, i spend my entire day just trying to escape reality and cope, painfully insecure of my voice & looks, no friends, family seems to hate me, life truly does not feel worth living

i seriously don't think ill realistically get out of this situation for ATLEAST a handful of years.

if you live a normal life: you have friends, you look normal, you're not as insecure as me, have a social life, don't live in awful poverty
cherish that shit

im just so lost lol i have nobody to talk to
no friends, nobody to rant to, nobody to listen to me
so im just gonna make a vulnerable ass post onto a forum where like everyones gonna say "kys", "dnr" or get 0 replies/made fun of

its fine

im sorry you have go through that bro i relate to this in someway ive been having suicidal thoughts since 13, if you need a friend just hmu too i don’t want another soul having to take their own life’s due to the bad situation that was forced upon them

 

[sphenoidnr]

Spoiler

before you say you don't care, just fuck off bro

i hate my life so much
im only posting this as kind of like a journal entry or whatever
but its crazy just how awful my life is
i mean i remember a couple years ago back when i was 13/14 thinking "muhhh suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems" "ill never kill myself life is worth living" "if i kill myself ill go to hell so ill never kill myself"

to now being 17 and a complete failure in every aspect, truly despising my life, and thinking of suicide 100x more
i probably think of suicide, what id say before i kill myself, how id kill myself like atleast daily or every other day

the only thing that makes me hate my life as much as i do is living in poverty. im dealing with a neglectful mother, like every fucking infestation possible, EXTREME infestations aswell. fucking roaches and bedbugs everywhere, rents never paid, got held back in school & im gonna have to go to an alternative school, lost a shit ton of faith in religion, i spend my entire day just trying to escape reality and cope, painfully insecure of my voice & looks, no friends, family seems to hate me, life truly does not feel worth living

i seriously don't think ill realistically get out of this situation for ATLEAST a handful of years.

if you live a normal life: you have friends, you look normal, you're not as insecure as me, have a social life, don't live in awful poverty
cherish that shit

im just so lost lol i have nobody to talk to
no friends, nobody to rant to, nobody to listen to me
so im just gonna make a vulnerable ass post onto a forum where like everyones gonna say "kys", "dnr" or get 0 replies/made fun of

its fine

I feel bad for u, Honestly i can relate to ur post (Ofc not in the part of poverty), U genuinely made me realise my life is not as bad.

My PM's are open if u want to talk bro

 

[rawr]

ly mud im genuinely curious why u think ur only solution is suicide so i deadass hope u pm me but if u dontn its fine

i mean i kind of don't really think its my only solution it's just that suicide has became more of a thought that i'd entertain now
my only other solution would be to force myself to endure my problems til i make it out
sometimes though i get really depressed and feel like im gonna be stuck here forever, and thats what makes me feel suicidal

 

[proxxyy11]

i mean i kind of don't really think its my only solution it's just that suicide has became more of a thought that i'd entertain now
my only other solution would be to force myself to endure my problems til i make it out
sometimes though i get really depressed and feel like im gonna be stuck here forever, and thats what makes me feel suicidal

stuck where? what point of ur life are u in right now?

 

[rawr]

I feel bad for u, Honestly i can relate to ur post (Ofc not in the part of poverty), U genuinely made me realise my life is not as bad.

My PM's are open if u want to talk bro

ngl that was kind of the reason why i wrote this:

if you live a normal life: you have friends, you look normal, you're not as insecure as me, have a social life, don't live in awful poverty
cherish that shit

a lot of people don't truly know the value of what they have until they realize just how much worse things could be for them

 

[rawr]

stuck where? what point of ur life are u in right now?

i'm currently 17 in highschool and have no option but to live with my mom

 

[sphenoidnr]

ngl that was kind of the reason why i wrote this:

a lot of people don't truly know the value of what they have until they realize just how much worse things could be for them

Bro my PM is open if u want to talk.

I usally respond and i'll stay up late if u want to talk G, Hope ur life gets better and u can get out of poverty.

 

[rawr]

@pfl
this nigga

 

[rawr]

Bro my PM is open if u want to talk.

I usally respond and i'll stay up late if u want to talk G, Hope ur life gets better and u can get out of poverty.

hopefully i can leave and never look back bro

 

[proxxyy11]

i'm currently 17 in highschool and have no option but to live with my mom

what's wrong with ur mom?

 

[rawr]

what's wrong with ur mom?

she's very neglectful and is the entire reason as to why im living in my current circumstances (poverty)

 

[Ha31]

thats what u get for being a greek

 

[rawr]

thats what u get for being a greek

what made you think i was a geek
which thread

 

[proxxyy11]

she's very neglectful and is the entire reason as to why im living in my current circumstances (poverty)

ur 17 tho mud it should be good that she's neglectful, it teaches u to be independent in life. it'll make you a stronger man at the end. just strive through it mud, figure out how to better ur own life independently from ur mom right now

 

[Ha31]

what made you think i was a geek
which thread

i just assumed u were a greek

 

[rawr]

it should be good that she's neglectful

well i don't necessarily think that it's good, but yeah you're right it definitely does teach me how to be independent and self sufficient at a younger age

it teaches u to be independent in life. it'll make you a stronger man at the end. just strive through it mud, figure out how to better ur own life independently from ur mom right now

yeah that's my only option honestly, thanks for the advice bro
gonna try and spend the least amount of time home

 

[rawr]

i just assumed u were a greek

lol

 

[Ha31]

lol

sorry

 

[proxxyy11]

spend the least amount of time home

sort of infers that you'll just be a ghetto thug taking drugs with other random niggas all day. everything you can do in relation to your future is basically online with your computer or laptop.

if you mean that you'll go to a local library and work on what u need to work on, i agree with that. not just staying away from ur home or ur mom the most u possibly can, take advantage of what u have right now. don't run away from shit.

at least you have a roof over your head where you can work under and strive for a better life (eventually away from your mother)

 

[rawr]

sorry

all good

 

[rawr]

sort of infers that you'll just be a ghetto thug taking drugs with other random niggas all day. everything you can do in relation to your future is basically online with your computer or laptop.

no no i meant spending the least amount of time home by being involved in school sports/clubs, playing sports at a local park, going on walks, picking up a job, going to the library, etc

yeah bro
im living in a really fucked up situation, i dont wanna ever even smoke a cigarette/do drugs or drink alcohol. im in a vulnerable state, i'll probably get addicted to all of that stuff if i pick it up now, and end up with even more problems.

if you mean that you'll go to a local library and work on what u need to work on, i agree with that.

yeah that's what i was trying to get at

 

[proxxyy11]

no no i meant spending the least amount of time home by being involved in school sports/clubs, playing sports at a local park, going on walks, picking up a job, going to the library, etc

yeah bro
im living in a really fucked up situation, i dont wanna ever even smoke a cigarette/do drugs or drink alcohol. im in a vulnerable state, i'll probably get addicted to all of that stuff if i pick it up now, and end up with even more problems.

yeah that's what i was trying to get at

yup totally agree. get more involved, get more ECs, do something in the real world, find your passion, get a job maybe get some sort of income (possibly enough to afford to rent your own apartment if your mom is genuinely making u that depressed), etc.

I grew up in a rich neighborhood and all they did all day was just do shit irl, find a job, go to the library, maybe go to parties, doing sports, volunteering.

Follow what they did and you'll feel like a rich nigga yourself

whatever you do do not take drugs tho, not sure who u are maybe ur a midwit retard irl and are actually thinking about it to cope with, but don't bc ik u dont wanna fuck up ur life. shit is disgusting