I hate old habits.

[copingmyskinoff]

I’m on a 13 hour car ride rn n my girlfriend starts posting old drafts of me n her being corny asf, videos I thought were just hers. my dumbass starts to spam replying to it saying stupid shit like omg this is so bad im gonna kms like broo she starts replying n says stuff like you dont like? blah blah turns out she posted them cause she thought they were cute n that she misses me. I told her that i dont care that she posted them i was js embarrassed in the moment. Never let her know this but cause i was thinking of how i used to be, wishing n praying i could be in this position one day. my confidence is still at fucking zero, even after looking better nothing has gotten better. My problem might seem small but it’s these small things that fuck me over so much. she told me I hurt her feelings. god bro I hate myself so much. I’m sorry to anyone reading this that hasn’t been able to experience love or anything but I’m sure all of u can relate to the feeling of not wanting to be shown, not wanting to feel less than or being so insecure it ruins all of your social relationships. that’s how I’ve been feeling lately. back at square one, the feeling never stops