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I have a bizarre fantasy (cuckolding) and I want some advice on how to get over it, but please don't tell me to see a therapist: I won't do it.
Basically if you met me you wouldn't know I'm into this. I'm good-looking, fit, and in my twenties (27). Women like me and I get hit on. The few women I've told about this refuse to believe me and go on as if I'm joking or as if nothing happened.
But I can't stop imagining my gf (this is a not-serious gf of two months, but my problem is general and doesn't just have to do with her) being fucked by a muscular, alpha young stud who is beating up her pussy in my own bed. To me the mix of jealousy and lust and humiliation I get from this is toxic. But I beat off to it all the time. I especially get off on it when I imagine her talking down to me or making me get them drinks. I like to think of the guy as badass, jacked, and tan/slightly darker in skin tone than me. I even invited a Brazilian guy from my gym with us to drinks (he knew about it, she didn't) but nothing came of it.
It's doing a mindfuck on me and I feel sexually inadequate because of it, but also aroused. It turns me on at the same time, I'm not sure if there are certain things I can do to not have these fantasies. Maybe only making it happen will make it go away.
tl;dr cuckold fetish is making it difficult for me to enjoy normal relationships, how do I get rid of it?
Basically if you met me you wouldn't know I'm into this. I'm good-looking, fit, and in my twenties (27). Women like me and I get hit on. The few women I've told about this refuse to believe me and go on as if I'm joking or as if nothing happened.
But I can't stop imagining my gf (this is a not-serious gf of two months, but my problem is general and doesn't just have to do with her) being fucked by a muscular, alpha young stud who is beating up her pussy in my own bed. To me the mix of jealousy and lust and humiliation I get from this is toxic. But I beat off to it all the time. I especially get off on it when I imagine her talking down to me or making me get them drinks. I like to think of the guy as badass, jacked, and tan/slightly darker in skin tone than me. I even invited a Brazilian guy from my gym with us to drinks (he knew about it, she didn't) but nothing came of it.
It's doing a mindfuck on me and I feel sexually inadequate because of it, but also aroused. It turns me on at the same time, I'm not sure if there are certain things I can do to not have these fantasies. Maybe only making it happen will make it go away.
tl;dr cuckold fetish is making it difficult for me to enjoy normal relationships, how do I get rid of it?
maybe
