I Have a Fear of Driving

[Zer0/∞]

I'm 18, and for the 2nd time in my life my mom is pressuring me into getting my drivers license again, it feels so worthless to put that risk on myself of driving a car out on the open road, i much rather enjoy the comforts of LDAR safely in my home than drive, mom took me out today in her car, i was sweating like crazy, my wristcel framecel body looked so pathetic gripping the steering wheel, couldnt 1 hand the steering wheel like ive seen Chads do in media, had a car follow me and i almost panicked so i had to pull over like a loser to let them pass, luckily she only made me drive for like 30mins, but it felt so wrong to be outside, having that risk of hitting a parked car or some normie dipshit or even their crotch goblin running out in the street, i was fearing that as i drove past, I SHOULDNT HAVE TO DRIVE AT ALL!!!! but my mom is the only person whos ever really cared for me, and she financed so many copes for my LDAR sessions that i feel the urge to not disappoint her, yet at the same time i feel like roping after getting out of the car, because she refuses to understand my paranoia about being behind the wheel, i think i might run away instead of driving out on the freeway, we might surely die and shes got a good career and money, to throw all that away if we die in a wreck because she desires for her inkwell son to get his license is just so damn pathetic, wish she would just let me LDAR in peace and accept i will never amount to anything and i will never give her grandchildren, ovER boyos