I have a plan of going to the frontlines in ukraine to die rather than killing myself

[WilhelmThyWizard]

Im planning on it
Idk where to get it tho

A rave,

 

[Wicket]

A rave,

Idk how to find raves lol

 

[thekey]

I have just under a year until im 18 which is the legal age to sign up for a foreign mercenary I believe. I dont really have any care for the war or Russia or Ukraine in itself. Ive always had this idea in my mind that I need to go to war at some point in my life to fulfill a childhood dream and with me being pretty suicidal already it seems pretty cool to me. Id like to be taken out by a bullet or artillery directly on me to take me out quickly tho.

@RichCoopersRoomate @swedchud

Booooringgg nigga if u die in a war no one will gaf about you if you kill yourself everyone will care and will mourned you. Although, the better option here is to not kill yourself, so think about that, and you probably shouldn't kill yourself so yes stay safe g

 

[WilhelmThyWizard]

Idk how to find raves lol

u dont have any friends who do drugs?

 

[Wicket]

Booooringgg nigga if u die in a war no one will gaf about you if you kill yourself everyone will care and will mourned you. Although, the better option here is to not kill yourself, so think about that, and you probably shouldn't kill yourself so yes stay safe g

No one already gives a fuck about me thats why I wanna die in way
Idk if thats the better option anyways tbh I wanna kms

 

[Wicket]

u dont have any friends who do drugs?

I have some but rave culture hasn't been a thing since the 90s in the uk lmao theyre crazy hard to find

 

[WilhelmThyWizard]

I have some but rave culture hasn't been a thing since the 90s in the uk lmao theyre crazy hard to find

try 2 find some1 who listen to pink floyd

 

[Wicket]

try 2 find some1 who listen to pink floyd

Nigga how am I supposed to find someone who listens to pink floyd

 

[thekey]

No one already gives a fuck about me thats why I wanna die in way
Idk if thats the better option anyways tbh I wanna kms

Nigga just dont kill yourself, whatever reasons you have aren't good enough reasons. Just keep living bro, and if you wait 70 years you'll kill yourself by natural causes.

 

[Wicket]

Nigga just dont kill yourself, whatever reasons you have aren't good enough reasons. Just keep living bro, and if you wait 70 years you'll kill yourself by natural causes.

The last way I want to go is by.natural causes lmao
I have my reasons and in my mind those reasons are good enough

 

[thekey]

The last way I want to go is by.natural causes lmao
I have my reasons and in my mind those reasons are good enough

Good enough? The only reasons that are good enough to kill yourself is if you are going to jail for life, or the Mexican cartel is going to skin you alive or some shit. I dont know you, but i know that you shouldn't kill yourself. I had a phase where I was suicidal too, but then I just woke up myself and decided to stop being so fucking sad. This may not be the same for you, but I dont want you to kill yourself.

 

[Wicket]

Good enough? The only reasons that are good enough to kill yourself is if you are going to jail for life, or the Mexican cartel is going to skin you alive or some shit. I dont know you, but i know that you shouldn't kill yourself. I had a phase where I was suicidal too, but then I just woke up myself and decided to stop being so fucking sad. This may not be the same for you, but I dont want you to kill yourself.

I want to kill myself tho. Its genuinely annoying to keep on living atp. I dont enjoy anything, I have 1 friend and shes an online friend, my family dont really care about me, i have pretty bad anxiety especially socially, my friend (the online one) very strongly believes i have autism because so does she and she sees a lot of the same traits in me as she has, and im just tired of everything and I cba to do anything for anyone or with anyone or even for myself anymore. Its not a matter of fact of just not being sad anymore because ive been suicidal for over half a decade now. Its draining and it needs to end.

 

[thekey]

I want to kill myself tho. Its genuinely annoying to keep on living atp. I dont enjoy anything, I have 1 friend and shes an online friend, my family dont really care about me, i have pretty bad anxiety especially socially, my friend (the online one) very strongly believes i have autism because so does she and she sees a lot of the same traits in me as she has, and im just tired of everything and I cba to do anything for anyone or with anyone or even for myself anymore. Its not a matter of fact of just not being sad anymore because ive been suicidal for over half a decade now. Its draining and it needs to end.

How do you think your friend would feel? She obviously enjoys talking with you, and I can assure you she doesnt want you to do this. The only advice i can give you, is to find something you enjoy, and enjoy it until you cant anymore. If you enjoy talking to your friend, do it until you cant anymore. If you enjoy puzzles, do them until you cant anymore. Find fun in anything, and enjoy the shit out of it. It's up to you to make decisions with your life, but I truly, dont want you to kill yourself.

 

[Wicket]

How do you think your friend would feel? She obviously enjoys talking with you, and I can assure you she doesnt want you to do this. The only advice i can give you, is to find something you enjoy, and enjoy it until you cant anymore. If you enjoy talking to your friend, do it until you cant anymore. If you enjoy puzzles, do them until you cant anymore. Find fun in anything, and enjoy the shit out of it. It's up to you to make decisions with your life, but I truly, dont want you to kill yourself.

I guess shed care but shed move on with life like everyone does. Me killing myself wont stop her from finishing her life goals will it. And I literally cant enjoy anything. Nothing is fun to me anymore I cant even think of things that are genuinely fun to me and dont get boring after a few hours of me doing it. I just hate it all

 

[thekey]

I guess shed care but shed move on with life like everyone does. Me killing myself wont stop her from finishing her life goals will it. And I literally cant enjoy anything. Nothing is fun to me anymore I cant even think of things that are genuinely fun to me and dont get boring after a few hours of me doing it. I just hate it all

She would move on, but thats not the point. She would care, and would blame herself for not seeing your behaviors, and try to stop it. And she wouldn't move on instantly. I agree with you, that there are not many fun things, but you should still try to have as much fun as possible. Try new things, like being places you've never been before in your city, and if you are a gamer, there is an endless amount of free games if you pirate. Life is boring at some parts, but you just have to keep pushing. You will eventually stop being suicidal. I know you said its been half a decade, but just wait half a decade more. Your family may not show it, but they care about you, they cafe about you enough to feed you, and clothe you, and pay for things. And for them to see you dead, would waste 17 years of their life, waiting for their son to achieve his dreams, all for him to kill himself. Im not trying to put on this weight on you, im just being honest.

 

[Wicket]

She would move on, but thats not the point. She would care, and would blame herself for not seeing your behaviors, and try to stop it. And she wouldn't move on instantly. I agree with you, that there are not many fun things, but you should still try to have as much fun as possible. Try new things, like being places you've never been before in your city, and if you are a gamer, there is an endless amount of free games if you pirate. Life is boring at some parts, but you just have to keep pushing. You will eventually stop being suicidal. I know you said its been half a decade, but just wait half a decade more. Your family may not show it, but they care about you, they cafe about you enough to feed you, and clothe you, and pay for things. And for them to see you dead, would waste 17 years of their life, waiting for their son to achieve his dreams, all for him to kill himself. Im not trying to put on this weight on you, im just being honest.

The thing is with her is she already knows about my thoughts. Ive told her about them a few times but I cant be a burden on her like I am with everyone else anymore. I wish i could pirate games too but all i have is an xbox and I cant get shit with that. I also dont think my family would really care if I weren't here tomorrow. I dont think they really care for my future and ive always been the child that will probably amount to nothing in his life. I just think with me gone it'll be a big weight off the shoulder of everyone because all I am is a burden to everyone and im tired of it.

 

[thekey]

The thing is with her is she already knows about my thoughts. Ive told her about them a few times but I cant be a burden on her like I am with everyone else anymore. I wish i could pirate games too but all i have is an xbox and I cant get shit with that. I also dont think my family would really care if I weren't here tomorrow. I dont think they really care for my future and ive always been the child that will probably amount to nothing in his life. I just think with me gone it'll be a big weight off the shoulder of everyone because all I am is a burden to everyone and im tired of it.

You are just thinking negatively. I know this sounds like some cope shit, but I can assure you, nothing is as bad as you think. I thought my parents hated me too, but then I realized, I was just in a mindset where I was think the worse of everything. Your family cares, your friend cares, and you aren't a burden to anyone. Prove your family wrong. You aren't the kid that will amount to nothing. You will succeed, whether that may be getting rich, going to college, or even, just living. But I can only give you so much advice, you are 2 years older then me, and who knows, maybe i will be in the same position as you, so I have no idea exactly what you are feeling. But I do know, that you shouldn't kill yourself. Try to socialize with your family more, get to know them better, because it seems like you aren't very sure if they care about you or not. Spend more time with them, talk to them about the weather or something. I know you are socially awkward, I am too, but you can still try to talk to your family. I believe you will get through this drought, it won't be like this for long. Just keep going, and you will look back and think this whole phase was retarded. Don't give up.

 

[Wicket]

You are just thinking negatively. I know this sounds like some cope shit, but I can assure you, nothing is as bad as you think. I thought my parents hated me too, but then I realized, I was just in a mindset where I was think the worse of everything. Your family cares, your friend cares, and you aren't a burden to anyone. Prove your family wrong. You aren't the kid that will amount to nothing. You will succeed, whether that may be getting rich, going to college, or even, just living. But I can only give you so much advice, you are 2 years older then me, and who knows, maybe i will be in the same position as you, so I have no idea exactly what you are feeling. But I do know, that you shouldn't kill yourself. Try to socialize with your family more, get to know them better, because it seems like you aren't very sure if they care about you or not. Spend more time with them, talk to them about the weather or something. I know you are socially awkward, I am too, but you can still try to talk to your family. I believe you will get through this drought, it won't be like this for long. Just keep going, and you will look back and think this whole phase was retarded. Don't give up.

Ill try not to give up but its hard. I cha with anything and I dont even enjoy anything I used to. I can hardly be arsed to watch the ufc which I used to bw completely obsessed with. Its so weird man.

 

[thekey]

Ill try not to give up but its hard. I cha with anything and I dont even enjoy anything I used to. I can hardly be arsed to watch the ufc which I used to bw completely obsessed with. Its so weird man.

You can do this.