MoggerGaston
Nobody mogs like Gaston
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I remember being a truecel subhuman when I was younger. Fat, lazy eye (eyepatch), shit clothing, shit haircut, ugly face, etc.
Was getting bullied and harassed starting the moment I went to public school (age 4).
But personality-wise? I would fight anyone that disrespected me. Would get into fights weekly.
Kids would make fun of my lazy eye and the eyepatch? I would tackle them and throw sand in their face.
Girls called me 'blubbertits'? I would knock them over and tell them to apologize.
I was ruthless and kids knew to not mess with me because I would use my large size/strength to physically hurt them.
Then in my puberty it all went wrong, I became a loner that coped with videogames, stopped fighting for my place in the pecking order. I remember this very well on the day that I had a website made about me where people in my school made fun of the way I looked. When I looked at that website I realized my social-life was over, and completely convinced myself that the only social life I should focus on now is the one in my videogames.
I stopped trying and caring.
Apathy.
Apathy is the path towards depression. It may be easy to cope with something by not caring about.
'it doesnt matter that I am poor, money doesnt matter.' 'it doesnt matter that I am single, women wouldn't add any value to my life'.
but whilst having apathy can help you cope with negative emotions, it will kill any passion, drive, energy that you might have or get.
No drive, no energy = no life. It's depression.
My current life and my mental depression is caused by a lack of care. Apathy. A lack of wanting to succeed, wanting to mog, wanting to be out there and be in people's face.
Even if you can't find a fix for your issues right now, you don't believe you can find a fix. Never stop caring about it and keep thinking of better times ahead, maybe some opportunity will get on your path.
Fuck I hate stoicism and the path it put me on in my late teens. Emotions is what makes us human and focusing on rationality kills our mental drive, spirit, flow.
Was getting bullied and harassed starting the moment I went to public school (age 4).
But personality-wise? I would fight anyone that disrespected me. Would get into fights weekly.
Kids would make fun of my lazy eye and the eyepatch? I would tackle them and throw sand in their face.
Girls called me 'blubbertits'? I would knock them over and tell them to apologize.
I was ruthless and kids knew to not mess with me because I would use my large size/strength to physically hurt them.
Then in my puberty it all went wrong, I became a loner that coped with videogames, stopped fighting for my place in the pecking order. I remember this very well on the day that I had a website made about me where people in my school made fun of the way I looked. When I looked at that website I realized my social-life was over, and completely convinced myself that the only social life I should focus on now is the one in my videogames.
I stopped trying and caring.
Apathy.
Apathy is the path towards depression. It may be easy to cope with something by not caring about.
'it doesnt matter that I am poor, money doesnt matter.' 'it doesnt matter that I am single, women wouldn't add any value to my life'.
but whilst having apathy can help you cope with negative emotions, it will kill any passion, drive, energy that you might have or get.
No drive, no energy = no life. It's depression.
My current life and my mental depression is caused by a lack of care. Apathy. A lack of wanting to succeed, wanting to mog, wanting to be out there and be in people's face.
Even if you can't find a fix for your issues right now, you don't believe you can find a fix. Never stop caring about it and keep thinking of better times ahead, maybe some opportunity will get on your path.
Fuck I hate stoicism and the path it put me on in my late teens. Emotions is what makes us human and focusing on rationality kills our mental drive, spirit, flow.
