I have been doing the same thing everyday since June

[bignosesmallchin]

I have been rotting in my room going to bed at 7am every day, playing warzone, jerking off, smoking weed, not showering, I am a true rotter, I doubt anyone else here is this extreme. Before June I had a job, but only for 2 months, before that I was rotting my whole life doing the same shit, I've had 3 jobs and none have lasted over 3 months, hopefully I break this cycle soon, I almost did last year but I fucked up. I live like I am severely mentally ill, I'm pretty sure I am mentally ill, but not to the extent where it justifies living like this, I have become accustomed to living in filth, not to mention my bedroom has black mold.

 

[Barbarian]

The first step is acknowledging

 

[bignosesmallchin]

The first step is acknowledging

I've been self aware the whole time, that's the worst part, from the beginning I knew I was destroying my life but I never cared tbh, I have no drive to do anything else even though I want to. I blame the jews.

 

[Barbarian]

U r prob repressing something.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

U r prob repressing something.

What does that mean?

 

[Barbarian]

U prob rly want somsthing but are scared to get it so u rot instead

 

[Deleted member 19174]

Chill lifestyle

 

[Deleted member 22063]

I've been self aware the whole time, that's the worst part, from the beginning I knew I was destroying my life but I never cared tbh, I have no drive to do anything else even though I want to. I blame the jews.

this is how i feel. it's just not worth it. doing shit isn't worth it.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

U prob rly want somsthing but are scared to get it so u rot instead

I want to be powerful tbh ngl, I need to start asserting my dominance instead of being a spineless cuck

 

[bignosesmallchin]

Chill lifestyle

It's chill but it gets old, I've been living like this since I was 12, I'm almost 21, its worse now because I see everyone I grew up with doing shit with their lives while I'm stuck rotting.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

this is how i feel. it's just not worth it. doing shit isn't worth it.

I don't feel like it's not worth it, I think it comes down to laziness and caring too much about what others think, for me at least, if I just stopped giving a fuck about anyone else I would be successful, like my bdd keeps me from just getting up and going to do something with my life because the second I look in a mirror I start thinking about what other people would think if they saw me, I'm comfortable in my body when no one else is around but being around people makes me crawl into a shell and act like someone I'm not.

 

[Deleted member 24940]

How do you afford this?

 

[Barbarian]

I don't feel like it's not worth it, I think it comes down to laziness and caring too much about what others think, for me at least, if I just stopped giving a fuck about anyone else I would be successful, like my bdd keeps me from just getting up and going to do something with my life because the second I look in a mirror I start thinking about what other people would think if they saw me, I'm comfortable in my body when no one else is around but being around people makes me crawl into a shell and act like someone I'm not.

No one gives a shit about what u look like. U are going to be dead one day. Dont waste all ur time

 

[Deleted member 24940]

the second I look in a mirror I start thinking about what other people would think if they saw me

If it makes you feel better most people don't care, your like an NPC in the background of their lives that they don't notice at all. They are too busy thinking about themselves, how they are being perceived by others, or if they are secure they are thinking about their tasks that must be completed before the end of the day.

You are literally invisible to everyone and not that important, unless your literally deformed or smell really bad.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

How do you afford this?

I don't, I have been starving and eat maybe 1500 calories a day, last night for dinner I had a handful of freezer burnt fries and expired ketchup, my mom just bought hot dogs and a new bag of fries though so I'll be eating good tonight, I don't pay for entertainment either, I watch YouTube and play free games on a stock Xbox one from 2013, my total expenses are probably the same as a dogs so my mom just let's me rot.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

If it makes you feel better most people don't care, your like an NPC in the background of their lives that they don't notice at all. They are too busy thinking about themselves, how they are being perceived by others, or if they are secure they are thinking about their tasks that must be completed before the end of the day.

You are literally invisible to everyone and not that important, unless your literally deformed or smell really bad.

I realize that, but a man's whole purpose is to reproduce, that's literally the one thing that drives people towards success, if I feel women are disgusted by me, that just completely shuts down any motivation I do have. I realize that success brings women though, so I could just get through this shit period in time and then eventually women will want me, but with no testosterone I have no motivation, and with testosterone I have motivation but an awful lot of sexual frustration that will inevitably end me up back where I started, as a rotting coomer, and then over time the testosterone I've built up will deplete and I will be a spineless cuck with no drive again. It's a vicious cycle.

 

[Deleted member 24940]

I realize that, but a man's whole purpose is to reproduce, that's literally the one thing that drives people towards success, if I feel women are disgusted by me, that just completely shuts down any motivation I do have. I realize that success brings women though, so I could just get through this shit period in time and then eventually women will want me, but with no testosterone I have no motivation, and with testosterone I have motivation but an awful lot of sexual frustration that will inevitably end me up back where I started, as a rotting coomer, and then over time the testosterone I've built up will deplete and I will be a spineless cuck with no drive again. It's a vicious cycle.

Your too neurotic an overthinking shit. Just start small and get a job at a store. Once you do that for 2-3 months use some of your savings to fuck an escort, after you do this and get a taste of sex a few months later add some basic looksmaxxing like gym and haircut.

 

[Deleted member 24940]

@FailedNormieManlet give this nigga some advice so he can get like you, he's down bad.

 

[fauxfox]

Play overwatch it's better than warzone

 

[bignosesmallchin]

Your too neurotic an overthinking shit. Just start small and get a job at a store. Once you do that for 2-3 months use some of your savings to fuck an escort.

I don't need escorts, I'm not a virgin, I just feel like women are disgusted by me. I was ghosted by all the women who have fucked me.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

Play overwatch it's better than warzone

Hero shooters are for faggots and weebs

 

[Bojack]

Man fk working nigguh

 

[fauxfox]

Hero shooters are for faggots and weebs

Have you actually tried it? Far more skillful and dynamic than massive warzone map

 

[bignosesmallchin]

Have you actually tried it? Far more skillful and dynamic than massive warzone map

I only like COD tbh, I've been used to call of duty movements since I was a kid so any other game doesn't feel right, I've been trying to get into R6 but I hate the movement so it's hard to enjoy.

And I like big maps cuz I like playing stealthy, on the warzone map I can take out a whole squad 200 meters away with just a sniper and half the time they never even see me, pubg is fun too but I'm not a fan of the movement either so I don't play much, I'd like a tactical game that is also fast paced, something like R6 but with call of duty movement would be best, ima just wait for VR shooters to get more advanced before I drop COD.

 

[Deleted member 26197]

I don't, I have been starving and eat maybe 1500 calories a day, last night for dinner I had a handful of freezer burnt fries and expired ketchup, my mom just bought hot dogs and a new bag of fries though so I'll be eating good tonight, I don't pay for entertainment either, I watch YouTube and play free games on a stock Xbox one from 2013, my total expenses are probably the same as a dogs so my mom just let's me rot.

Join college

Also, wtf you are living with 1500 calories a day you'll need more for the bulking section.

 

[bignosesmallchin]

Join college

Also, wtf you are living with 1500 calories a day you'll need more for the bulking section.

I'm a dropout nigga, I need my grade 11 and grade 12 in order to go to college. Ova

 

[Tusseleif]

I’ve been rotting ever since 2013 or 2014, just different school/work/neet circumstances