i have mommy issues

[BlondKanyeWest]

Having a mother that would force me into "clubs" for neurodivergent children like i am some form of lab rat, only for her to then pay for retarded courses about how to raise autistic children so she could use me as some form of token, fucking me up in my formational years, and now as an adult realizing how dehumanizing all of this was, and when i try to confront her about all this she guilt trips me with a pathetic attempt at fake crying + a speech that sounds rehearsed. All of this information just makes me resentful, i dont wanna feel this way, i dont wanna resent my own mother, thats wrong, but its genuenly getting hard to avoid, because its not only this, its her side of the genetics what nerfed me facially with my close set eyes, recessed supras and infras and extreme upper eyelid exposure, qs well as a shit jaw angle... fuck i gotta speak to my psycologist about ts