I have no life outside of looksmaxing

[ZyzzBrah]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

 

[inversions]

I should move to .is?

ive been in 2 relationships

You can't

 

[Ceoptism]

if thats your goal no reason to stop working towards it if thats what your motivation is for, but consider big picture, you'll still need some concept of self to live your life, so don't put every last egg into the self improvement basket for the rest of your life, but for the time being its understandable.

 

[ZyzzBrah]

if thats your goal no reason to stop working towards it if thats what your motivation is for, but consider big picture, you'll still need some concept of self to live your life, so don't put every last egg into the self improvement basket for the rest of your life, but for the time being its understandable.

Yea im definitely not gonna be like this forever, but for the next 2 - 3 years this is how I want to be.

Its like a mental block, I just dont wanna interact with society anymore until I ascend, ive been hurt way to many times.

 

[Ceoptism]

Interact as you see fit, but remember you can't start socially from nothing, ideally you have a stepping stone so no need to cut off everyone, but keeping it surface level with everybody you interact with isn't a problem short term if it doesn't align with your goals. Don't isolate entirely from your parents thats a bad idea, but work on your goals, and if they can't understand that, you likely can't make them understand. Asking for help on this forum about emotions and values will gain you nothing you won't get real answers, so create a stronger sense of self to consult rather than external help and biased advice from others

 

[Deleted member 271970]

how are you not slaying as a 6”3 MTN with a good physique???

 

[hej1377]

I assume looksmaxing is just partnof acheiveing a better life in which case just force yourself out,youre status mining yourself and on the weekdays worn overtime, invest and overtime youll have more money and surgery will be less of a burden,what do you make and in what field?

 

[hej1377]

spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)

And et the raw powder,itl be dirt cheap

 

[dawooddX]

If ur spending 100$ on dutasride ur doing something wrong

Research harder and find better sourcez

 

[chadisbeingmade]

spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw

do yourself a favour and stop buying from online phrama or whatever extortionate source you are currently using and either buy from IndiaMART (find a reputable seller) or buy generic dut powder from China and compound your own softgels.

mirin thread tho.

 

[llane9]

you can easily run 2.5 dut for less than $100 a year if u make ur own, $100 a month is comical.

 

[harmonytingfam]

spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)

that price is fucked cunt, mirin either way

 

[ZyzzBrah]

how are you not slaying as a 6”3 MTN with a good physique???

being tall isnt nearly as important as your facecard, although ive been in 2 relationships so I guess its not for nothing

I assume looksmaxing is just partnof acheiveing a better life in which case just force yourself out,youre status mining yourself and on the weekdays worn overtime, invest and overtime youll have more money and surgery will be less of a burden,what do you make and in what field?

Software engineer, 60k annually

do yourself a favour and stop buying from online phrama or whatever extortionate source you are currently using and either buy from IndiaMART (find a reputable seller) or buy generic dut powder from China and compound your own softgels.

mirin thread tho.

you can easily run 2.5 dut for less than $100 a year if u make ur own, $100 a month is comical.

If ur spending 100$ on dutasride ur doing something wrong

Research harder and find better sourcez

I use telehealth clinics lol, 5 telehealth clinics prescribing 0.5mg, I asked them all 5 to prescribe me 2.5mg and neither of them accepted. It cost like 23$ - 28$ per clinic for a 1 month supply of 0.5mg hence the 100$+ price for all 5.

Ill look into indiamart tbh, ive been meaning to increase my dut dose to 10mg anyways for 93% scalp dht suppression before I bump up the test dose.

 

[llane9]

being tall isnt nearly as important as your facecard, although ive been in 2 relationships so I guess its not for nothing


Software engineer, 60k annually




I use telehealth clinics lol, 5 telehealth clinics prescribing 0.5mg, I asked them all 5 to prescribe me 2.5mg and neither of them accepted. It cost like 23$ - 28$ per clinic for a 1 month supply of 0.5mg hence the 100$+ price for all 5.

Ill look into indiamart tbh, ive been meaning to increase my dut dose to 10mg anyways for 93% scalp dht suppression before I bump up the test dose.

if you need help sourcing powder and making ur own capsules just dm me

 

[hej1377]

being tall isnt nearly as important as your facecard, although ive been in 2 relationships so I guess its not for nothing


Software engineer, 60k annually




I use telehealth clinics lol, 5 telehealth clinics prescribing 0.5mg, I asked them all 5 to prescribe me 2.5mg and neither of them accepted. It cost like 23$ - 28$ per clinic for a 1 month supply of 0.5mg hence the 100$+ price for all 5.

Ill look into indiamart tbh, ive been meaning to increase my dut dose to 10mg anyways for 93% scalp dht suppression before I bump up the test dose.

Well 60k is atleast pretty good and you should be looking at a solid carrer projection so i wouldnt worry if i were you

 

[Lookologist003]

being a slayer was my facial flaws

If it isn't your jaws that are holding your looks back, then I'm sorry to say you wont become a slayer after surgeons do work on your face. Everything else is quite primitive compared to jaw surgery. And even jaw surgery can sometimes go wrong. The only man-made Chads I've seen are birdcels who get a bixmax. But those guys had strong eye areas and hairlines and were only missing that one crucial element of jaw. If that's you, then proceed with those dreams.

But if you've had relationships at that age, you're doing good in this new world. You'd do better if you can release this dream of a slayership that will never come and focus on a woman who would bare your child and her family. I've had no relationships despite trying and am older than you. If I were you I'd seriously quit while I was ahead. You're already 2/3rd of the way to a good life earning that much and it being proven that women are attracted to you as you are.

Ironically I find the idea of slaying childish. And the young guys who want to slay wont have the means to even in the concrete scenario where a bimax would take them to that 7+ Chad tier. Unless they can get a loan or have a career where they can take months of leave or have savings already.

I think I find it childish because it just doesn't build to anything, having sex with a bunch of women, who you don't know.
If I were a Chad, I would probably just enjoy the feeling of being wanted by a girl, who you know loves you with all her heart and looks up to you, and a day sooner than you think you'll be raising the next generation in a happy family, not one where there is a dead bedroom and the wife and husband met at 35 and there's an air of desperation about the relationship: he has been focusing on himself (jfl) and she is being haunted by her biological clock. And then at 45, divorced, smoking crater. That type of shit. That's me if I don't get sent my own way entirely.

Life is brutal for incels. But it doesn't have to be that way for you Chadly dude who's already kissed two women.

 

[griffithmaxer]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

Most relatable thread I've ever read on this forum I'm 16 though and all day every day I'm obsessed with self-improvement especially my face, I do not think this feeling is temporary either. Sadly this word doesn't give two fucks about my intelligence or what I have to offer only my looks, I want to get older for surgery so so bad

 

[brutalist0]

If it isn't your jaws that are holding your looks back, then I'm sorry to say you wont become a slayer after surgeons do work on your face. Everything else is quite primitive compared to jaw surgery. And even jaw surgery can sometimes go wrong. The only man-made Chads I've seen are birdcels who get a bixmax. But those guys had strong eye areas and hairlines and were only missing that one crucial element of jaw. If that's you, then proceed with those dreams.

But if you've had relationships at that age, you're doing good in this new world. You'd do better if you can release this dream of a slayership that will never come and focus on a woman who would bare your child and her family. I've had no relationships despite trying and am older than you. If I were you I'd seriously quit while I was ahead. You're already 2/3rd of the way to a good life earning that much and it being proven that women are attracted to you as you are.

Ironically I find the idea of slaying childish. And the young guys who want to slay wont have the means to even in the concrete scenario where a bimax would take them to that 7+ Chad tier. Unless they can get a loan or have a career where they can take months of leave or have savings already.

I think I find it childish because it just doesn't build to anything, having sex with a bunch of women, who you don't know.
If I were a Chad, I would probably just enjoy the feeling of being wanted by a girl, who you know loves you with all her heart and looks up to you, and a day sooner than you think you'll be raising the next generation in a happy family, not one where there is a dead bedroom and the wife and husband met at 35 and there's an air of desperation about the relationship: he has been focusing on himself (jfl) and she is being haunted by her biological clock. And then at 45, divorced, smoking crater. That type of shit. That's me if I don't get sent my own way entirely.

Life is brutal for incels. But it doesn't have to be that way for you Chadly dude who's already kissed two women.

glad to see there is someone else on this godforsaken website who thinks this way. I have to admit im more of a fakecel than I would like to admit but genuinely slaying all the time has to be tiring and unfulfilling imo

 

[Deleted member 271970]

being tall isnt nearly as important as your facecard, although ive been in 2 relationships so I guess its not for nothing

But MTN is pretty GOOD tho, if you’re 6”3 mtn with a body halo, decent status and income, and your goal is to slay it shouldn’t be that hard. Like you’re already doing well for yourself bro is it really worth cutting of your friends for this ‘ascension’ that isn’t even guaranteed? And aren’t you going to be in your late 20s IF you do ascend, do you really still want to be ‘slaying’ as a nearly 30 year old man. I KNOW this is a looksmaxing forum but there’s gotta be more to life

 

[aklifaal]

zyzzbrah

 

[lightswinning]

crazy mirin tbh

 

[shalomnigga]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

Fuck are lives are extremely parallel except i’m 19 and shorter i need to fucking nuke me e2 as the libido from roids is making me lose focus how have u felt with that?

 

[xzylecrey]

Ts sounds like its gna be me pretty soon. I barely hang out with my friends anyway and im deadset on my hardmax goals. I think being frugal is smart.

 

[scarr]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie fori

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

mirin fr. ive been avoiding hanging out with friends for over a year because i feel like i can only show my face at functions once ive had a crazy ascension. Got a hardmax planned in january tho so thats good

 

[iblamegenetics7681]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

I see my future and it’s bright

 

[LEFORT17]

Im 24, I work a 9 to 5, almost all of the money I make is sent towards my savings account for surgery (trimax and canthoplasty) and running my steroid cycles + bloodwork panels. I am extremely frugal with my money and hate spending it unless its for looksmaxing purposes (spending $100+/month for 2.5mg dutasteride alone btw)



Since graduating uni and getting employed, I stopped hanging out with friends or doing anything that isnt conducive to my looksmaxing goals, im either at work (sometimes working overtime), at the gym training my ass off, getting my meals in or doing cardio so the roids dont kill me. I bought a treadmill so I can jog at home without having to go outside and be judged for my recessions.



Even my attitude at the gym changed, I started training in 2019 and stayed natty until 2-3 months ago when I hopped on, when I was natty I was the gym socialiser, I was talking to literally everyone lmao. Where as now, I train hard as fuck, and I literally dont talk to anyone, nor do I want too, I have literally zero interest. I legit have yet to make a single friend at the new gym that I train at and I plan to keep it that way.



I have been living like this for 3 months now and I honestly love it despite how aspie it is. From ages 19 until 22/23 I tried coping with being a low MTN by being social and jestermaxing, but it was a complete fucking waste of time, no matter how many friends and ig followers you have, youre not getting respected in society if youre sub HTN. This is despite being 6ft3 and jacked btw, proof height/physique is useless without a facecard.



I have many blackpills from my jestermaxing period but to summarize they all taught me that the biggest hurdle in life stopping me from being a slayer was my facial flaws, no amount of game and personality witt/charisma is saving a retruded maxilla and nct. The funny thing is I was one of the wittiest/funniest guys in my friend group and social circles.



Now that im employed, I just dont see the point doing anything that doesn't help me ascend one way or another, whether that be wageslaving overtime, workout out, pinning roids, taking tret and other anti aging supps etc. I literally dont leave my house except for work or gym, and I barely talk to anyone either, its all a distraction to me.



Whats crazy is i wasnt like this before like i said lol, ive been in 2 relationships and I was part of a few friends groups who id usually go out to eat with every weekend or go over to watch movies, im literally un recognizable. I stopped responded to text messages from all my friends and completely vanished out of their lives, with zero explanation either (they were kind of dickheads tbh)



I literally dont see the point of living if im not beautiful, genuinely. The amount of societal praise and worship good looking people get is so unfair, worshipped for existing, go read the comments women leave on thirst trap pages, who wouldnt want that?? I have essentially accepted putting my entire life on pause until I ascend. My parents genuinely think im crazy but I dont care, they are bluepulled asf.



Is there anyone else who can relate or is this too aspie for this forum and I should move to .is? Lmao

based af. i dont know who you are but u got the right mindset to change your future. gl we on the same path

 

[ZyzzBrah]

But MTN is pretty GOOD tho, if you’re 6”3 mtn with a body halo, decent status and income, and your goal is to slay it shouldn’t be that hard. Like you’re already doing well for yourself bro is it really worth cutting of your friends for this ‘ascension’ that isn’t even guaranteed? And aren’t you going to be in your late 20s IF you do ascend, do you really still want to be ‘slaying’ as a nearly 30 year old man. I KNOW this is a looksmaxing forum but there’s gotta be more to life

I struggle with this a lot honestly, i mentally flip flop between wanting to be a degenerate slayer, or find a hqnp LTR to wife up and being on some "moral" shit. Slaying does seem like a spiritually empty endeavour though, and its a little odd being 30+ trying to slay, unless youre @Amnesia. You get an INSANE societal status boost if you slay chick's on the regular, especially from other dudes, ive seen this first hand.

Regardless of whether i chose to slay though, its more about the validation very good looking people get on their day to day life. Im MTN and ive had a few girls be attracted to me, that is true, but its only like 2% or 3% of every woman ive ever interacted with in my life. Most women aren't attracted to me lol, and I just cant mentally cope with that. When I read the comments married women leave on tiktok/ig thirst traps, or how women react to hot men in general, I just cant cope with not being treated like that on a regular basis by most of the girls in my life.

 

[zygocell]

Relatable asf

 

[AlphaLooksmaxxer666]

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