Wool
massive side framecel
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I don't like talking about how one thing affects my life so much. I have a chest deformity called pectus carinatum which means that my sternum sticks out my chest more than an average person (a lot more). This means that it gives my side profile a weird look (too wide sidewards due to chest poking out). This is an immediate effect. Simultaneously, it causes my shoulders to roll forward. Don't say just practice posture, I have, I have maxxed it out as much as I can without looking like a idiot. I can't just push them back and stand straight. It is the way they are sitting because of my chest. This in return causes my neck to look weirdly placed and my back to be pronounced more. All this from a chest deformity.
This has affected my for over 6 years, especially the past year where I have had bad depression, I can't wear shirts, or anything that shows my chest too much, ruining my clothing choice. I gymcelled for around 3 months making progress but have been disheartened over the past month or two due to my chest. I don't want to go the gym because my frame still wouldnt look better. I have managed (took a long time and lots of tries) to get an appointment with a doctor for wednesday next week. However, I live in the UK and this is the NHS. If they believe this is for cosmetic reasons, they will most likely deny surgery, especially if "It isnt causing harm to your heat so you're fine". I just hope that something can happen, this is the only hope I have at the moment and if it goes badly I will most likely fall further into depression. Don't feel motivated to do anything unless my chest can get fixed and until it is fixed. A BIG if.
This has affected my for over 6 years, especially the past year where I have had bad depression, I can't wear shirts, or anything that shows my chest too much, ruining my clothing choice. I gymcelled for around 3 months making progress but have been disheartened over the past month or two due to my chest. I don't want to go the gym because my frame still wouldnt look better. I have managed (took a long time and lots of tries) to get an appointment with a doctor for wednesday next week. However, I live in the UK and this is the NHS. If they believe this is for cosmetic reasons, they will most likely deny surgery, especially if "It isnt causing harm to your heat so you're fine". I just hope that something can happen, this is the only hope I have at the moment and if it goes badly I will most likely fall further into depression. Don't feel motivated to do anything unless my chest can get fixed and until it is fixed. A BIG if.