g4rlic
black gengar basically
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I am taking accountability for my lack in ascension. I have nothing now. this forum is all I have now. I am officially an incel. ascending is really the only goal I have or thing to look forward to. I've been listening too much to "ur mtn for a black dude" cope for too long because I am running away from the fact that my genetics are not enough. they were never enough. however much better I looked in HS, the base clearly wasn't even that good anyways or else I'd have abv 4 harmony and my genetics are clearly 100% failing me now lol
lets say I even am """""""mtn"""". could I look at my face and accept the very very hypothetical woman that "could" love me. no. is there much room for me to improve other aspects of my life for love? I could write a paragraph on why but no. I am not going to be a hopeless romantic urkcel jestering myself to social exhaustion for a woman to tolerate me. sorry but that's sad. I have always lived the jester route before and it just made me tired.i don't want to be an interesting person for a demographic that honestly wouldn't care if I died. I AM NOT getting with an obese foid with Jung look as her pfp and who looks at me with regret.
its over and I am not enough. I was failed by nature. I am nothing. I need to stop listening to redditors and the people around me I am meaningless thus I must cut into my face if I want anything meaningful to me out of life.i am all I have. family looks at me with apathy, dance around the topic of my looks. the best friend I had in highschool took the same bus as me and wont even look me in the eye. it is what it is. my oneitis 100000000000000% with certainty would not give a fuck about my existence if she saw me. I need to let go. it hurts because she tethered me, but I need to let go.
I'm in a good position, I have a car, a decent paying flexible job that I am ok at. I can get some consultations and a second job, I will try to delicate the next 2 years or so to hardmaxxing.
lets say I even am """""""mtn"""". could I look at my face and accept the very very hypothetical woman that "could" love me. no. is there much room for me to improve other aspects of my life for love? I could write a paragraph on why but no. I am not going to be a hopeless romantic urkcel jestering myself to social exhaustion for a woman to tolerate me. sorry but that's sad. I have always lived the jester route before and it just made me tired.i don't want to be an interesting person for a demographic that honestly wouldn't care if I died. I AM NOT getting with an obese foid with Jung look as her pfp and who looks at me with regret.
its over and I am not enough. I was failed by nature. I am nothing. I need to stop listening to redditors and the people around me I am meaningless thus I must cut into my face if I want anything meaningful to me out of life.i am all I have. family looks at me with apathy, dance around the topic of my looks. the best friend I had in highschool took the same bus as me and wont even look me in the eye. it is what it is. my oneitis 100000000000000% with certainty would not give a fuck about my existence if she saw me. I need to let go. it hurts because she tethered me, but I need to let go.
I'm in a good position, I have a car, a decent paying flexible job that I am ok at. I can get some consultations and a second job, I will try to delicate the next 2 years or so to hardmaxxing.
cuz they are rare asf
