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It's me, and it is a mixture of a few things. Firstly, I have social anxiety and an irrational fear of women my age due to being bullied by them in school, so I instantly believe that every woman my age is bullying me or is out to get me. Secondly, while I am extroverted and can easily talk to people, I purposefully keep myself from doing so, because of my social anxiety. I would consider myself extroverted because I can do things that no introverted person can do, I just have massive anxiety. Thirdly, I purposefully ruin chances that I have, because I hate myself.If thats you and your not trolling your not ugly at all. The fact you got approached at all is tell tell
You likely just lack social intelligence (nonnt).
This means you presence socially is probably low. Preselection is how you get girls and stuff. Extrovertness implies attractive.
Dont get any surgery and fuck your face up. Your going to regret it. Your face is not bad at all. Most forms of looksmax that determines ascention is minor things like teeth whitening, braces, hair, and style.
Also dont follow the surgery paths here too much. inceldom because of looks is fake shit. Its way deeper than that.
Right now, for example, I'm legitimately ignoring my female co-worker who might have interest in me, because of multiple reasons. One, my fear of women bullying me has led me to believe her staring at me and talking about me with my supervisor is her bullying me. Two, my self hatred makes me genuinely believe that I am the ugliest person in the universe, a borderline subhuman entity. Three, I purposefully stop myself from talking to her, because I don't feel like I deserve to do so. And finally, four, which is my fear of approaching, but that isn't that significant, as I have approached people in real life just fine, even after being really scared. I am very non-NT.
OK, I will not get surgery. To be honest, it's not like I'm ever gonna have the money for it anyways, lol. Right now, I'm just sticking to what I can control, like getting my weight up, getting healthy, and focusing on what I have now.