I haven't slept in nearly 24 hours

[Paroxysm]

And I feel like I'm dying. But I'm so ravaged by cortisol and obsessive thoughts that I literally can't fall asleep until my body shuts down completely

the moment i stop keeping my brain occupied with loud music or endless scrolling it feels like torture

 

[Paroxysm]

I don't know what the fuck went wrong with me. I was always on the melancholic side growing up but I had no idea it would get this bad