Xheca
dont cope just rope
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at this point its either everyone around me is genuienly lying straight into my eyes with full conviction and unity, or i am actually good looking but i hate how i look in every way imaginable, i litereally cant stand infront of a mirror if i wasnt complimented 5 mins ago, my anatomy and physiology teacher which i got close with because i litereally asked her about peptides too much she caught onto what i was trying to understand tells me i GENUIENLY look as good IF NOT BETTER than chico from the time he was the same age as me and tells me i shouldnt worry about any of this stuff but i just cant stand it, i get complimented (yes actually complimented not "my handsome boy" by older people or family) fairly consistently yet still
ive been going on dates with this one girl, whenever i try to tell if she actually likes me or not its like she HAS to like me and everyone tells me the same thing, my teacher, therapist, mom, close friends, lunchlady, everyone that ive told the story of but i just cant get the feeling of what if shes lying to me and she just sees me as a friend and likes the company i cant handle the idea of being judged i cant stand between other boys my age and feel safe its like i cant ever feel comfortable around other boys, i feel mogged and ridiculed and inferior just by standing near other boys, it was so bad that i genuienly believed i would get made fun of and bullied at the school i was transfering to the start of the school year and having to be forced into having no friends or girls even exist in the same hemisphere of the earth as me
i genuienly think that everyone is lying to me and theyre either secretly making fun of me or pity me so they do it out of pity i just cant see myself being happy with a woman and not having her fuck chad the pictosecond he even gazes in her general direction, or being able to marry a woman genueinly out of true love and not brutal copious levels of betabuxxing
i just wanted to get this off my chest and have anyone at all see this, thanks for reading
ive been going on dates with this one girl, whenever i try to tell if she actually likes me or not its like she HAS to like me and everyone tells me the same thing, my teacher, therapist, mom, close friends, lunchlady, everyone that ive told the story of but i just cant get the feeling of what if shes lying to me and she just sees me as a friend and likes the company i cant handle the idea of being judged i cant stand between other boys my age and feel safe its like i cant ever feel comfortable around other boys, i feel mogged and ridiculed and inferior just by standing near other boys, it was so bad that i genuienly believed i would get made fun of and bullied at the school i was transfering to the start of the school year and having to be forced into having no friends or girls even exist in the same hemisphere of the earth as me
i genuienly think that everyone is lying to me and theyre either secretly making fun of me or pity me so they do it out of pity i just cant see myself being happy with a woman and not having her fuck chad the pictosecond he even gazes in her general direction, or being able to marry a woman genueinly out of true love and not brutal copious levels of betabuxxing
i just wanted to get this off my chest and have anyone at all see this, thanks for reading