I just don't feel like I belong anywhere

[aBetterMii]

Whether I'm in call with my discord/irl (mix) friends or with IRL friends, or when I am in class or at work, or even just buying groceries. I just don't feel like I belong, I shouldn't be in call, or hanging out with, or working here, or everyone jn class around me has such normal lives and fit in, and I'm just different, in a piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit the picture way. Inb4, yes even on this site I feel this way. It used to make me a lot sadder and angrier but nowadays I often just dissasociate really hard most times. I'm a sigma lone wolf without the sigma or the wolf. I have always had these feelings but they have grown extremely strong as of late, overwhelming even, to the point where I am subconciously planning ways to isolate myself further, compared to when I would accidentally do it, or do it in a BPD way. I haven't done any of it, but just the OCD intrusive thoughts try and compell me to become totally alone with no contact outside of neccessity. Another strange feeling coinciding with this, I haven't been jerking off like I normally do, been trying to pracitce restraint. I would normally get so horny I couldn't even sleep till I rubbed one out, now even when I open tiktok I barely feel horny. It might actually be over

TLDR; BPD

 

[aBetterMii]

@oatmeal @Jim @LightSkinNoob @HarrierDuBois

 

[HarrierDuBois]

Welcome to the doomerclub, I have been waiting for your arrival.

 

[Bojack]

yea that happened to me too after my meltdown in nursing school. I was like all different n shit and they feked me over. Now I am hated/ignored everywhere I go.

 

[buckchadley31]

Came itt to say sum goofy but I can relate to this I'm ugly subhuman ova for me

 

[Bojack]

Came itt to say sum goofy but I can relate to this I'm ugly subhuman ova for me

sheeeit

 

[aBetterMii]

Welcome to the doomerclub, I have been waiting for your arrival.

I was doomer before it even became a meme. But now it is a different flavor of doom I had. I actually just had a dream where an outlet in my room caught fire. I go screaming for fire extinguisher and take pot of water from kitchen, parents are telling me just use glass of water its no big deal. By time I go up my room is totally gone (we are in some random dream house so layout is weird) and rest of house is fine. My mom comes up stairs and is hardly phased but is upset in a way, and says "Oh no, my house is ruined" but in a very non concerned way. In the dream, they had set it up like an inside job, to get me out the house and hurt me. I only just now conncected that dream to this feeling. Very sad shit

 

[HarrierDuBois]

I was doomer before it even became a meme. But now it is a different flavor of doom I had. I actually just had a dream where an outlet in my room caught fire. I go screaming for fire extinguisher and take pot of water from kitchen, parents are telling me just use glass of water its no big deal. By time I go up my room is totally gone (we are in some random dream house so layout is weird) and rest of house is fine. My mom comes up stairs and is hardly phased but is upset in a way, and says "Oh no, my house is ruined" but in a very non concerned way. In the dream, they had set it up like an inside job, to get me out the house and hurt me. I only just now conncected that dream to this feeling. Very sad shit

Mentalcel confirmed. You need to go get that checked wtf..

 

[aBetterMii]

Mentalcel confirmed. You need to go get that checked wtf..

This doesn't confirm my mentalceldom

 

[HarrierDuBois]

This doesn't confirm my mentalceldom

The mathematical ratios in your face and the success rate with women you have confirms your mentalceldom.

 

[Deleted member 21661]

Whether I'm in call with my discord/irl (mix) friends or with IRL friends, or when I am in class or at work, or even just buying groceries. I just don't feel like I belong, I shouldn't be in call, or hanging out with, or working here, or everyone jn class around me has such normal lives and fit in, and I'm just different, in a piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit the picture way. Inb4, yes even on this site I feel this way. It used to make me a lot sadder and angrier but nowadays I often just dissasociate really hard most times. I'm a sigma lone wolf without the sigma or the wolf. I have always had these feelings but they have grown extremely strong as of late, overwhelming even, to the point where I am subconciously planning ways to isolate myself further, compared to when I would accidentally do it, or do it in a BPD way. I haven't done any of it, but just the OCD intrusive thoughts try and compell me to become totally alone with no contact outside of neccessity. Another strange feeling coinciding with this, I haven't been jerking off like I normally do, been trying to pracitce restraint. I would normally get so horny I couldn't even sleep till I rubbed one out, now even when I open tiktok I barely feel horny. It might actually be over

TLDR; BPD

I relate. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, even here a place that is supposed to have other "outcasts"
It's not even like people hate me, I'm just different and can't really get along with them. But I don't think they'd like me really, maybe think I'm funny but never really like me

 

[ReadBooksEveryday]

Cuz you’re always LARPING

 

[aBetterMii]

Cuz you’re always LARPING

I don't larp tho

 

[ReadBooksEveryday]

I don't larp tho

You said you was incel. I supported you …

 

[aBetterMii]

You said you was incel. I supported you …

I mean I am, I haven't had sex since July despite continuous effort. Also I'm LTN and have no life.

 

[Deleted member 24371]

i feel exactly the same bro, u are not alone. we will be ok

 

[Deleted member 22401]

Whether I'm in call with my discord/irl (mix) friends or with IRL friends, or when I am in class or at work, or even just buying groceries. I just don't feel like I belong, I shouldn't be in call, or hanging out with, or working here, or everyone jn class around me has such normal lives and fit in, and I'm just different, in a piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit the picture way. Inb4, yes even on this site I feel this way. It used to make me a lot sadder and angrier but nowadays I often just dissasociate really hard most times. I'm a sigma lone wolf without the sigma or the wolf. I have always had these feelings but they have grown extremely strong as of late, overwhelming even, to the point where I am subconciously planning ways to isolate myself further, compared to when I would accidentally do it, or do it in a BPD way. I haven't done any of it, but just the OCD intrusive thoughts try and compell me to become totally alone with no contact outside of neccessity. Another strange feeling coinciding with this, I haven't been jerking off like I normally do, been trying to pracitce restraint. I would normally get so horny I couldn't even sleep till I rubbed one out, now even when I open tiktok I barely feel horny. It might actually be over

TLDR; BPD

Same with me I just come home from college and video games maxx I don’t feel like I belong anywhere