I just had a meltdown in front of my mom

[ebc]

damn sorry bro this sounds hella cooked

 

[ceceslayer]

I’m 19, and I have trauma from people robbing me on the street. After it happened, I ran back home crying and told my parents what happened. They said it was my fault for going outside so late (it was 9 pm).

Now, for the past 6 weeks, I’ve not been allowed to go outside after 4 pm. Today, I told them I wanted to go to the gym it was 5 pm, and my mom called my dad to ask. He said no.

I completely fucking lost it. I started smashing walls, slamming doors, crying, and screaming, saying I’m such a loser, I’m ugly, fat, I can’t even talk to people socially because I’ve been an introverted loser my whole life, only being online. My autism and ADHD don’t help either. I can’t fucking study without pills.

I called myself retarded, ugly, and fat in front of my mom. I can’t even fucking walk properly, and I’m not a fucking man at all. Instead of crying and running home, I should’ve done something back to the people who robbed me instead of being a pussy.

I’m such a loser, and my mom told me to go to a therapist and to pray to Allah to make my life better, and that I’m not ugly. First of all, Allah isn’t real, and I am fucking ugly. I’m an utter loser.

I also literally have 0 friends IRL, cause im a fucking loser and can’t even talk with people properly.. And all my old friends backstabbed me. I literally only have 1 friend and he lives in a different city

God i just wanna kill my fucking self im a legit loser i have no fucking future nothing, i have nothing good about myself i have no good qualities nothing im a fucking loser

sorry to hear bro try going out earlier and try finding a job to get ur own place