Diegomiz
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I hate almost every single aspect about myself, and not a day goes by where im not thinking about it. My mom is 5,3 my dad is 5,9. Both of my brothers are 5,9. Im 5,3 1/2 at 17 years old. yesterday I received possibly the worst news of life. I went to an endocrinologist and they pretty much told me that I was already fully developed and that I was pretty much done growing. The thing I cant stop thinking about that replays in my head over and over is when I went to the doctors in 7th grade for something unrelated. They ofc measure your height and weight, and I remember they said I was 5,2. Fast forward to my 16th birthday, and Im at the doctors again, and im telling him that I feel like somethings wrong cause im barley growing. He basically tells me to just wait it out cause people can stop growing late into their teen years. So I just went with it. So again I just went with it. Keep in mind I knew nothing about looksmaxxing or the BP. Come to now where I'm stuck as a 5,3 manlet for the rest of my life. Crazy part is that's not even the worst part. I could see past all of this, but my dick is even big, its actually kind of small. If I'm going to be short at least have the inches go somewhere else, or be tall but with a small dick. I just had to be unlucky enough get both. All this has caused me to have terrible social anxiety since middle school, and even worse now. Saying "Just be confident bro" doesn't help in the slightest cause there's nothing to be confident about. I'm also ltn with mmtn potential, but does that even matter if I'm 5,3 with small dick? It doesn't matter that my test is 611. None of it matters. The only 2 relationships I've had, I had to end early before it led to anything because I was to embarrassed of my dick. Obviously I'm in high school so ofc that it would get around that my dick is small. Maybe i have my intelligence that I can bank on, oh wait nvm. Im sure i limited my brain power in someway by abusing weed, and vapes throughout highscool to cope with everything else. My frame is regular but again that doesnt matter cause im 5,3. I dont think theres many people that truly understand how I feel. A friends mom was telling me copes like "tall people have more joint issues, back and knee problems." "shorter people live longer." stuff like that. It took everything in me to just not cry on the spot. She doesnt know that all my dreams were crushed. Who tf is going to respect a 5,3 guy in the college scene, or in any sort of sales, cooperate. jobs. Some might not believe this way but its true, even if your not thinking about it its all happening subconcously. The shorter dude always gets picked on the most even for unrelated stuff. There was another guy in my class who was deadass like 5,0, and every time he spoke in the class for than 3 minuets, without a doubt someone would yell "shut the fuck up name!" or "nobody cares midget." Crazy part is the teacher didnt care and lowkey picked on him to. Every time he would just talk it off and call the dude a monkey which is just way less of an insult than being called a midget. I have no idea what I would do if I was him. I've had suicidal thoughts for some time now cause I feel like there's almost nothing to live for. Only thing I think about is how my mom and dad would feel if i just died. They're probably the only thing keeping me going cause I cant imagine how they would feel knowing there son killed themselves. They would most likely think its their fault which I would never want to happen. Everyday I wake up wondering what I could've done to deserve this terrible life. Maybe in the next life Ill be a regular 5,8 dude with a regular dick, and could live life not being insecure every second of the day.
