CFW432
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It just happened tbh it snuck up on me and I didn't even notice. I'm a militarycel and earlier on today I was just working when I get a call from my supervisor, he tells me to stop by his office real quick. So I do, I went to his office he told me to sit down. He then asked me why didnt I tell him that his birthday was coming up. Tbh I had completely forgot, birthdays have been never a day in my life that I've celebrated.
I come from a strict conservative muslim family where birthdays were really never a thing. The one time I asked when it was my 16th birthday, my mom why she never celebrated me or any of my siblings birthdays or got us birthday presents, she just took one look at me laughed in my face and told me in our language "You want a birthday present? Here how about this, I let you live underneath the roof of my house where I keep you fed and clothed just like I have for the past 15 years that I've done, and I don't kick you out on the street where you can become homeless, there, happy birthday." And that was that. Idk man for some reason ethnic minority parents always have to be hardasses, where as white people basically throw a whole fucking carnival for their roastie daughters "SwEeT 16" lmao.
The next question he asked me was how old I was gonna be. I responded, and he laughed back joking "woah buddy you're getting old there". Ofc he is joking, but when you really think about it, it's not that far off from reality. A man's prime is from age 18-25. After 25, your body slowly starts deteriorating physically, mentally, and emotionally, I'm not really sure if it's the same for girls but according to the foids at the FDS "wahmen are kweenz 4 ever gurrrlllll."
Anyway after immediately realizing this reality an overwhelming sense of hopelessness came over me. I have spent 70-80 precent of my prime as a virgin, a KHHV no less. Forget about having sex with a girl, forget about even kissing one, FORGET ABOUT EVEN HOLDING ONES HAND, I have never held a girl romantically in my embrace in the form of a HUG in my life, not once, ever.
I wanted to just break down in tears right then in there, I'm not lying when I told you it took a monumental effort to not do so. After that he just spent a few more minutes chatting shit, while I was basically forced to just sit there grit my teeth' smile and nod my head as if I was listening to him. Finally he ended with that I could take the rest of the day off if I wanted to. Of course I quickly accepted, thanked him, and briskly walked to my car without trying to look like a sperg. The moment I got in my car I immediately collapsed into my self, but my car was parked in the middle of the parking lot and I didn't want to make a scene so I just finally drove away as fast as I could from there. I spent the remaining of my car drive home with tears pouring down my face. This is my fucking pathetic excuse of a "life", happy birthday to me.
I come from a strict conservative muslim family where birthdays were really never a thing. The one time I asked when it was my 16th birthday, my mom why she never celebrated me or any of my siblings birthdays or got us birthday presents, she just took one look at me laughed in my face and told me in our language "You want a birthday present? Here how about this, I let you live underneath the roof of my house where I keep you fed and clothed just like I have for the past 15 years that I've done, and I don't kick you out on the street where you can become homeless, there, happy birthday." And that was that. Idk man for some reason ethnic minority parents always have to be hardasses, where as white people basically throw a whole fucking carnival for their roastie daughters "SwEeT 16" lmao.
The next question he asked me was how old I was gonna be. I responded, and he laughed back joking "woah buddy you're getting old there". Ofc he is joking, but when you really think about it, it's not that far off from reality. A man's prime is from age 18-25. After 25, your body slowly starts deteriorating physically, mentally, and emotionally, I'm not really sure if it's the same for girls but according to the foids at the FDS "wahmen are kweenz 4 ever gurrrlllll."
Anyway after immediately realizing this reality an overwhelming sense of hopelessness came over me. I have spent 70-80 precent of my prime as a virgin, a KHHV no less. Forget about having sex with a girl, forget about even kissing one, FORGET ABOUT EVEN HOLDING ONES HAND, I have never held a girl romantically in my embrace in the form of a HUG in my life, not once, ever.
I wanted to just break down in tears right then in there, I'm not lying when I told you it took a monumental effort to not do so. After that he just spent a few more minutes chatting shit, while I was basically forced to just sit there grit my teeth' smile and nod my head as if I was listening to him. Finally he ended with that I could take the rest of the day off if I wanted to. Of course I quickly accepted, thanked him, and briskly walked to my car without trying to look like a sperg. The moment I got in my car I immediately collapsed into my self, but my car was parked in the middle of the parking lot and I didn't want to make a scene so I just finally drove away as fast as I could from there. I spent the remaining of my car drive home with tears pouring down my face. This is my fucking pathetic excuse of a "life", happy birthday to me.
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