i just want something to live for

[milkshake_addict]

i just want a reason to go on for some stupid reason as i was taking the bus home(FYI before this bus ride home a previous bus driver lost his shit on me just bcuz i was 10 cents off the mark and i had to wait a hour for the next bus) i was reflecting on my life and i realized i have nothing to strive for my family doesnt care for me , i dont even have friends i have ppl i hangout with sure but they dont like me and i leech onto them bcuz nobody else would even allow me near them and being alone is like asking to get degraded and when i try to be social ppl just ignore/downplay me even teachers in my school dont notice me, i get called ugly and hear ewws when i pass the hallways and grown adult staff memebres laugh as they hear ppl insult me afterschool i do homework/assignments just to completely fail it i hop on .org and try to help others in worse situtations or try to be a good person but who gives a fuck and it feels performative even though im not just the other night i reread my old thread and holy shit my life was a gazillion times better afterwards i head to the bathroom and cut myself i do this almost everyday so suicide isnt a super scary option to me but i just wanna have something to wake up something to live for i couldnt give a FUCK about me anymore so what else is there?

i feel like ive been pretty vague so ask questions if you want to + free reps

 

[milkshake_addict]

b

 

[snuggylion5]

Live for this dnr

 

[milkshake_addict]

bump

 

[milkshake_addict]

bump pt 2

 

[milkshake_addict]

b

 

[milkshake_addict]

final bump bcuz i look desparate asf

 

[GeneticsIsEverythin]

Live to live, the idea of being accepted as a functioning member of society doesn't always apply to everyone. You COULD be an exception. What does this mean for you though? You need play sports, idc if its not organised, go to your local park, go run a 10k, do fucking anything, then eat sleep and repeat. The black screen of death is more boring than a shit life.

 

[milkshake_addict]

Live to live, the idea of being accepted as a functioning member of society doesn't always apply to everyone. You COULD be an exception. What does this mean for you though? You need play sports, idc if its not organised, go to your local park, go run a 10k, do fucking anything, then eat sleep and repeat. The black screen of death is more boring than a shit life.

thanks for the advice bhai but sometimes boring isnt bad

 

[GeneticsIsEverythin]

It will be.

 

[milkshake_addict]

It will be.

lowk just realized my thread could be considered as those grey "im gonna kms" posts fuckkkk