I just wanted to not be a weirdo

[Prøphet]

I can’t believe the shit I’ve been forced to go through for a deformity I got in the womb

One day 18 years ago I got my life sentence, destined to be alone misunderstood and discriminated

It’s absolutely brutal how much is out of your control and now that I’ve seen how ugly that is I feel paralyzed to fate

My dreams are dead and my genes killed them

If I woke up looking normal tomorrow I would still be fucked at this point tbh

 

[Deleted member 170084]

I can’t believe the shit I’ve been forced to go through for a deformity I got in the womb

One day 18 years ago I got my life sentence, destined to be alone misunderstood and discriminated

It’s absolutely brutal how much is out of your control and now that I’ve seen how ugly that is I’m paralyzed

My dreams are dead and my genes killed them

If I woke up looking normal tomorrow I would still be fucked at this point tbh

How bad is it

 

[nellii]

I can’t believe the shit I’ve been forced to go through for a deformity I got in the womb

It’s absolutely brutal how much is out of your control and now that I’ve seen how ugly that is I’m paralyzed

My dreams are dead and my genes killed them

 

[DxstZ]

aint no niggas ask to be here but we gotta do this shit

 

[JoeNutz]

Genetic defects destined to fail at the one chance in life are just a fact of nature, you n me both

 

[Prøphet]

How bad is it

I can’t even bring myself to take a selfie or show you a picture. I’m badly crosseyed and I’m so traumatized from 18 years of this shit I gave up on life a couple years ago, without even knowing why. I’ve been trying to get surgery since September and this shit is taking fucking forever and my weeks are evaporating I do nothing except the bare minimum because I can’t bare to do any more than the minimum. I learned trying is useless when you look like me. I don’t give a fuck what happens anymore I want out of this hell even if the surgery gives me double vision at least I can be fucking normal for once, a normal 18 year old kid because I never got to be one I was busy laying in bed and crying in the mirror because at least that was better than the constant alienation ostracization and casual disrespect.

 

[Deleted member 170084]

I can’t even bring myself to take a selfie or show you a picture. I’m badly crosseyed and I’m so traumatized from 18 years of this shit I gave up on life a couple years ago, without even knowing why. I’ve been trying to get surgery since September and this shit is taking fucking forever and my weeks are evaporating I do nothing except the bare minimum because I can’t bare to do any more than the minimum. I learned trying is useless when you look like me. I don’t give a fuck what happens anymore I want out of this hell even if the surgery gives me double vision at least I can be fucking normal for once, a normal 18 year old kid because I never got to be one I was busy laying in bed and crying in the mirror.

Damn man hope everything goes right
What surgery are you getting

 

[Prøphet]

Damn man hope everything goes right
What surgery are you getting

Strabismus correction

I haven’t even gotten to meet the specialist yet so I don’t even know if they’ll do surgery, like I’m pretty sure but there’s a chance they won’t be able to and I’ll be forever like this. My family is going into debt for it and it has a 60% success rate, so if I relapse I’m fucked. I’m scared to feel optimistic but hope is the only thing keeping me going, the hope that I can take back the life I never got to have. The funniest part is I could’ve gotten this surgery 10 years ago but my parents were so bluepilled they didn’t do it. I had to wait until this fucking year to pursue it, living every day unable to look someone in the eye without feeling sick about myself, living every day being jump scared by my front camera, living every day in avoidance in fear, forced to do so out of dumb luck and shitty circumstance. I feel crushed knowing I’ve put up with this for so long and knowing how much of a shell of my former self I am, because I was beat down by everyone around me for something I can’t control and forced into self hatred.

 

[Prøphet]

aint no niggas ask to be here but we gotta do this shit

Truth

There is nothing worse than giving up

I will fight for my success no matter what because there’s nothing else to do.

 

[Deleted member 170084]

Strabismus correction

I haven’t even gotten to meet the specialist yet so I don’t even know if they’ll do surgery, like I’m pretty sure but there’s a chance they won’t be able to and I’ll be forever like this. My family is going into debt for it and it has a 60% success rate, so if I relapse I’m fucked. I’m scared to feel optimistic but hope is the only thing keeping me going, the hope that I can take back the life I never got to have. The funniest part is I could’ve gotten this surgery 10 years ago but my parents were so bluepilled they didn’t do it. I had to wait until this fucking year to pursue it, living every day unable to look someone in the eye without feeling sick about myself, living every day being jump scared by my front camera, living every day in avoidance in fear, forced to do so out of dumb luck and shitty circumstance. I feel crushed knowing I’ve put up with this for so long and knowing how much of a shell of my former self I am, because I was beat down by everyone around me for something I can’t control and forced into self hatred.

How much does it cost for your family to go in debt?

 

[LTNUser]

Truth

There is nothing worse than giving up

I will fight for my success no matter what because there’s nothing else to do.

And what will you do to gain success?

 

[Prøphet]

How much does it cost for your family to go in debt?

We don’t know yet but it’ll be at least a couple thousand dollars. I’ll go into debt myself if I have to at this point because I can’t stand waiting around just letting this disease eat up all of my potential

 

[Prøphet]

And what will you do to gain success?

Take my chances for once

I learned a while ago to be afraid of trying, because failure scared me

Now it’s not failure that scares me the most, but instead a life story filled with blank pages

Where the fuck is the meaning in all of this

 

[nellii]

Take my chances for once

I learned a while ago to be afraid of trying, because failure scared me

Now it’s not failure that scares me the most, but instead a life story filled with blank pages

Where the fuck is the meaning in all of this

there is no meaning in an empty life.

thats why u have to try and try until u get to ur goal.

 

[Coolman788]

I wish u all the best