I made a promise to my father and I will uphold it

[Deleted member 11126]

He made me promise that I would at least talk to him before killing myself. I think he always knew I was suicidal well I guess I will have one last talk I plan to jump tonight I doubt he can say anything to change my mind.

And thanks to everyone who tried to talk me out of it but for some people its too late. Don't end up like me if your young do everything you can to prevent years of rotting from destroying you. I am nothing but a burden

I'm short mentally scarred even if all my looks issues were fixed my brain is fucked there's no surgery for that

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Goodbye to everyone here.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

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[Dr. Bludy]

Fly high🕊🕊

 

[ropemax]

from where do you want to jump

 

[MoggerGaston]

Try MDMA at least once before you go man.

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Try MDMA at least once before you go man.

He will have a trip when he dies

 

[Deleted member 11126]

from where do you want to jump

I guess it doesn't matter anymore I'll dox my location its a cliff

https://oceanbeachsandiego.com/attractions/parks/sunset-cliffs-natural-park-and-point-loma-lighthouse

Try MDMA at least once before you go man.

Why bother man drugs wear off and back to my misery

 

[MoggerGaston]

He will have a trip when he dies

I am 100% sure he will get an entirely different perspective on life and on himself with MDMA, and it will be a really warm joyful experience too.

It won't fix any of his life issues, but it may trigger something in his brain. A seed planted that can lead to a different life flow, energy, motivation.

Don't underestimate the power of drugs. It will completely alter the way you think and feel. The hormonal release takes over your normal thought patterns and brain function.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Why bother man drugs wear off and back to my misery

Your misery is caused by your past and how that past makes you think and feel in the present.

Drugs can have a lasting impact on the way you view your past and how that past still haunts you. It doesn't hurt to try, what do you have to lose?

 

[bishōnenmaxxer]

Why bother man drugs wear off and back to my misery

This unironically.

When I was off the fourm for 2 months I had INTESNE BDD. I'm talking starvation, crying in my room all the time, and just feeling isolated in general. I took LSD and that shit was cured. It's all in your head, etc etc.

You aren't going for the LSD/MDMA for the euphoria, moreso the experience. You'll carry the knowledge outisde of the trip if you let it.

You aren't a brainlet so it will. Don't rope mane, you're one of the few good posters here. @Witheredly90

 

[ropemax]

I guess it doesn't matter anymore I'll dox my location its a cliff
https://oceanbeachsandiego.com/attr...cliffs-natural-park-and-point-loma-lighthouse

this is not high enough. It's unlikely to kill you. You risk getting paralyzed for life. Don't jump from there

 

[Deleted member 11126]

this is not high enough. It's unlikely to kill you. You risk getting paralyzed for life. Don't jump from there

I'll see if not there are plenty of tall buildings. But I always wanted to die in a cool way this will make the news at least

 

[MoggerGaston]

This unironically.

When I was off the fourm for 2 months I had INTESNE BDD. I'm talking starvation, crying in my room all the time, and just feeling isolated in general. I took LSD and that shit was cured. It's all in your head, etc etc.

You aren't going for the LSD/MDMA for the euphoria, moreso the experience. You'll carry the knowledge outisde of the trip if you let it.

You aren't a brainlet so it will. Don't rope mane, you're one of the few good posters here. @Witheredly90

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For MDMA it's not the knowledge you gain. It's a feeling you gain.

Even the most depressed, self-hating, suicidal person will start feeling love again. And a lot of it.
Love is what we miss in life, feeling isolated, no love for ourself, no love from others.

Feeling that again through drugs can give you new hope. I've had MDMA make a lasting emotional impact for over a week on me, despite it being out of my system completely in ~12 hours. It has lasting impact on your brain and thought patterns.

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I'll see if not there are plenty of tall buildings. But I always wanted to die in a cool way this will make the news at least

prob gonna rope in 2 years hopefully i get isekaid with a anime girl harem

 

[Deleted member 33822]

He made me promise that I would at least talk to him before killing myself. I think he always knew I was suicidal well I guess I will have one last talk I plan to jump tonight I doubt he can say anything to change my mind.

And thanks to everyone who tried to talk me out of it but for some people its too late. Don't end up like me if your young do everything you can to prevent years of rotting from destroying you. I am nothing but a burden

I'm short mentally scarred even if all my looks issues were fixed my brain is fucked there's no surgery for that

but in all honesty if ur serious dont do it its not worth it imagine your mom and dad crying at your tombstone if you really want your family to hate you for the rest of there lifes then ok ig

 

[Deleted member 33822]

He made me promise that I would at least talk to him before killing myself. I think he always knew I was suicidal well I guess I will have one last talk I plan to jump tonight I doubt he can say anything to change my mind.

And thanks to everyone who tried to talk me out of it but for some people its too late. Don't end up like me if your young do everything you can to prevent years of rotting from destroying you. I am nothing but a burden

I'm short mentally scarred even if all my looks issues were fixed my brain is fucked there's no surgery for that

if u wanna tell abt some stuff just dm me

 

[Deleted member 11126]

but in all honesty if ur serious dont do it its not worth it imagine your mom and dad crying at your tombstone if you really want your family to hate you for the rest of there lifes then ok ig

I will talk to my dad first. Because I swore to him I would but I don't know what good it will do. He is the only reason I am not dead.

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I will talk to my dad first. Because I swore to him I would but I don't know what good it will do. He is the only reason I am not dead.

what abt your mom?

 

[Deleted member 11126]

what abt your mom?

Never had a close relationship with her.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

This unironically.

When I was off the fourm for 2 months I had INTESNE BDD. I'm talking starvation, crying in my room all the time, and just feeling isolated in general. I took LSD and that shit was cured. It's all in your head, etc etc.

You aren't going for the LSD/MDMA for the euphoria, moreso the experience. You'll carry the knowledge outisde of the trip if you let it.

You aren't a brainlet so it will. Don't rope mane, you're one of the few good posters here. @Witheredly90

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What does BDD stand for...?

 

[Deleted member 14815]

A wise man once said If your going through hell, then keep going



You'll make it, I'm counting on you

 

[Deleted member 33822]

Never had a close relationship with her.

ik how you feel my mom and dad are both severe drug addicts but listen if you die right now then your dad is going to spend the rest of his life mourning

 

[ropemax]

I'll see if not there are plenty of tall buildings. But I always wanted to die in a cool way this will make the news at least

This isn't a cool way. You will land on those rocks unable to move and be forced to lie there in gruesome pain for hours until someone finds you, then you'll be taken to a bed you'll never stand up from again

 

[Deleted member 33822]

ik how you feel my mom and dad are both severe drug addicts but listen if you die right now then your dad is going to spend the rest of his life mourning

if you have any love for your father then think abt this

 

[Deleted member 11126]

This isn't a cool way. You will land on those rocks unable to move and be forced to lie there in gruesome pain for hours until someone finds you, then you'll be taken to a bed you'll never stand up from again

Well I guess the skyscrapper it is. Also I am fairly sure I would die

 

[Deleted member 11126]

if you have any love for your father then think abt this

I don't think my dad loves me anymore I am an objective failure I died 2-3 years ago I live in the wreckage of my old life

 

[bishōnenmaxxer]

What does BDD stand for...?

Body dysphoria disorder. Anorexia, bulimia, stuff like that.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

For MDMA it's not the knowledge you gain. It's a feeling you gain.

Even the most depressed, self-hating, suicidal person will start feeling love again. And a lot of it.
Love is what we miss in life, feeling isolated, no love for ourself, no love from others.

Feeling that again through drugs can give you new hope. I've had MDMA make a lasting emotional impact for over a week on me, despite it being out of my system completely in ~12 hours. It has lasting impact on your brain and thought patterns.

I have no love left in my heart do you really expect some drug to fix this

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I don't think my dad loves me anymore I am an objective failure I died 2-3 years ago I live in the wreckage of my old life

how old are you?

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I don't think my dad loves me anymore I am an objective failure I died 2-3 years ago I live in the wreckage of my old life

and what makes you say that?

 

[Deleted member 11126]

how old are you?

21 now man. Yeah its over

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Body dysphoria disorder. Anorexia, bulimia, stuff like that.

What caused it

 

[Deleted member 33822]

21 now man. Yeah its over

in 9 years you will be 30 that means you have 9 years of your 20s left to do something it doesnt need to be drastic but something

 

[Deleted member 33822]

21 now man. Yeah its over

im 100 percent sure you look better than me and are smarter than me why do you think that suicide is the best option? your from your posts you seem intelligent so why not spend 9 years getting a degree or starting a buisness? or if you are not into that why not just live? have you ever considered getting a gf playing more games? doing something

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I have no love left in my heart do you really expect some drug to fix this

your worrying me man

 

[Deleted member 11126]

im 100 percent sure you look better than me and are smarter than me why do you think that suicide is the best option? your from your posts you seem intelligent so why not spend 9 years getting a degree or starting a buisness? or if you are not into that why not just live? have you ever considered getting a gf playing more games? doing something

Why do you think you look worse then me?

 

[Deleted member 33822]

Why do you think you look worse then me?

because im like 3.5 psl im guessing your around a 5 if you just keep on living you can get girls

 

[Deleted member 33822]

Why do you think you look worse then me?

that doesnt matter anyway just think about how much you can do in not only 9 years but over 60

 

[Deleted member 11126]

because im like 3.5 psl im guessing your around a 5 if you just keep on living you can get girls

I had a good gf a good life 2 years ago but its all a distant dream I can never get it back

 

[Deleted member 26065]

He made me promise that I would at least talk to him before killing myself. I think he always knew I was suicidal well I guess I will have one last talk I plan to jump tonight I doubt he can say anything to change my mind.

And thanks to everyone who tried to talk me out of it but for some people its too late. Don't end up like me if your young do everything you can to prevent years of rotting from destroying you. I am nothing but a burden

I'm short mentally scarred even if all my looks issues were fixed my brain is fucked there's no surgery for that

kill others dont kill yourself

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I had a good gf a good life 2 years ago but its all a distant dream I can never get it back

so why do you think you cant get another great girlfriend?

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I had a good gf a good life 2 years ago but its all a distant dream I can never get it back

life isnt a race its a marathon you havent even lived yet

 

[Deleted member 33822]

I had a good gf a good life 2 years ago but its all a distant dream I can never get it back

dont end up like me both my parents had clinical depression ive had depression since the start im guessing you dont have that

 

[bishōnenmaxxer]

What caused it

Looksmax and IRL bullying.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

kill others dont kill yourself

Yeah the only thing stronger then my self hatred is my hatred at this world. I really can't believe in a decent god why would he allow me to suffer so much. If anything I am cursed something went wrong a long time ago this world is truly evil its corrupted me too I am no saint

 

[Deleted member 26065]

Yeah the only thing stronger then my self hatred is my hatred at this world. I really can't believe in a decent god why would he allow me to suffer so much. If anything I am cursed something went wrong a long time ago this world is truly evil its corrupted me too I am no saint

if i decided to end it I would make sure to leave one final mark on this piece of shit world

 

[Deleted member 33822]

Yeah the only thing stronger then my self hatred is my hatred at this world. I really can't believe in a decent god why would he allow me to suffer so much. If anything I am cursed something went wrong a long time ago this world is truly evil its corrupted me too I am no saint

you seem like a good guy if not for anyone else dont do it because of me

 

[Joe Rogancel]

brb see you tomorrow

 

[Deleted member 31459]

Please don’t rope bro