I might have a mental problem

[rateme.]

I live in two lives but I am stuck I am here and somewhere else at the same time I feel like I am drowning in one life and lost in the other I wake up and the world is gray cold heavy I walk like a ghost people touch me but I am not there I speak a language only I know I see faces no one else can see I feel pain that has no name I cry in silence I scream in silence I am angry and tired and scared all the time I am invisible in one life I am someone else in the other life I run and fall and fight but nothing changes I am trapped between two worlds two lives two bodies two hearts that cannot be whole I cannot rest I cannot sleep I cannot be happy I carry my sadness like a stone in my chest I am alone even when I am not alone I am broken I am lost I am nothing and everything at once My dreams are the only place I feel free but that freedom disappears when I wake and I fall back into this gray life this heavy life this life that is not enough for me and the other life that is too far away I am stuck I am trapped I am living two lives but I am really living none you don’t know how I feel when you don’t even know which world is the real one it’s the only thing I hate about my life

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Me too

 

[rateme.]

Me too

It’s horrible like they are people I know on a life and I don’t know them in the other one feel cold and gray one feel colorful and warm they are different but are the same