I miss Baraka

[Vermilioncore]

Baraka Mkray killed himslef in 2018 and I never got over it

I wish I could find his family and sit down and tell them how much their son meant to the ugly worthless incels out there. He was an inspiration to us. Rest in peace, rest with ease.

 

[Andremln]

His death mogged hard tbh, litting yourself on fire and becoming dust > rope and be found all contracted and on an awkward position not to even mention being ugly as fuck on top of that and with shit and piss dripping all over yourself

Btw i've always been curious, what happened to Dr.Bludy?

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

Baraka Mkray killed himslef in 2018 and I never got over it

I wish I could find his family and sit down and tell them how much their son meant to the ugly worthless incels out there. He was an inspiration to us. Rest in peace, rest with ease.

His death mogged hard tbh, litting yourself on fire and becoming dust > rope and be found all contracted and on an awkward position not to even mention being ugly as fuck on top of that and with shit and piss dripping all over yourself

Btw i've always been curious, what happened to Dr.Bludy?

Damn bro glad to find people know him on here and not being the only one

 

[Andremln]

Damn bro glad to find people know him on here and not being the only one

I only got to know about him after his death, i lurked since 2021, i feel really bad since i've been trying to remember old users that i talked to or remember connecting with but i was severely depressed and mentally disconnected at the time and its like it never even happened, i am dissociating hard rn, can't even remember people from 2024 i can probably name like 20 users tops, i never really talked that much here honestly, i never made friends on the forum or anything like that, at most surface level conversations

half an hour ago another used said "rope" and i tried to remember a guy that was a user here and he confirmedly died, meth overdose i think, he and his girlfriend (or girl he was fucking with), but i can't remember his name or date when it happened

I do remember perfectly though, a guy saying that eventually everybody here was going to forget about most of the things that happened and users they talked with or knew, like it never happened, and at the time i thought it wouldn't happen, but it did, that was like 3 years ago

i am feeling very suicidal tbh, not specifically right now but the last couple of days, if i was to actually do it i wouldn't comment on it here or leave a note though, not like anyone would care and best case scenario id be just another Schery, kinda drunk rn so i just wanted to comment on my current thoughts, hope you're having a good night man

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

I only got to know about him after his death, i lurked since 2021, i feel really bad since i've been trying to remember old users that i talked to or remember connecting with but i was severely depressed and mentally disconnected at the time and its like it never even happened, i am dissociating hard rn, can't even remember people from 2024 i can probably name like 20 users tops, i never really talked that much here honestly, i never made friends on the forum or anything like that, at most surface level conversations

half an hour ago another used said "rope" and i tried to remember a guy that was a user here and he confirmedly died, meth overdose i think, he and his girlfriend (or girl he was fucking with), but i can't remember his name or date when it happened

I do remember perfectly though, a guy saying that eventually everybody here was going to forget about most of the things that happened and users they talked with or knew, like it never happened, and at the time i thought it wouldn't happen, but it did, that was like 3 years ago

i am feeling very suicidal tbh, not specifically right now but the last couple of days, if i was to actually do it i wouldn't comment on it here or leave a note though, not like anyone would care and best case scenario id be just another Schery, kinda drunk rn so i just wanted to comment on my current thoughts, hope you're having a good night man

Damn man got me teary eyes I’ve committed 5x but failed via pill overdose my last time was January 14 2026 I took 10 Soma Pills and was in a coma woke up in the hospital bed, I feel your pain bro right now I don’t care if I live or die cause what’s there to fear when you’ve faced death multiplie times Ive been in isolation for a year now and it’s still driving me nuts i feel your pain bro from waking up to text messages to waking up to nothing all gone ik a year it’s just Me alone in this world goodnight

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

I only got to know about him after his death, i lurked since 2021, i feel really bad since i've been trying to remember old users that i talked to or remember connecting with but i was severely depressed and mentally disconnected at the time and its like it never even happened, i am dissociating hard rn, can't even remember people from 2024 i can probably name like 20 users tops, i never really talked that much here honestly, i never made friends on the forum or anything like that, at most surface level conversations

half an hour ago another used said "rope" and i tried to remember a guy that was a user here and he confirmedly died, meth overdose i think, he and his girlfriend (or girl he was fucking with), but i can't remember his name or date when it happened

I do remember perfectly though, a guy saying that eventually everybody here was going to forget about most of the things that happened and users they talked with or knew, like it never happened, and at the time i thought it wouldn't happen, but it did, that was like 3 years ago

i am feeling very suicidal tbh, not specifically right now but the last couple of days, if i was to actually do it i wouldn't comment on it here or leave a note though, not like anyone would care and best case scenario id be just another Schery, kinda drunk rn so i just wanted to comment on my current thoughts, hope you're having a good night man

Also ive connected with a lot of people here since last year sad to see some leave when I came back

 

[Andremln]

Damn man got me teary eyes I’ve committed 5x but failed via pill overdose my last time was January 14 2026 I took 10 Soma Pills and was in a coma woke up in the hospital bed, I feel your pain bro right now I don’t care if I live or die cause what’s there to fear when you’ve faced death multiplie times Ive been in isolation for a year now and it’s still driving me nuts i feel your pain bro from waking up to text messages to waking up to nothing all gone ik a year it’s just Me alone in this world goodnight

Really sorry to hear all of this man, damn it was very recent your last try, under normal biological circumstances lots of us wouldn't even have been born or would have died as infants, sadly society pushes failed individuals life expectancy to match with the one of everyone else's but it just makes suffering longer and nature punishes US, not them, for it when its a raw deal we didn't even agree to in the first place, its immoral and unethical, plus we get told since we are kids that no one deserves this but it literally doesn't matter because it still happens.

How old are you? I have never tried to end my life, i have been suicidal and on the verge of doing it but i have never took action, i think if i try i most certainly would succeed, probably just go for a hike to the forest and stab my neck until i can't move anymore, i do put in the work to try and get a better life but its just so tiring, I am 19yrs old, took 2025 as a free year to work and save up money for surgeries, this one ill study by myself and i want to get into Applied Math by 2027, get a good internship and pay for DJS + Implants, my pheno is dogshit and my right side is pedophile uncanny tier because of assymmetry but whatever its just what i got dealt with right?

It is very painful and exhausting this life of ours, i empathize and feel for you brother, we could talk more, if you want to of course, id be happy to connect and know more about your situation, goodnight man

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

Really sorry to hear all of this man, damn it was very recent your last try, under normal biological circumstances lots of us wouldn't even have been born or would have died as infants, sadly society pushes failed individuals life expectancy to match with the one of everyone else's but it just makes suffering longer and nature punishes US, not them, for it when its a raw deal we didn't even agree to in the first place, its immoral and unethical, plus we get told since we are kids that no one deserves this but it literally doesn't matter because it still happens.

How old are you? I have never tried to end my life, i have been suicidal and on the verge of doing it but i have never took action, i think if i try i most certainly would succeed, probably just go for a hike to the forest and stab my neck until i can't move anymore, i do put in the work to try and get a better life but its just so tiring, I am 19yrs old, took 2025 as a free year to work and save up money for surgeries, this one ill study by myself and i want to get into Applied Math by 2027, get a good internship and pay for DJS + Implants, my pheno is dogshit and my right side is pedophile uncanny tier because of assymmetry but whatever its just what i got dealt with right?

It is very painful and exhausting this life of ours, i empathize and feel for you brother, we could talk more, if you want to of course, id be happy to connect and know more about your situation, goodnight man

I just turned 22 16 days ago, I lost the love of my life it’s why I’m stone cold now and never falling in love again sorry for the little reply man will talk more tmr I don’t really talk to anyone but 2 ppl in real life