I miss being in love.

[Donald]

Every touch, smile, eye contact, moment shared was a rush of dopamine. I was the happiest I had ever been with that girl, and now, over a year later, I still think about her and the feelings she gave me almost daily. I don't think I am still in love. I think what I have been feeling every day since the breakup is some form of limerence. I don't miss her per se, I just miss the feeling of love and fulfillment she gave me. Now I am sure I have had more chances for love since then, with little flings or girls that I got play with, but the emotional connection that was present with her was absent in those relationships. I do not know what to do. I feel like calling her all the time, but I know it's wrong because she isn't what I need. Love is what I need. I try to blame my environment, living in a rural <10000 population town as plenty of girls from bigger cities 2+ hours away have shown interest in me on Snapchat, and I have had some talking stages with them. University is next for me in September. Hopefully, I can find a love interest there, as I'll be surrounded by people my age with plenty of people to choose from, not the 300 (only about 10 that would be attractive enough to date) girls that go to my small high school. I will find love again. I am determined. I just wish I could get her out of my mind.