i miss my ex

[Mavueis]

its pathetic
our relationship (if u can even call it that) was stupid
we were 14
a big part of it was extremely parasocial so u can probably imagine it to be pretty mundane in person
but we were so shy, anxious, and full of feelings in person
it didnt last long either
but ive never loved anyone after
its not like i didnt have any other chances. true they were slim and few, but i could rlly just never get over it
not like she was a supermodel or anything, i just miss her
she never really got to know the real me either

 

[Mavueis]

im 17 now btw

 

[wuzzdio]

What did she look like?

 

[nobodylovesme]

she never really got to know the real me either

It's retarded to get attached without showing your true self, tbh. You'll always have that lingering idea of, "what if I were myself, would she have liked me then?" But yeah, don't make the same mistake next time

 

[Mavueis]

What did she look like?

pretty brunette, kept to herself, nothing really extraordinary, but she was cute

 

[Mavueis]

It's retarded to get attached without showing your true self, tbh. You'll always have that lingering idea of, "what if I were myself, would she have liked me then?" But yeah, don't make the same mistake next time

no kidding lol
this is especially beutal because we had the same taste in a lot of niche things that i never got the chance to express, now she’s grown and moved on while im still here

 

[Darkskin Ethnic]

gfhaver ramblings

 

[Mavueis]

gfhaver ramblings

youd be the exact same if u were given a chance and fumbled it

 

[Mavueis]

it feels like i was lovebombed but its really just me deluding myself with some parasocial bullshit. half the relationship was spent in my head imagining how things couldve play out differently, of course this only got worse afterwards
this is really an on-off thing but she never really truly leaves my mind and it saddens me so much

 

[BPDonut]

a big part of it was extremely parasocial so u can probably imagine it to be pretty mundane in person
but we were so shy, anxious, and full of feelings in person

hella relatable man. I swear i was really in love. Her not loving me anymore because of my failos was the straw that broke the camels back for me. Blackpilled me hella. I was and will never be the same again.

 

[true_subhuman_here]

its pathetic
our relationship (if u can even call it that) was stupid
we were 14
a big part of it was extremely parasocial so u can probably imagine it to be pretty mundane in person
but we were so shy, anxious, and full of feelings in person
it didnt last long either
but ive never loved anyone after
its not like i didnt have any other chances. true they were slim and few, but i could rlly just never get over it
not like she was a supermodel or anything, i just miss her
she never really got to know the real me either

I still dream about a girl I never even dated from middle school (I was 11 now I am basically 15) and as much as it may seem a retarded thing to say she fucked me up, deep down I still miss her and I know she is 50% responsible for the way I am now, the way I act. Its almost like a ghost to me, appearing in my drams every 1-2 months and every time I go to sleep a side of me wants her to show up, the other one prays to god she is not gonna present herself, because waking up after a dream with her is gut wrenching, its always going to be. It has been 4 years and sometimes I realize that every girl I remotely liked symbolized something that reminded me of her, and a couple of months ago I came to the realization that in all these years I forced myself so hard to hate her I forgot how much I needed and wanted her love. I have never been so desperate so much for a person and Im not gonna let my guard down ever again, the nights I cried hoping that she would like me back were countless, I remember trying to change my personality for her, trying to be a good person, but as we all know none of that bullshit matters. I saw her being in love with other guys, be with her ex bf, kiss him, hug him, pat his head. And I watched it.
I would describe this girl as an actual trauma, sometimes I listen to songs that reminded me of her (middy tiddy or mrs magic) and I start to feel sick. She scarred me. She probabily doesnt even remember me anymore, but I still think about her, I still dream about her, and as much as I am capable of love, I still love her.
Maybe in another life Im gonna be able to feel the warmth of her hands

 

[chrisangeler]

its pathetic
our relationship (if u can even call it that) was stupid
we were 14
a big part of it was extremely parasocial so u can probably imagine it to be pretty mundane in person
but we were so shy, anxious, and full of feelings in person
it didnt last long either
but ive never loved anyone after
its not like i didnt have any other chances. true they were slim and few, but i could rlly just never get over it
not like she was a supermodel or anything, i just miss her
she never really got to know the real me either

we dont care if u have had a gf get off this site fuck u

 

[Mavueis]

hella relatable man. I swear i was really in love. Her not loving me anymore because of my failos was the straw that broke the camels back for me. Blackpilled me hella. I was and will never be the same again.

i wish things were different

 

[chrisangeler]

missing a ex is useless, just get another girl or dont bc rmb they never wanted u

 

[Mavueis]

we dont care if u have had a gf get off this site fuck u

youd be the same if u had the opportunity with such a beautiful girl and fumbled it forever

 

[Mavueis]

missing a ex is useless, just get another girl or dont bc rmb they never wanted u

you cant control it, im so parasocial lol, and its not like u can just get another girl lol so easily

 

[chrisangeler]

youd be the same if u had the opportunity with such a beautiful girl and fumbled it forever

idc about girls

im not that pathetic i'm just trying to take care of my mental and physical health but I struggle

girls have and always will be a waste of time (if not settling down forever)

 

[chrisangeler]

you cant control it, im so parasocial lol, and its not like u can just get another girl lol so easily

if youve had one you can get another

 

[Mavueis]

I still dream about a girl I never even dated from middle school (I was 11 now I am basically 15) and as much as it may seem a retarded thing to say she fucked me up, deep down I still miss her and I know she is 50% responsible for the way I am now, the way I act. Its almost like a ghost to me, appearing in my drams every 1-2 months and every time I go to sleep a side of me wants her to show up, the other one prays to god she is not gonna present herself, because waking up after a dream with her is gut wrenching, its always going to be. It has been 4 years and sometimes I realize that every girl I remotely liked symbolized something that reminded me of her, and a couple of months ago I came to the realization that in all these years I forced myself so hard to hate her I forgot how much I needed and wanted her love. I have never been so desperate so much for a person and Im not gonna let my guard down ever again, the nights I cried hoping that she would like me back were countless, I remember trying to change my personality for her, trying to be a good person, but as we all know none of that bullshit matters. I saw her being in love with other guys, be with her ex bf, kiss him, hug him, pat his head. And I watched it.
I would describe this girl as an actual trauma, sometimes I listen to songs that reminded me of her (middy tiddy or mrs magic) and I start to feel sick. She scarred me. She probabily doesnt even remember me anymore, but I still think about her, I still dream about her, and as much as I am capable of love, I still love her.
Maybe in another life Im gonna be able to feel the warmth of her hands

yea lol. the dreams are so brutal. its like we never separated, and i wake up sweating and panicked, genuinely ropefuel. feels like ur being hit by a train

 

[Mavueis]

if youve had one you can get another

things are different when ur younger

 

[MarxCel]

boo hoo bitchass nigga, get to work and get a pair of balls

 

[Mavueis]

boo hoo bitchass nigga, get to work and get a pair of balls

just say uve never been loved, compassion is free

 

[chrisangeler]

boo hoo bitchass nigga, get to work and get a pair of balls

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