I miss not knowing why i was like this

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I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.
 
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I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.
ignorance is bliss, but knowing why youre the person you are is something thats needed
its better to know why youre suffering rather than not knowing why this is happening to you
 
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ignorance is bliss, but knowing why youre the person you are is something thats needed
its better to know why youre suffering rather than not knowing why this is happening to you
I guess so, but why though? I want to be ignorant, I really do. And I wish I could be, unfortunately that memory is not seared into my mind, along with countless others. And im sure this is only surface level stuff, I just wish I could remember it all now, or be ignorant.

One or the other would be fine. But im stuck in purgatory.
 
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feel the mog
Xd
 
I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.
the goal when you're enduring ptsd from a trauma is being able to get used to the thought and not letting it bother you on the daily, i hope you get there soon enough ❤️❤️
 
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the goal when you're enduring ptsd from a trauma is being able to get used to the thought and not letting it bother you on the daily, i hope you get there soon enough ❤️❤️
Ty ty
 
I guess so, but why though? I want to be ignorant, I really do. And I wish I could be, unfortunately that memory is not seared into my mind, along with countless others. And im sure this is only surface level stuff, I just wish I could remember it all now, or be ignorant.

One or the other would be fine. But im stuck in purgatory.
thats an example of something you cant do anything about, you cant choose whether you remember something or not
your fragmented thoughts are indeed a curse

your only way of coping with this is to make new memories, memories that overshadow that trauma

but im sure you know that already
 
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thats an example of something you cant do anything about, you cant choose whether you remember something or not
your fragmented thoughts are indeed a curse

your only way of coping with this is to make new memories, memories that overshadow that trauma

but im sure you know that already
Thank you for the advice and support, thank you
 
Thank you for the advice and support, thank you
youre welcome
just make sure you dont lose yourself in your thoughts, treat yourself to experiences that will bring a smile to your face
 
youre welcome
just make sure you dont lose yourself in your thoughts, treat yourself to experiences that will bring a smile to your face
I try to, I slayed today actually, never felt more empty tho, its like a hydra, when you have one good experience, you remember 3 bad ones, like how if u cut one head off three grows back.

Idk what im saying im kinda droning on but main thing is I feel empty even though I shouldnt
 
I try to, I slayed today actually, never felt more empty tho, its like a hydra, when you have one good experience, you remember 3 bad ones, like how if u cut one head off three grows back.

Idk what im saying im kinda droning on but main thing is I feel empty even though I shouldnt
was it a hookup?
 
I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.
hope the best 4 you
 
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I dont really feel love for anyone but I suppose so yeah, and no worries
slays mean nothing if you dont love the person
its the same as paying an escort to have sex with you

this is actually pretty common, people feel empty when they do shit like this. its the same with drugs, you'll feel temporary pleasure and feel like shit right after
 
slays mean nothing if you dont love the person
its the same as paying an escort to have sex with you

this is actually pretty common, people feel empty when they do shit like this. its the same with drugs, you'll feel temporary pleasure and feel like shit right after
Nah i get that, but if I was to feel something towards her itd probably be love, thats another actually, I know I was capable of love, but I forgot how it feels to love someone.

But I have in the past ykwim?? Its like i just lost the ability to love lol
 
Nah i get that, but if I was to feel something towards her itd probably be love, thats another actually, I know I was capable of love, but I forgot how it feels to love someone.

But I have in the past ykwim?? Its like i just lost the ability to love lol
i wish i could give you advice on this, but im in a similar situation
i wish i had someone who loved me

but if i had to guess id say that you'll feel love once you really meet the one
 
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i wish i could give you advice on this, but im in a similar situation
i wish i had someone who loved me

but if i had to guess id say that you'll feel love once you really meet the one
Thanks for talking to me
 

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