I miss not knowing why i was like this

[awok]

I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.

 

[crazyguy]

I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.

ignorance is bliss, but knowing why youre the person you are is something thats needed
its better to know why youre suffering rather than not knowing why this is happening to you

 

[awok]

ignorance is bliss, but knowing why youre the person you are is something thats needed
its better to know why youre suffering rather than not knowing why this is happening to you

I guess so, but why though? I want to be ignorant, I really do. And I wish I could be, unfortunately that memory is not seared into my mind, along with countless others. And im sure this is only surface level stuff, I just wish I could remember it all now, or be ignorant.

One or the other would be fine. But im stuck in purgatory.

 

[TheAncientMacedonia]

im glad
that u are this way

 

[awok]

im glad
that u are this way

I mog the absolute piss out of you,

Subhuman virgin.

 

[TheAncientMacedonia]

I mog the absolute piss out of you,

Subhuman virgin.

u got raped
ugly loser

 

[TheAncientMacedonia]

feel the mog

 

[awok]

u got raped
ugly loser

Atleast someone would put there hands on me, you on the other hand..

Not so sure abt that one JFL

 

[Sink]

I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.

the goal when you're enduring ptsd from a trauma is being able to get used to the thought and not letting it bother you on the daily, i hope you get there soon enough

 

[awok]

feel the mog
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You literally look like an uglier Patrick Crusius

 

[awok]

the goal when you're enduring ptsd from a trauma is being able to get used to the thought and not letting it bother you on the daily, i hope you get there soon enough

Ty ty

 

[crazyguy]

I guess so, but why though? I want to be ignorant, I really do. And I wish I could be, unfortunately that memory is not seared into my mind, along with countless others. And im sure this is only surface level stuff, I just wish I could remember it all now, or be ignorant.

One or the other would be fine. But im stuck in purgatory.

thats an example of something you cant do anything about, you cant choose whether you remember something or not
your fragmented thoughts are indeed a curse

your only way of coping with this is to make new memories, memories that overshadow that trauma

but im sure you know that already

 

[awok]

thats an example of something you cant do anything about, you cant choose whether you remember something or not
your fragmented thoughts are indeed a curse

your only way of coping with this is to make new memories, memories that overshadow that trauma

but im sure you know that already

Thank you for the advice and support, thank you

 

[crazyguy]

Thank you for the advice and support, thank you

youre welcome
just make sure you dont lose yourself in your thoughts, treat yourself to experiences that will bring a smile to your face

 

[awok]

youre welcome
just make sure you dont lose yourself in your thoughts, treat yourself to experiences that will bring a smile to your face

I try to, I slayed today actually, never felt more empty tho, its like a hydra, when you have one good experience, you remember 3 bad ones, like how if u cut one head off three grows back.

Idk what im saying im kinda droning on but main thing is I feel empty even though I shouldnt

 

[crazyguy]

I try to, I slayed today actually, never felt more empty tho, its like a hydra, when you have one good experience, you remember 3 bad ones, like how if u cut one head off three grows back.

Idk what im saying im kinda droning on but main thing is I feel empty even though I shouldnt

was it a hookup?

 

[iamaincel]

I know the reason I am the way I am is because of the sexual assault I had to endure real young, among other things.

But I dont want to know that, the day I remembered was the day I really ended up falling off the deep end. And I hate that.

hope the best 4 you

 

[awok]

was it a hookup?

Not exactly, also mirin that avi

 

[crazyguy]

Not exactly

did you feel any sort of love for that person?

also mirin that avi

preciate it

 

[awok]

did you feel any sort of love for that person?


preciate it

I dont really feel love for anyone but I suppose so yeah, and no worries

 

[crazyguy]

I dont really feel love for anyone but I suppose so yeah, and no worries

slays mean nothing if you dont love the person
its the same as paying an escort to have sex with you

this is actually pretty common, people feel empty when they do shit like this. its the same with drugs, you'll feel temporary pleasure and feel like shit right after

 

[awok]

slays mean nothing if you dont love the person
its the same as paying an escort to have sex with you

this is actually pretty common, people feel empty when they do shit like this. its the same with drugs, you'll feel temporary pleasure and feel like shit right after

Nah i get that, but if I was to feel something towards her itd probably be love, thats another actually, I know I was capable of love, but I forgot how it feels to love someone.

But I have in the past ykwim?? Its like i just lost the ability to love lol

 

[crazyguy]

Nah i get that, but if I was to feel something towards her itd probably be love, thats another actually, I know I was capable of love, but I forgot how it feels to love someone.

But I have in the past ykwim?? Its like i just lost the ability to love lol

i wish i could give you advice on this, but im in a similar situation
i wish i had someone who loved me

but if i had to guess id say that you'll feel love once you really meet the one

 

[awok]

i wish i could give you advice on this, but im in a similar situation
i wish i had someone who loved me

but if i had to guess id say that you'll feel love once you really meet the one

Thanks for talking to me