I must find contentment

[LXR]

Completely bluepilled but it is just what is in my control. I think the problem with me is that I have become a slave to the hedonistic spiral. Its a proxy for the world I live in. An illusion of abundance leads to this belief that I am just on the horizon of finding something better, being better or doing this to become better. In reality, what I was born with is what I will live with. I must be content with that. Are there people better than me, yes that is true, but there is very little I can do to become the very best. I can improve to become better but that shoupd not come with the delusion that I must become the best. Its a pointless comparison that fuels the spiral and ends up veering into fantasy. Constantly seeking more and more and more is a characteristic of cancer.