i nearly have stage 3 hypertension at 15 cause im on roids and i cant even buy my ancillaries should i just give up and rope

[isover67]

the caption kinda sums it up i have 172/88 bp check recent threads if you want for proof thats kinda why i have using this app for the past while to ask for advice but im actully serious right now should i honestly just rope its over i cant buy my ancillaries because my mom put this guardian thing on my cash app and i have chest pain and tightness daily im conserding just trying to od agian but 2 months ago i tried to od on addy i belive like 240mg of addy and it sucked alot i had a fever and it sucked and the thing is when i tried to od my bp was 152/74 so my bp is worse then when i tried to od and thats kinda the main reason i didnt do it already because it hurts and it sucks but now im trying to get better look better trying to get better looks health somewhat cause im trying to buy stuf for health but i litterally cant im proably not going to od cause it hurts but my chest always hurt and im trying to fix it but my mom wont just stop controlling everything and let me buy stuff for health and im currently 6,1 my goal is 6,4+ im planning of running erda tren abalo mast ky slin etc next month but if i can not even buy 300$ worth of ancillaries why do i think i will be able to get 400$ a month worth of gear i cant do yall have any suggestions on either how to rope "not exact rope you get what i mean" or stuff like that or maybe advice for buying my shit i will not be going to the hospital or be telling my mom about my bp if she finds out its over and at the end of the day we all die why should i spend 1yr on roids trying to get taller do suggiries and bunch of other bs just to die and proably still not have a gf its not fair how im taller buffer and better looking facially "which is debatable im pretty ugly but whatever" and i cant get a gf but they can its just not fair do yall have any recomdations please be nice and cause i didnt mention what i was on im on 350mg mast 25mcg t3 75mcg t4 and 2.5mg letro eod i know its stupid i just wanted to delay plates and cut so i can be lean before my cycle