I need a massive change in my life, or I won't make my next birthday

[Deleted member 16501]

Turned 34 a few days ago, and I realize one thing.

I need to change massively. The way I'm living thinking acting, habits, plans etc can't stay the same

i've been a certain way the past few years, and it's reached the end.

I won't survive my next birthday if I continue like this. I'll either kill myself, or in a fit of rage hurt someone else.

It's not so simple as sex, it's all about what I'm living for- who I'm living to impress

I feel like my whole life I've lived to impress my family, society and women

I'm not centered. I'm not on my own mission.

All gotta change this year. I'm an accident waiting to happen if I don't.

So much pain within though- so much I've escaped and not attended to

this society has made me a slave. I need to unchain myself

 

[currylightskin]

Ownership and Freedom

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Dnr but good luck

 

[Deleted member 22924]

good luck bro