I need to know more and I want to know more

[pleasevanity]

But I don't want to

I can't be asked

It's too much effort

When people hear words like these they think to say "oh you're just lazy" "oh you don't put in the work" but they've never had to put on my shoes. They've never had to live my life. It's their way of having a pass for being ignorant and selfish because it is easily masqueraded as some sort of genuine advice. People want to belittle you and make you feel worthless, it's just human nature.

It's never been about motivation. I more or less don't have the means... nor the motivation.

What I want takes hard work but do you know how demotivating it is to up a hill then realising you're starting from underground?

Complaining about life is one thing but blaming circumstances is another, I'm aware but I can't help but feel like I was robbed of opportunities.

There used to be a girl I could talk with this about. She lived a life so similar to mine. But now I am here venting on a place that people can see yet I don't want them to. Beyond ironic.

I don't even know what I want anymore.

 

[LowTierBateman]

K

 

[Shirobon]

But I don't want to

I can't be asked

It's too much effort

When people hear words like these they think to say "oh you're just lazy" "oh you don't put in the work" but they've never had to put on my shoes. They've never had to live my life. It's their way of having a pass for being ignorant and selfish because it is easily masqueraded as some sort of genuine advice. People want to belittle you and make you feel worthless, it's just human nature.

It's never been about motivation. I more or less don't have the means... nor the motivation.

What I want takes hard work but do you know how demotivating it is to up a hill then realising you're starting from underground?

Complaining about life is one thing but blaming circumstances is another, I'm aware but I can't help but feel like I was robbed of opportunities.

There used to be a girl I could talk with this about. She lived a life so similar to mine. But now I am here venting on a place that people can see yet I don't want them to. Beyond ironic.

I don't even know what I want anymore.

what do u wanna know about?

 

[obontw]

you’re no different from a disabled person then

 

[impius]

But I don't want to

I can't be asked

It's too much effort

When people hear words like these they think to say "oh you're just lazy" "oh you don't put in the work" but they've never had to put on my shoes. They've never had to live my life. It's their way of having a pass for being ignorant and selfish because it is easily masqueraded as some sort of genuine advice. People want to belittle you and make you feel worthless, it's just human nature.

It's never been about motivation. I more or less don't have the means... nor the motivation.

What I want takes hard work but do you know how demotivating it is to up a hill then realising you're starting from underground?

Complaining about life is one thing but blaming circumstances is another, I'm aware but I can't help but feel like I was robbed of opportunities.

There used to be a girl I could talk with this about. She lived a life so similar to mine. But now I am here venting on a place that people can see yet I don't want them to. Beyond ironic.

I don't even know what I want anymore.

brother what are you even saying?

 

[yyk117]

no one has lived the same life as you.

you being born is a miracle even if you are subhuman.

follow your passions and live life.

i will get off org and go read a book on the balcony now because of this thread, thanks.

 

[pleasevanity]

what do u wanna know about?

just being more knowledgable and wise

i want to be the type of person someone can look up to when they're looking for answers but i have nothing of worth and it bothers me

 

[pleasevanity]

brother what are you even saying?

i don't know but i'm glad you said this, it just means my writing was more about my emotions rather than logic or sense

reading back i really am all over the place

 

[Shirobon]

just being more knowledgable and wise

i want to be the type of person someone can look up to when they're looking for answers but i have nothing of worth and it bothers me

i think thats something that comes with age and experience

 

[piec]

"i want to be jacked but i dont want to workout" ahh

 

[impius]

i don't know but i'm glad you said this, it just means my writing was more about my emotions rather than logic or sense

reading back i really am all over the place

was about to drop a whole novel for a reply instead im making a thread, ill tag u bro

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

what if it wasnt actually too much effort and youre just suffering from choice paralysis