MoggerGaston
Nobody mogs like Gaston
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I don't even know if it's actually realistic to cure PTSD(Post traumatic stress disorder), AVPD(avoidant personality disorder), change your entire personality, every single thing about you.
but on the other hand, whatever i have been doing so far has been ineffective at making me obtain an enjoyable and fullfilling life.
Even at the top of my game, when I was dating the stacylite, part of a rowing frat, popular, academically/career achieved for my age at the time, rich for my age at the time, and many more things, I didn't enjoy my life at all.
I would often disassociate, feel bad, drained, I was completely not enjoying my life even in it's objective 'peak'.
Being abused by your own parents and being a bullied obese truecel subhuman for the first ~16 years of your life has given me emotional patterns and thought patterns which severely reduce life quality.
No looksmaxxing, moneymaxxing, statusmaxxing, will ever fix these things.
I don't even really know how to change my mental-state either. I know I can't change my past, so how do I change my entire personality which formed out of a subhuman past?
it's all too brutal tbh, makes me sad, makes me feel hopeless like nothing I do matters since I am mentally destroyed by my past and will never enjoy life.
but on the other hand, whatever i have been doing so far has been ineffective at making me obtain an enjoyable and fullfilling life.
Even at the top of my game, when I was dating the stacylite, part of a rowing frat, popular, academically/career achieved for my age at the time, rich for my age at the time, and many more things, I didn't enjoy my life at all.
I would often disassociate, feel bad, drained, I was completely not enjoying my life even in it's objective 'peak'.
Being abused by your own parents and being a bullied obese truecel subhuman for the first ~16 years of your life has given me emotional patterns and thought patterns which severely reduce life quality.
No looksmaxxing, moneymaxxing, statusmaxxing, will ever fix these things.
I don't even really know how to change my mental-state either. I know I can't change my past, so how do I change my entire personality which formed out of a subhuman past?
it's all too brutal tbh, makes me sad, makes me feel hopeless like nothing I do matters since I am mentally destroyed by my past and will never enjoy life.
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