fukmylyf
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Whether it's the women I fuck or the friends I spend time with, it often feels like I'm missing out on something better. The early stage of a relationship is usually the most exciting and rewarding. Once I get to really know people and recognize their flaws, I can't help but feel a bit repulsed by them. It doesn't matter how cool or attractive they are, I start to view them as subhuman, and myself by association.
I seem to value what is less attainable. Right now that is jbs and women in relationships. But even a few years back, when I dated a 17 year old, I found myself doing mental gymnastics. It didn't count because she wasn't a "normal" teen. She had too much emotional baggage and already fucked other guys. But realistically that was a huge win and I couldn't appreciate it.
I realize how narcy this sounds, but I still treat everyone good regardless. I just can't imagine getting married or settling down with this problem.
I seem to value what is less attainable. Right now that is jbs and women in relationships. But even a few years back, when I dated a 17 year old, I found myself doing mental gymnastics. It didn't count because she wasn't a "normal" teen. She had too much emotional baggage and already fucked other guys. But realistically that was a huge win and I couldn't appreciate it.
I realize how narcy this sounds, but I still treat everyone good regardless. I just can't imagine getting married or settling down with this problem.
