my primal urges: licking, biting and hurting people

[ascendingalways]

got sent to the asylum when i did


twink = cute/prettyboy starting base (which i don't possess)
roids is the only answer to my problems and will leave everything i wanted to be behind

I look like a girl so I pretty much have the perfect base.

gonna start nichemaxxing again after I catch up to where my developments supposed to be

 

[hax]

You should probably hit the gym though. Since these are urges that are not likely to go away it would be good to introduce yourself to something that develops self discipline so you can at least learn to keep them under control and not put yourself in any situations you will regret

good to see someone relates, hopefully on roids in a few months

 

[hax]

My frustration terrifies me tbh I’m 100% capable of murder tbh

everyone is capable of murder, it's becoming aware of it that can scare you

 

[hax]

I look like a girl so I pretty much have the perfect base.

gonna start nichemaxxing again after I catch up to where my developments supposed to be

you're so insanely lucky

 

[ascendingalways]

you're so insanely lucky

In some ways definitely but where it matters most not so much

 

[karmacita901]

got sent to the asylum when i did


twink = cute/prettyboy starting base (which i don't possess)
roids is the only answer to my problems and will leave everything i wanted to be behind

I thought that was because they caught u trying to order hgh. Anyway I would deadass take a page from the cvck book and complain to one of your friends dad's about this

Like straight up tell em your mom aint letting u eat enough and u need a place to prep some extra food, maybe ur mans can bring it to u at school

 

[hax]

I thought that was because they caught u trying to order hgh. Anyway I would deadass take a page from the cvck book and complain to one of your friends dad's about this

i had multiple threads on this where i explained everything but it was also due to my psy legally leaking private info under safety concerns

Like straight up tell em your mom aint letting u eat enough and u need a place to prep some extra food, maybe ur mans can bring it to u at school

my "friends" are not my friends like that

 

[hax]

In some ways definitely but where it matters most not so much

that would be all i would ask for

 

[ascendingalways]

that would be all i would ask for

you alr look good tbh

 

[hypernormie]

good to see someone relates, hopefully on roids in a few months

I don't think roids will help bud

 

[hax]

you alr look good tbh

"good" isn't enough in my own eyes

I don't think roids will help bud

it's a way to cope and easily one of the only ways to actually see the change i'm desperately looking for

 

[ascendingalways]

"good" isn't enough in my own eyes

Yeah I hear you for like 6 months I didn't talk to anyone besides my family and I only talked to them like once a week because I was so insecure

 

[hax]

Yeah I hear you for like 6 months I didn't talk to anyone besides my family and I only talked to them like once a week because I was so insecure

2 years, staying strong

 

[ascendingalways]

2 years, staying strong

how old r u?

 

[ascendingalways]

catboy romance definitely played a heavy part

my brotha just anotha me

 

[hypernormie]

it's a way to cope and easily one of the only ways to actually see the change i'm desperately looking for

Yeah but I was advising the gym to develop self control to combat your urges

Hopping on steroids will do the opposite

Idk how old you are but idk why anyone would hop on roids without prior gym experience that seems stupid

 

[hax]

Yeah but I was advising the gym to develop self control to combat your urges

Hopping on steroids will do the opposite

Idk how old you are but idk why anyone would hop on roids without prior gym experience that seems stupid

i'm gonna hop on roids and do natchural shit instead of lifting man made metal. don't really care about the gains.

 

[hax]

how old r u?

17 in jan

 

[AstroSky]

TLDR: I HAVE UNCONTROLLABLE, ANIMALISTIC URGES. SOMETIMES WANTING TO PUNCH, BITE, OR EVEN LICK PEOPLE AND I’M SCARED I MIGHT ACT ON THEM.

IMPORTANT: if you’re not willing to take this thread seriously or participate, you can click off right away, this is for the educated people. to clear things up, i am not posting this for attention or shock value. most of the information i will most likely regret sharing later on in life but i need various thoughts and opinions regarding the situation.

yes i am aware this is another "dnr" worthy thread​

for context, i’ve shared a lot on this forum about my thoughts and my internal state of mind. for as long as i can remember, i’ve always had very strong impulse and anger issues, possibly linked to my health or other similar underlying factors. these impulses don’t feel like your typical mood swings or irritation. they feel primal, animalistic and disconnected from what i would consider a “normal human reaction”. i’m trying to trace the origins of these thoughts and why they exist in the first place.

when i’m in public spaces, especially around people who annoy or overstimulate me in any way, i suddenly have intrusive urges to act hostile toward them or get them to stay away from me. this isn’t just irritation or anger, it’s an overwhelming and strong physical impulse to harm them, as in wanting to punch them, bite them, or do something so retarded that they’ll get scared and keep their distance with me. i am fully aware that these thoughts are inappropriate which is exactly why they scare me, but awareness alone doesn’t make the urges disappear.

these numerous impulses feel random, intense, and largely disconnected from my actual values or intentions in the present moment, meaning i never know when they will happen. at the same time, their source feels easily traceable back to my internal emotional state and other parts of me, like they’re expressing some unmet need, frustration, or overload that i can’t properly process or release in a normal way. most of these urges are actually easily traceable back to the things i enjoy, the content i consume or the fetishes i've previously had.

i get overwhelmed extremely easily by my surroundings, expectations or stress, and when that happens it feels like i stop being myself entirely. it’s like my mind wants to turn me into something else, something non human, just to escape the situation at last. i want to turn into an animal and just remove all stress and social pressure. this always manifests as thoughts of doing embarrassing, disruptive or extreme things, almost like my brain is trying to force me out of the environment that surrounds me altogether. what makes this even worse is that i feel intense shame and self disgust afterward paired with a strong envy towards those things at the same time, these thoughts don’t align with how i want to be seen but do align with who i truly want to be, even though i struggle to accept this and feel conflicted about it, yet they still feel like they come uncontrollably from inside me.

there have been many situations, especially when traveling or being in unfamiliar places, where i’ve seen extremely attractive people and felt disturbingly instinctive urges toward them. not romantic or normal attraction like wanting to fuck them, but things like wanting to lick them, grab onto their leg or physically attach myself to them in some humiliating feral way. the best explanation i can find is a severe lack of romantic touch paired with the shit i've been reading online, but simply knowing that doesn’t make the urges less disturbing, as they remain thoughts and fantasies, despite the fact that i’ve come extremely close to acting on them.

i also experience impulsive thoughts about touching or grabbing people, despite knowing it’s socially unacceptable and i don’t want to act on them without consent. i don’t want to act on these urges because acting on them would have severe consequences and could get me in serious trouble, even though the underlying impulses still feel aligned with who i truly want to be, especially when amplified by the extreme media i’ve been exposed to. i’ve already come insanely close to doing so on multiple occasions, stopping only because i suddenly freeze or mentally play out the consequences in my head. this is the reason for this thread, these urges have been getting stronger over time, and i’m genuinely afraid that at some point i won’t be able to control myself at all and will face severe consequences.

these impulses don’t happen once or twice. they repeat over time, in different situations, with different people, and that pattern is what worries me the most. as i said i can only link this to my fatishes/kinks and natural instincts having no restriction due to the recent disregard and lack of connection towards society. i don’t want to fully acknowledge how obsessed i am with these thoughts because i know most of them are unlikely to ever happen. if they could happen with consent i wouldn’t reject them outright, but since they almost certainly won’t, i try to distance myself from them instead.

i thank anyone who read this fully from the bottom of my heart and sincerely apologize as most of these passages were translated with ai due to my limited english vocabulary. the way i express myself overall isn’t very precise or enjoyable to read, i want to make it a minimum good for whoever actually read this.

sounds like a gay mind virus ........

 

[hax]

sounds like a gay mind virus ........

whatever

 

[AstroSky]

whatever

do you have urges to fuck people too? .....anal style?

 

[hax]

do you have urges to fuck people too? .....anal style?

i'm assexual

 

[AstroSky]

i'm assexual

so you fuck yourself?

 

[ascendingalways]

i'm assexual

rly?

damn were like opposites

 

[hypernormie]

i'm gonna hop on roids and do natchural shit instead of lifting man made metal. don't really care about the gains.

Seems like a bad idea