I realised I want surgery because of being bullied when young

[Danish_Retard]

I've felt very content despite being a NEET with burning savings, and today I realised that I really did not feel like getting plastic surgery or spending my life chasing external validation.

Yet I had a big anxiety reaction when contemplating this, and after meditating on it I realised that a sorrow of past "abuse" (?), disregard perhaps, was the only thing I could gleam from it.

Is it really such a pathetic reasons that's the last of my drive to get surgery?

Some days, I am ravenous for mogging, the vast majority of the time I feel largely apathetic towards the idea.

tldr:
What drives you to get surgery?

 

[HarrierDuBois]

What drives you to get surgery?

Would ascend me from MTN to Chadlite.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Would ascend me from MTN to Chadlite.

Let me rephrase my question: What makes you want to mog? Why are you not content with your current looks? Why does external validation matter to you? (Perhaps answered in the first question)

 

[HarrierDuBois]

Let me rephrase my question: What makes you want to mog? Why are you not content with your current looks? Why does external validation matter to you? (Perhaps answered in the first question)

I am MTN, I want HTB gf. So I need to reach the looks threshold of which I am interested in.