i really wanna kill myself

[normal boy]

i have been disconnected from everyone i lock myself into my room for 12 hours daily and dont even talk to my own family my love for my family is been disconnectedi guess i would die for them but every fucking time i dream about harming them when i sleep i dont know what is wrong with me i am turning psycho i guess. i dont even know what to do man.

 

[normal boy]

bump

 

[enlightful]

 

[afroheadluke]

same but believing that i can make great music some day is what’s keeping me alive i think im ignorant cuz to me sure i have family but im still ugly as shit at the end of the day and that’s what matters most in my brain my fucking looks and idk how to change that shit luckily im super interested in music too so yeah music and online buddies are keeping me more alive than my irl stuff

 

[Kurdishcoper]

wait for one piece to end

 

[normal boy]

same but believing that i can make great music some day is what’s keeping me alive i think im ignorant cuz to me sure i have family but im still ugly as shit at the end of the day and that’s what matters most in my brain my fucking looks and idk how to change that shit luckily im super interested in music too so yeah music and online buddies are keeping me more alive than my irl stuff

i dont even know what to do what ifi hurt them that fear is always in my heart before i hurt them i will kil myself

 

[afroheadluke]

i dont even know what to do what ifi hurt them that fear is always in my heart before i hurt them i will kil myself

just think about the pain they’ll go through imagine you’re about to eat pizza or something then your family member stabs you for no reason do not do that it’ll only make things worse and if ur gonna actually kill yourself dont bring others with you because they most likely wanna live long lives what else can i say man idk u idk your mental idk ur situation idk shit about you all i know is that you shouldn’t kill at all

 

[normal boy]

just think about the pain they’ll go through imagine you’re about to eat pizza or something then your family member stabs you for no reason do not do that it’ll only make things worse and if ur gonna actually kill yourself dont bring others with you because they most likely wanna live long lives what else can i say man idk u idk your mental idk ur situation idk shit about you all i know is that you shouldn’t kill at all

i know that but i am watching a lot of gore and all shit and man my mind is fucked but i do need to kill myself beforei even think of harming them so any quick and painles death methods u got there which doesnt look like suicide

 

[afroheadluke]

i know that but i am watching a lot of gore and all shit and man my mind is fucked but i do need to kill myself beforei even think of harming them so any quick and painles death methods u got there which doesnt look like suicide

No

 

[afroheadluke]

I don’t permit this at all

 

[OneCopDayKepRopAway]

i have been disconnected from everyone i lock myself into my room for 12 hours daily and dont even talk to my own family my love for my family is been disconnectedi guess i would die for them but every fucking time i dream about harming them when i sleep i dont know what is wrong with me i am turning psycho i guess. i dont even know what to do man.

 

[OneCopDayKepRopAway]

how about you go out and touch some grass

 

[BigBallsLarry]

i know that but i am watching a lot of gore and all shit and man my mind is fucked but i do need to kill myself beforei even think of harming them so any quick and painles death methods u got there which doesnt look like suicide

Your mind isn't fucked, you're having a lot of pent up stress and aggression combined with panicking.

You're mad, and you're probably mad at yourself and not at your family.

I can't say anything as an online random that'll cure you but you need to work on yourself man. Set your mind to bettering yourself, stop watching that shit and do anything with your life. Even any hobbies. I know deep down you don't want to kill yourself, i can tell from your posts. you're scared and you're panicking and you need to calm down and think about your life.

 

[normal boy]

Your mind isn't fucked, you're having a lot of pent up stress and aggression combined with panicking.

You're mad, and you're probably mad at yourself and not at your family.

I can't say anything as an online random that'll cure you but you need to work on yourself man. Set your mind to bettering yourself, stop watching that shit and do anything with your life. Even any hobbies. I know deep down you don't want to kill yourself, i can tell from your posts. you're scared and you're panicking and you need to calm down and think about your life.

but what if i harm my family i am having night mares about hurting my family even though they love me soo much i dont even know what to do man

 

[normal boy]

Your mind isn't fucked, you're having a lot of pent up stress and aggression combined with panicking.

You're mad, and you're probably mad at yourself and not at your family.

I can't say anything as an online random that'll cure you but you need to work on yourself man. Set your mind to bettering yourself, stop watching that shit and do anything with your life. Even any hobbies. I know deep down you don't want to kill yourself, i can tell from your posts. you're scared and you're panicking and you need to calm down and think about your life.

i am scared becoz of these dreams i am having continuously for a fucking month i love my family so i am scared of myself

 

[OneCopDayKepRopAway]

but what if i harm my family i am having night mares about hurting my family even though they love me soo much i dont even know what to do man

it is all in your mind.
Control yourself

 

[BigBallsLarry]

but what if i harm my family i am having night mares about hurting my family even though they love me soo much i dont even know what to do man

i am scared becoz of these dreams i am having continuously for a fucking month i love my family so i am scared of myself

You don't have to be scared of yourself, your subconscious won't allow you to harm someone you love if you don't allow it. You just need to control yourself

 

[gulden]

socialize please

 

[OneCopDayKepRopAway]

Mind is complex, paradoxical thing, brain is. We haven't studied it completely yet, you can't do or change anything about it in excessive way.
What you are having is called stress induced trauma, your subconscious minds is altered and it is following you in dreams.
Dreams mean nothing, It is just perception, jt is conciusness that makes choices.
Change your lifestyle, go out and do something productive, it will take time but your brain is fixable

 

[ase]

Bro these are intrusive thoughts. Don't listen to them. Its hard to control your thoughts sometimes but you should know that you would never do anything like that.

 

[genetic_failure]

YOLO

 

[Rothschild]

im the same but i dont want to kill myself