Hellenistic_Monarch
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This is all going to sound extremely avoidable or ND from the outside perspective but i don't even know where to begin, my parents think I'm a psychopath and a disappointment for my views on Israel, geopolitics, and social issues in general and to preface this let me state that i don't actively incite debates or bring up situations where any debate could come from it, I also never call my parents names. Yesterday my father was yelling at me about how he's made all this money in life to have peace and he says me speaking on my beliefs (i mainly talk about demonic influences in the world because they are top tier slop consumers) are effectively a form of shitting in his mouth to which i responded was an extremely selfish viewpoint and today my mother shows me a video of some UFC fighter at the white house yelling that Michelle Obama is a man which i said well he's not wrong and she began to say I was a racist and hateful disappointment and I stated that I don't believe in harboring hatred as a Christian and she proceeded to attack my Christian faith and tell me what I'm "supposed" to believe about it (ie. the whole Jesus just came to be vaguely nice lecture) and I've stated many times that I don't think anyone's bad for being born into a specific race but rather the culture behind it that negatively effects others is the issue she accuses me of being a fascist and having a totalitarian mindset even though she literally tells me what i can and can't believe in depending how "disrespectful" she deems it to be and i stated her hypocrisy and how she is everything she accuses me of being. She also stated that i haven't "lived life because I'm so young" and just chooses to invalidate my entire existence like her age even vindicates any of the crap she thinks anyways and always when i say I don't believe in being hateful and asked for evidence she stated my views on women was one and she says my views of having families and strong communities being beneficial to society and peoples personal lives are somehow oppressive despite families literally also requiring men to be involved which i advocate for men to do but she doesn't say I'm being oppressive to them ? i stated she's clearly biased and she agreed with me like it was some victory. It's a little jarring for people you would've otherwise seen as sanctifying or heroes from your childhood just completely call you a lunatic and a psychopath constantly and not even allow a non argumentative rebuttal to say you don't even believe in being hateful. They constantly straight up lie to me about what i believe in and put words in my mouth and defending myself is psychopathic behavior. I used to think my sensitivity was a weakness but now i realize its a strength and thank God for it because Jesus had the ultimate sensitivity towards mankind by offering himself as sacrifice, I prayed God would make what i considered to be weaknesses into strengths and now i realize. I was so sensitive as a child and was constantly punished for it punished for reasons I didn't even know. My parents were constantly fighting as a child and most of my early childhood is a complete repressed memory. I discovered some childhood photos from preschool where I was crying and it literally just took me back to the time my parents were constantly fighting and my mom was dying of cancer, absolute fucking horror story. My parents are virtually incapable of seeing how others feel and seeing it from their perspective which has really been manifesting in recent events with them saying things about me that are strictly to make me lose my hope and morality. I don't believe in being sensitive in the sense of being overly emotional or childish, i mean it in a fatherly way. Someone who is sensitive to others pain and is incapable of ignoring it and can't stop thinking about it, that is the source of my views and how i traverse life which makes me value truth over how "inflammatory" something may sound which they view as me just being hateful which is the polar opposite. I even once mentioned to her about how a very impoverished friend of mine who is my best friend found out who his biological father was and that he was supposed to have been aborted at 5 months which my mother stated maybe that would've been "for the better" and sited his rough home life and poverty as the reasoning to which (this being my exception of not yelling) caused me to burst into tears and yell that she was insane to which my father then charged in yelling at me and I told him he didn't even know why he was getting mad or what was happening and i called him spineless because of it.
Full of run on sentences and punctuation errors I'm sure, just needed to get it off of my chest.
This is all going to sound extremely avoidable or ND from the outside perspective but i don't even know where to begin, my parents think I'm a psychopath and a disappointment for my views on Israel, geopolitics, and social issues in general and to preface this let me state that i don't actively incite debates or bring up situations where any debate could come from it, I also never call my parents names. Yesterday my father was yelling at me about how he's made all this money in life to have peace and he says me speaking on my beliefs (i mainly talk about demonic influences in the world because they are top tier slop consumers) are effectively a form of shitting in his mouth to which i responded was an extremely selfish viewpoint and today my mother shows me a video of some UFC fighter at the white house yelling that Michelle Obama is a man which i said well he's not wrong and she began to say I was a racist and hateful disappointment and I stated that I don't believe in harboring hatred as a Christian and she proceeded to attack my Christian faith and tell me what I'm "supposed" to believe about it (ie. the whole Jesus just came to be vaguely nice lecture) and I've stated many times that I don't think anyone's bad for being born into a specific race but rather the culture behind it that negatively effects others is the issue she accuses me of being a fascist and having a totalitarian mindset even though she literally tells me what i can and can't believe in depending how "disrespectful" she deems it to be and i stated her hypocrisy and how she is everything she accuses me of being. She also stated that i haven't "lived life because I'm so young" and just chooses to invalidate my entire existence like her age even vindicates any of the crap she thinks anyways and always when i say I don't believe in being hateful and asked for evidence she stated my views on women was one and she says my views of having families and strong communities being beneficial to society and peoples personal lives are somehow oppressive despite families literally also requiring men to be involved which i advocate for men to do but she doesn't say I'm being oppressive to them ? i stated she's clearly biased and she agreed with me like it was some victory. It's a little jarring for people you would've otherwise seen as sanctifying or heroes from your childhood just completely call you a lunatic and a psychopath constantly and not even allow a non argumentative rebuttal to say you don't even believe in being hateful. They constantly straight up lie to me about what i believe in and put words in my mouth and defending myself is psychopathic behavior. I used to think my sensitivity was a weakness but now i realize its a strength and thank God for it because Jesus had the ultimate sensitivity towards mankind by offering himself as sacrifice, I prayed God would make what i considered to be weaknesses into strengths and now i realize. I was so sensitive as a child and was constantly punished for it punished for reasons I didn't even know. My parents were constantly fighting as a child and most of my early childhood is a complete repressed memory. I discovered some childhood photos from preschool where I was crying and it literally just took me back to the time my parents were constantly fighting and my mom was dying of cancer, absolute fucking horror story. My parents are virtually incapable of seeing how others feel and seeing it from their perspective which has really been manifesting in recent events with them saying things about me that are strictly to make me lose my hope and morality. I don't believe in being sensitive in the sense of being overly emotional or childish, i mean it in a fatherly way. Someone who is sensitive to others pain and is incapable of ignoring it and can't stop thinking about it, that is the source of my views and how i traverse life which makes me value truth over how "inflammatory" something may sound which they view as me just being hateful which is the polar opposite. I even once mentioned to her about how a very impoverished friend of mine who is my best friend found out who his biological father was and that he was supposed to have been aborted at 5 months which my mother stated maybe that would've been "for the better" and sited his rough home life and poverty as the reasoning to which (this being my exception of not yelling) caused me to burst into tears and yell that she was insane to which my father then charged in yelling at me and I told him he didn't even know why he was getting mad or what was happening and i called him spineless because of it.
Full of run on sentences and punctuation errors I'm sure, just needed to get it off of my chest.
