Skry
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My existence is an abberation. I was extremely asthmatic for 8-10 years of youth, on top of that i had severe allergies constant rhinitis, sniffling constantly. I was either in a constant state of having a cold, or getting it every 2 weeks. Going to the hospital and fed oxygen and drugs because I couldnt breathe and almost died countless times. I was fully unapologetically mouth breathing for about 12 years as a result.
modernity saved me. i was on inhalers every weird treatment even the asian traditional stuff. Eventually when I was like 10 I started to get a lot better and I became relatively strong and athletic. Somehow I even reached an above average height, but with a frail frame.
But none of it matters because my face became so recessed and deformed from mouthbreathing and allergies that I look like a freak. I look like a different species like something is wrong with me, like im retarded, like I have a syndrome, but I don't so I don't even have an excuse. My face is recessed and crushed inwards in the upper midface to the point that even Lefort 3 wouldn't truly save it, and a monobloc would MAYBE make me look passable.
I'm literally a "spiteful mutant" in an extreme sense of the phrase. Nature should have run it's course and killed me so I wouldn't be a stain on society. My life was saved but what is even the point. If I had a time machine I could maybe go back and force myself to close my mouth and tell my parents to put me on allergy medications, but it's too late.
I was looking at old videos of when I was like 8 and I could already see how fucked up my skull looked, its messed up, not like how other kids look, back then I didnt understand why people would look at me weird but it seems so obvious in hindsight
modernity saved me. i was on inhalers every weird treatment even the asian traditional stuff. Eventually when I was like 10 I started to get a lot better and I became relatively strong and athletic. Somehow I even reached an above average height, but with a frail frame.
But none of it matters because my face became so recessed and deformed from mouthbreathing and allergies that I look like a freak. I look like a different species like something is wrong with me, like im retarded, like I have a syndrome, but I don't so I don't even have an excuse. My face is recessed and crushed inwards in the upper midface to the point that even Lefort 3 wouldn't truly save it, and a monobloc would MAYBE make me look passable.
I'm literally a "spiteful mutant" in an extreme sense of the phrase. Nature should have run it's course and killed me so I wouldn't be a stain on society. My life was saved but what is even the point. If I had a time machine I could maybe go back and force myself to close my mouth and tell my parents to put me on allergy medications, but it's too late.
I was looking at old videos of when I was like 8 and I could already see how fucked up my skull looked, its messed up, not like how other kids look, back then I didnt understand why people would look at me weird but it seems so obvious in hindsight
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