ranierean
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It's not just the internet though. I feel like all I can really do is demand empathy for me, which usually comes in the form of mockingly denying it to others. It's hard to go past, “oh you're this. You're that”. When you assume the worst in everything and everyone it actually works a tad too well. It's too accurate. It's self-affirming. It is the baseline, after all.
In fact, the Others are the problem. I'm a great communicator. The. The only one. Even when nothing of mine sticks or lands it's more so a sign of… I don't know, infertile soil. “Nothing ever could.”
I do think that I'm “better.” Not “greater” necessarily, but just a bit to the right on some hidden imperceptible axis. Someone smarter than me will know what's obstructed by soyjak aphorisms. All your “hurt people hurt people”. -s. It's what's missing when a middle aged person starts believing in Hell, they're not completely wrong but I don't think that the solution here is “eating clean”, “volunteering”, “getting enough sleep”, resettling infinity Haitians, etc. It is unclimactic to say there are none at all, but, people just aren’t meant to be, like, period. I do wish to see them try… it’s heartbreaking when somebody actually–truly doesn’t. What’s a worm if it doesn't wriggle?
In fact, the Others are the problem. I'm a great communicator. The. The only one. Even when nothing of mine sticks or lands it's more so a sign of… I don't know, infertile soil. “Nothing ever could.”
I do think that I'm “better.” Not “greater” necessarily, but just a bit to the right on some hidden imperceptible axis. Someone smarter than me will know what's obstructed by soyjak aphorisms. All your “hurt people hurt people”. -s. It's what's missing when a middle aged person starts believing in Hell, they're not completely wrong but I don't think that the solution here is “eating clean”, “volunteering”, “getting enough sleep”, resettling infinity Haitians, etc. It is unclimactic to say there are none at all, but, people just aren’t meant to be, like, period. I do wish to see them try… it’s heartbreaking when somebody actually–truly doesn’t. What’s a worm if it doesn't wriggle?
