I still love her

[BlackFag]

i really wanted to let this out, never really had a place to it, and i hope this is somewhere atleast one guy can relate.
from the 7th grade until even now, i was bullied, but the worst really was in 2022-2023 (7th to 9th grade).
i had no friends since elementary, and was pretty alone, and with most of my class bullying me, i really did think of roping.
i don't know why or how, but this girl came up and was the only kind person to me for years.
always defending me, being the only person who would not mock me daily.
the only person to wish me happy birthday or new years, christmas etc...

and i can promise you, i fell in love, an obsession even, which just got worse day after day.


but eventually, after the bullying started getting more violent,
i had to move schools.


i had her phone number (from a class project), but i didn't plan to ever call or text her.


but on february 28th, 2025,
i remeber, after coming from school, wanting to atleast try to talk to her, and she responded warmly, even.
and for 1 month we texted, although i was always initiating with her never texting me first, i didn't mind it (weapons grade cope).


but around end of march she began to respond less and less, and the retarded faggot that i was thought that it was nothing so i remember sending her a text,
and for months there's was not a single response

i kept coping honestly thinking she lost her phone or something else just as implausible
and like i said before, i was obsessed over her.
so i stalked her socials and by early september,
i found out she had gotten a boyfriend in January, but not just that, publically made fun of me on her profile,
mocking how i looked, how i spoke, who i was as a person, for all her friends to see.


i didn't even know how to react, i just blocked the number and cried for days, because i genuinely was alone.
even now, i think about her.
i still dream about her
i still love her.


but i know deep down i am subhuman, not built for love or anything resembling it
thats why if i ever fucking ascend i will put every drop of my hatred into making any foids life a living hell

 

[BlackFag]

bump or some shit

 

[andy321]

me too

 

[6ft5geneticsaviour]

did read, sad

 

[kevbsa]

i really wanted to let this out, never really had a place to it, and i hope this is somewhere atleast one guy can relate.
from the 7th grade until even now, i was bullied, but the worst really was in 2022-2023 (7th to 9th grade).
i had no friends since elementary, and was pretty alone, and with most of my class bullying me, i really did think of roping.
i don't know why or how, but this girl came up and was the only kind person to me for years.
always defending me, being the only person who would not mock me daily.
the only person to wish me happy birthday or new years, christmas etc...

and i can promise you, i fell in love, an obsession even, which just got worse day after day.


but eventually, after the bullying started getting more violent,
i had to move schools.


i had her phone number (from a class project), but i didn't plan to ever call or text her.


but on february 28th, 2025,
i remeber, after coming from school, wanting to atleast try to talk to her, and she responded warmly, even.
and for 1 month we texted, although i was always initiating with her never texting me first, i didn't mind it (weapons grade cope).


but around end of march she began to respond less and less, and the retarded faggot that i was thought that it was nothing so i remember sending her a text,
and for months there's was not a single response

i kept coping honestly thinking she lost her phone or something else just as implausible
and like i said before, i was obsessed over her.
so i stalked her socials and by early september,
i found out she had gotten a boyfriend in January, but not just that, publically made fun of me on her profile,
mocking how i looked, how i spoke, who i was as a person, for all her friends to see.


i didn't even know how to react, i just blocked the number and cried for days, because i genuinely was alone.
even now, i think about her.
i still dream about her
i still love her.


but i know deep down i am subhuman, not built for love or anything resembling it
thats why if i ever fucking ascend i will put every drop of my hatred into making any foids life a living hell

real shi. I had the same experience in 7th grade except the fact that I forgot her number. Neiher of us has any NT social media and se was like my first crush and my middle school bestfriend. I think she liked me. Atleast thats what I believe.

It's okay bud, life goes on. If you ascend, don't be bitter. Just try to move on.

 

[Htncel1]

i really wanted to let this out, never really had a place to it, and i hope this is somewhere atleast one guy can relate.
from the 7th grade until even now, i was bullied, but the worst really was in 2022-2023 (7th to 9th grade).
i had no friends since elementary, and was pretty alone, and with most of my class bullying me, i really did think of roping.
i don't know why or how, but this girl came up and was the only kind person to me for years.
always defending me, being the only person who would not mock me daily.
the only person to wish me happy birthday or new years, christmas etc...

and i can promise you, i fell in love, an obsession even, which just got worse day after day.


but eventually, after the bullying started getting more violent,
i had to move schools.


i had her phone number (from a class project), but i didn't plan to ever call or text her.


but on february 28th, 2025,
i remeber, after coming from school, wanting to atleast try to talk to her, and she responded warmly, even.
and for 1 month we texted, although i was always initiating with her never texting me first, i didn't mind it (weapons grade cope).


but around end of march she began to respond less and less, and the retarded faggot that i was thought that it was nothing so i remember sending her a text,
and for months there's was not a single response

i kept coping honestly thinking she lost her phone or something else just as implausible
and like i said before, i was obsessed over her.
so i stalked her socials and by early september,
i found out she had gotten a boyfriend in January, but not just that, publically made fun of me on her profile,
mocking how i looked, how i spoke, who i was as a person, for all her friends to see.


i didn't even know how to react, i just blocked the number and cried for days, because i genuinely was alone.
even now, i think about her.
i still dream about her
i still love her.


but i know deep down i am subhuman, not built for love or anything resembling it
thats why if i ever fucking ascend i will put every drop of my hatred into making any foids life a living hell

Low t faggot

 

[jxded]

brutal

she never loved you. you owe her nothing. you may think of her fondly because that’s how you knew her, and that’s how she presented herself, but imagine how she acted behind your back, even then.

 

[javacel]

Mirin the effort but pipe down

 

[xzylecrey]

Im sorry