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So I get stared at like a lot, people seem to have a very abject reaction to my appearance especially small children who stare at me like they've genuinely seen a monster or something, one time I even made a toddler cry at a birthday party just by making eye contact with him and trying to smile, he just started bawling out of nowhere and immediately stopped once his mum lifted him away from me so it was obviously directly me that caused him to become so upset
That's just an example but I've had many incidents like this where people just seem frightened and uncomfortable with me for no reason, I've also had dogs furiously bark at me on a few occasions, and I've had birds look at me and fly away whilst sounding an alarm call (I'm into birding so I know bird alarm calls in my country)
But the kicker is I've posted my face before and people absolutely *insist* that I look completely and utterly normal, some people even said attractive, which confuses me even more because I'll read these comments, believe it, then go outside and just get these horrific reactions from everyone around me
so this has lead to me become more open minded to the idea that this could be something else going on, what if im like cursed or have a bunch of nasty demonic attached spirits that other people can subconsciously somewhat sense and it unnerves them
Whatever it is, it has caused me profound social isolation because people generally don't talk to me and avoid me even if I make the effort of trying to put myself out there and socialise, so whatever this is it's severely affecting my life and has been for a long time now
That's just an example but I've had many incidents like this where people just seem frightened and uncomfortable with me for no reason, I've also had dogs furiously bark at me on a few occasions, and I've had birds look at me and fly away whilst sounding an alarm call (I'm into birding so I know bird alarm calls in my country)
But the kicker is I've posted my face before and people absolutely *insist* that I look completely and utterly normal, some people even said attractive, which confuses me even more because I'll read these comments, believe it, then go outside and just get these horrific reactions from everyone around me
so this has lead to me become more open minded to the idea that this could be something else going on, what if im like cursed or have a bunch of nasty demonic attached spirits that other people can subconsciously somewhat sense and it unnerves them
Whatever it is, it has caused me profound social isolation because people generally don't talk to me and avoid me even if I make the effort of trying to put myself out there and socialise, so whatever this is it's severely affecting my life and has been for a long time now
