obutsu
Prostate DJ
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It's been a long time since it all started. Being that little kid in elementary school getting made fun of for being fat, to following those "Abs In 30 Days" tutorials when I was in middle school, to discovering mewing when I was 17, to learning I had 6 inch wrists, to realizing I had an asymmetrical face, short skull, gyno, a crooked nose and everything else all throughout my life. It's been so long and so exhausting. I'm never going to be beautiful. It eats at me even now as I type it out but at least I can stop fighting it. I'm not giving up on looksmaxxing. I'm just accepting what I am. I'm going to lose the weight, I'm going to get the surgeries, I'm going to change my face and maybe even my name too. But I'll do it to be better than what I am right now instead of chasing something that I never could have been. I'm 25 now and I'm tired of hating myself. I'm tired of never being happy with myself. I'm letting go and seeing what I become. The peace wont last because I know myself. Eventually it'll all start again but that's ok because it'll end again. I accept that I'm ugly and will always be ugly unless God answers my prayers. But it's ok if he doesn't. If I die on the operating table or from limb lengthening or anything else, God will make me beautiful if I make it to heaven because everyone is beautiful in heaven. I'm going to ascend even if I have to die to do it. There is perfection out there but we aren't it so stop hating yourselves. Accept it and only then can you start to grow. Be better inside and out.
