TrueNateJacobs
I just want to be beautiful
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Either I’m in hell or some sort of weird torture simulation.
I’ve had an overall good life but at every point in it, I’ve been subject to mediocrity, isolation, rejection.
Like satan is dangling the perfect life in front of me and then saying “no no no you can’t have it”.
I think in general I’ve just gotten extremely unlucky in life.
A couple examples:
My projected height as a kid was 6’3-6’5, and I have multiple 6’5+ uncles, yet I only grew to 6’0.
My family was very rich when I was very young, before I gained the sentience to enjoy it, and then by the time I became self aware we had fallen upon hard times so I have essentially only known lower middle class life.
all of my siblings are NT, and they all model/have modeled. They all range from htb/htn - stacylite/chadlite and Chad
(one of my brothers [6’3] was chad in his prime, highschool bully archetype…think Flash Thompson from andrew garfields spiderman)
…meanwhile I’m fucking barely mtn.
I’m the only one in my family with gyno, and it’s severe even though I’m super healthy and gymmaxxed.
I have retrograde alopecia which makes me look like I’m balding even though my actual hairline is completely fine.
This isn’t even close to all of my unlucky experiences.
It’s so annoying because if even just ONE of those things were different, I probably would never have even found this stupid forum.
I would be cuddling with my gf rn.
I hate my life.
I’ve had an overall good life but at every point in it, I’ve been subject to mediocrity, isolation, rejection.
Like satan is dangling the perfect life in front of me and then saying “no no no you can’t have it”.
I think in general I’ve just gotten extremely unlucky in life.
A couple examples:
My projected height as a kid was 6’3-6’5, and I have multiple 6’5+ uncles, yet I only grew to 6’0.
My family was very rich when I was very young, before I gained the sentience to enjoy it, and then by the time I became self aware we had fallen upon hard times so I have essentially only known lower middle class life.
all of my siblings are NT, and they all model/have modeled. They all range from htb/htn - stacylite/chadlite and Chad
(one of my brothers [6’3] was chad in his prime, highschool bully archetype…think Flash Thompson from andrew garfields spiderman)
…meanwhile I’m fucking barely mtn.
I’m the only one in my family with gyno, and it’s severe even though I’m super healthy and gymmaxxed.
I have retrograde alopecia which makes me look like I’m balding even though my actual hairline is completely fine.
This isn’t even close to all of my unlucky experiences.
It’s so annoying because if even just ONE of those things were different, I probably would never have even found this stupid forum.
I would be cuddling with my gf rn.
I hate my life.
