Leveroll
𝟲'𝟭 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘇𝗲𝗻 [ and ESLchad ]
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I mean i have a lot of autistic traits such as struggling with eye context, stimming especially when someone starts speaking with me when i didn't expect it, repetitive behaviour and other, but i don't feel like I'm doing something wrong. i feel that I'm different and never fit, but I don't really understand it all. also i don't remember having meltdowns, although actually i didn't even had something around that could overstimulate me, well, and my dad would beat me up viciously, maybe he did it once and my brain just decided to keep it all inside or something. I'm not trying to impose something, i dont want to be autistic, I'm not a foid that sees it quirky, i just want to know the reason why i am so asocial, weird sometimes and avoided. also for a reason i don't understand my when i go somewhere with my brother and his friends that are practically my friends too, but idk if they think the same about me, and then, afterwards, they would come up to me and ask where my brother is and just leave after getting an answer without showing any sign that they are interested in me or enjoy spending time with me. sorry for writing too much, just wanted to share
