I think Im depressed

[manhattanbound]

Yo guys, as pathethic as it is to say this I think im depressed and you guys are the only online source I can vent to about
Basically I was caught cheating with my phone in class although nothing really serious happened except for getting a 0 on that test and the relationship between my teacher. My parents didnt even slap me or beat me which makes it worse because they made me feel so guilty and sad.. + that In my closet i put some wet pants in my pant section. my parents bullied the shit out of me and made me feel autistic. Im genuinely crying right now.. I need someone to talk to i feel so depressed and just useless
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my grades are terrible and i suck at the piano
what do I do???
feel free to pm me i really need someone to talk to

 

[dr.nikki]

how old are you? it’s probably gonna get better you will look back at this in one year and laugh at it

 

[larpcel]

It’s important to remember these 2 things you’re sad about now will mean nothing even a month from now, try to look ahead.

 

[manhattanbound]

It’s important to remember these 2 things you’re sad about now will mean nothing even a month from now, try to look ahead.

its not even this is genuinely more
in my city for highscools there are top highschools and I didnt get into any
that + with my mediocre grades (my avg was 87) just makes me feel like a failure

 

[manhattanbound]

how old are you? it’s probably gonna get better you will look back at this in one year and laugh at it

im 15 i feel like its not im literally typing this whilst crying im just rethinking everything that happened i feel like a loser i literally have NOTHING that stands for me
i suck at singing, im not DUMB but im mediocre i dont stand out, im not even interested in this religion class i cant make my parents ahpy or shit

 

[rawr]

its not even this is genuinely more
in my city for highscools there are top highschools and I didnt get into any
that + with my mediocre grades (my avg was 87) just makes me feel like a failure

not sure how to help but bro you have it way better than me
i wish my problems were like urs i have to deal with like 100x more
ig ur parents just put a bunch of pressure on u to do well in school but its only because they want u to succeed
you'll get through this bro trust me

 

[rawr]

im 15 i feel like its not im literally typing this whilst crying im just rethinking everything that happened i feel like a loser i literally have NOTHING that stands for me
i suck at singing, im not DUMB but im mediocre i dont stand out, im not even interested in this religion class i cant make my parents ahpy or shit

enjoy being average/mediocre
im way below average i wish i was mediocre
ur prob just overwhelmed just sleep it off and take it one step at a time
your parents will be proud of u aslong as u put in effort bro trust

 

[larpcel]

its not even this is genuinely more
in my city for highscools there are top highschools and I didnt get into any
that + with my mediocre grades (my avg was 87) just makes me feel like a failure

I guess the high school bit may impact you slightly, but it doesn’t have to, you are still able to excel academically (if you want) at a lower tier high school. Your competition is worse and you can rank higher among your peers.

 

[manhattanbound]

enjoy being average/mediocre
im way below average i wish i was mediocre
ur prob just overwhelmed just sleep it off and take it one step at a time
your parents will be proud of u aslong as u put in effort bro trust

idk bro i dont WANT to be mediocre
im probably not depressed maybe I am, byt theres just this thing thats just constantly reminding me of all these situations and just making me sad
thanks for the help tho bro

 

[manhattanbound]

not sure how to help but bro you have it way better than me
i wish my problems were like urs i have to deal with like 100x more
ig ur parents just put a bunch of pressure on u to do well in school but its only because they want u to succeed
you'll get through this bro trust me

thanks bro
all of this just makes me sad
i feel like a failure for my age
maybe its because i compare my self to others idk

 

[rawr]

idk bro i dont WANT to be mediocre

you're 15. your high school grades don't define you or your life. you're mediocre now, but you have your entire life to change that

theres just this thing thats just constantly reminding me of all these situations and just making me sad

what is?

 

[manhattanbound]

what is?

idk how to explain it im just calling it depression.. I just cant enjoy aanything without my mind reminding me of being a failure I just feel weak all the time i guess

 

[rawr]

thanks bro
all of this just makes me sad
i feel like a failure for my age
maybe its because i compare my self to others idk

just know, i'm incredibly behind to the point i'm too embarrassed to even tell you
you're doing way better in life than me honestly

but yeah comparing yourself to others is the best way to become depressed. im 5'9 and im so insecure to the point where im always sizing everyone up and comparing my height to everyone i see. the second i let go of that and stop comparing myself, ill feel less insecure and better. i urge you to do the same. stop comparing yourself to others, especially people on social media

 

[manhattanbound]

you're 15. your high school grades don't define you or your life. you're mediocre now, but you have your entire life to change that

Im just scared ill never get out of it and ill just be like everyone else i want something that stands out about me..
some people are good at soccer
some people are good at math
some people like talking
im good at none of these idk what is my purpose
i always want to rope and end it i dont know whats stopping me I want to leave this hell

 

[emogymmaxx]

depressed? blast test!

 

[isis_Bleach]

should have studied

 

[manhattanbound]

just know, i'm incredibly behind to the point i'm too embarrassed to even tell you
you're doing way better in life than me honestly

but yeah comparing yourself to others is the best way to become depressed. im 5'9 and im so insecure to the point where im always sizing everyone up and comparing my height to everyone i see. the second i let go of that and stop comparing myself, ill feel less insecure and better. i urge you to do the same. stop comparing yourself to others, especially people on social media

its really not people on social media.. i actually dont need to do anything my dad does it for me
take for example a few weeks ago.. he literally compared me to one of the people i hate alot and how hes good at gaan and religion class
its like i dont even need to use my mind to compare others to me my parents do it for me

 

[manhattanbound]

depressed? blast test!

the sad part is i cant its too risky and my parents already said no

 

[manhattanbound]

should have studied

shouldve

 

[emogymmaxx]

the sad part is i cant its too risky and my parents already said no

brutal, also just read your 15
next year bhai

 

[rawr]

Im just scared ill never get out of it and ill just be like everyone else i want something that stands out about me..
some people are good at soccer
some people are good at math
some people like talking
im good at none of these idk what is my purpose
i always want to rope and end it i dont know whats stopping me I want to leave this hell

bro come on, don't rope
roping is always an option, that being said it shouldnt be something you even think of especially at a young age
it should be an absolute last resort. like if you witness your entire family dying in front of you and you get evicted in the same week.

even if you never get out of it, so what? you dont need to do something revolutionary or stand out to feel like your life has meaning and purpose.

also if you're only 15, you have your entire life ahead of you to find something you're good at.

 

[frayed]

pm if u need someone to talk to, but just keep your head up and try ur best. Your only 15 I promise this is not going to ruin your life.

 

[rawr]

its really not people on social media.. i actually dont need to do anything my dad does it for me
take for example a few weeks ago.. he literally compared me to one of the people i hate alot and how hes good at gaan and religion class
its like i dont even need to use my mind to compare others to me my parents do it for me

yeah ethnic parents usually do that all the time, it stresses me out. my sister is the golden child, and my mom always compares me to her and how she's a better child than me and it's really annoying aswell.

but if you play your cards right, you could easily move out

 

[rawr]

pm if u need someone to talk to, but just keep your head up and try ur best. Your only 15 I promise this is not going to ruin your life.

^

 

[manhattanbound]

bro come on, don't rope
roping is always an option, that being said it shouldnt be something you even think of especially at a young age
it should be an absolute last resort. like if you witness your entire family dying in front of you and you get evicted in the same week.

even if you never get out of it, so what? you dont need to do something revolutionary or stand out to feel like your life has meaning and purpose.

also if you're only 15, you have your entire life ahead of you to find something you're good at.

pm if u need someone to talk to, but just keep your head up and try ur best. Your only 15 I promise this is not going to ruin your life.

thank you guys im genuinely crying this is the most support ive ever gotten from anyone it feels like my life is falling apart..

 

[rawr]

thank you guys im genuinely crying this is the most support ive ever gotten from anyone it feels like my life is falling apart..

pm me if you wanna talk more
im in like the same exact situation as you and we only live like ten minutes away lmao

 

[manhattanbound]

yeah ethnic parents usually do that all the time, it stresses me out. my sister is the golden child, and my mom always compares me to her and how she's a better child than me and it's really annoying aswell.

but if you play your cards right, you could easily move out

thats my plan i really just want to gtfo for college i hate my fucking parents

 

[frayed]

thank you guys im genuinely crying this is the most support ive ever gotten from anyone it feels like my life is falling apart..

for sure bro, again, pm me if you need it.

 

[frayed]

pm me if you wanna talk more
im in like the same exact situation as you and we only live like ten minutes away lmao

New York?

 

[rawr]

thats my plan i really just want to gtfo for college i hate my fucking parents

if your parents arent able to cover college for you, you can ask your guidance counselor for help with finances for college or apply for student loans

 

[manhattanbound]

New York?

ya

 

[rawr]

New York?

yep

 

[manhattanbound]

if your parents arent able to cover college for you, you can ask your guidance counselor for help with finances for college or apply for student loans

for sure thats the only reason why im even trying i just need a excuse to get away from this mess

 

[foidslayer61]

Yo guys, as pathethic as it is to say this I think im depressed and you guys are the only online source I can vent to about
Basically I was caught cheating with my phone in class although nothing really serious happened except for getting a 0 on that test and the relationship between my teacher. My parents didnt even slap me or beat me which makes it worse because they made me feel so guilty and sad.. + that In my closet i put some wet pants in my pant section. my parents bullied the shit out of me and made me feel autistic. Im genuinely crying right now.. I need someone to talk to i feel so depressed and just useless
+

my grades are terrible and i suck at the piano
what do I do???
feel free to pm me i really need someone to talk to

Honestly i am too retarded to Write something smart but I Hope it gets better for u.

 

[frayed]

yep

ya

Gotchu, im in Boston for school rn.

 

[manhattanbound]

Honestly i am too retarded to Write something smart but I Hope it gets better for u.

no worries you even saying just that is far better than ANY support ive gotten in person

 

[rawr]

no worries you even saying just that is far better than ANY support ive gotten in person

u should prob vent to a counselor

 

[manhattanbound]

Gotchu, im in Boston for school rn.

nice it looks chill over there

 

[manhattanbound]

u should prob vent to a counselor

i just did lol i wrote a email idk what im expecting her to do about it tho

 

[rawr]

i just did lol i wrote a email idk what im expecting her to do about it tho

U can just vent to her, get help in enrolling to programs like afterschool maybe get a job and spend more time outside instead of home, and ask for advice

 

[foidslayer61]

no worries you even saying just that is far better than ANY support ive gotten in person

Ur good bro! Just dont give up believing in yourself! i complete gave up on myself years ago and it seriously ruined me for the next 10 years to come! Dropped out of school at 16 and been rotting at Home ever since.

 

[manhattanbound]

U can just vent to her, get help in enrolling to programs like afterschool maybe get a job and spend more time outside instead of home, and ask for advice

ill try my mom said no to me doing model congress that shit pissed me off too

 

[rawr]

ill try my mom said no to me doing model congress that shit pissed me off too

Ya bad parents usually try controlling every aspect of ur life

 

[manhattanbound]

Ur good bro! Just dont give up believing in yourself! i complete gave up on myself years ago and it seriously ruined me for the next 10 years to come! Dropped out of school at 16 and been rotting at Home ever since.

damn bro sorry about that

 

[manhattanbound]

damn bro sorry about that

ur lowkey living the dream tho, i would do that but im just saving money for college so i can do my own shit

 

[foidslayer61]

ill try my mom said no to me doing model congress that shit pissed me off too

I swear parents Can be Shit but forgive them its their first time living Aswell

 

[manhattanbound]

I swear parents Can be Shit but forgive them its their first time living Aswell

thanks brother, right now as we speak they are calling me down to eat processed goyslop cake

 

[TechnoBoss]

Yo guys, as pathethic as it is to say this I think im depressed and you guys are the only online source I can vent to about
Basically I was caught cheating with my phone in class although nothing really serious happened except for getting a 0 on that test and the relationship between my teacher. My parents didnt even slap me or beat me which makes it worse because they made me feel so guilty and sad.. + that In my closet i put some wet pants in my pant section. my parents bullied the shit out of me and made me feel autistic. Im genuinely crying right now.. I need someone to talk to i feel so depressed and just useless
+

my grades are terrible and i suck at the piano
what do I do???
feel free to pm me i really need someone to talk to

Hi bro.

Cheating on a test is normal. Every person in the world has basically done this before. Have you thought about telling your parents how you feel? Are your parents normally strict? I would suggest you place priority on your mental health first and foremost.

I’m really glad you reached out and said all that. What you’re feeling makes complete sense. You’ve been through a few humiliating and stressful moments back-to-back. That’s a lot to take in, especially when you already feel down about school and piano. Anyone in your position would feel overwhelmed.

First off, you are not useless. You made a mistake — everyone does. What matters more is how you handle it now. It’s okay to cry and feel sad about it; that’s part of processing it. But it doesn’t define who you are or what you can become.

You're very young and you can always improve your piano skills. Your grades a temporary issue and those can be improved as well. I know it all seems like a lot at the moment but just know that situations can improve & it won't always be like this. You will get better at not only managing your emotions but also better at the piano, as you get older.

Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.

 

[foidslayer61]

ur lowkey living the dream tho, i would do that but im just saving money for college so i can do my own shit

Its not the Dream at all i have exactly 2 friends, my mom Pretty much hates me for being an incel i have not talked to a Women once in my life, i dont look Bad i just cant Talk to people when everyone was out partying and social maxxing i was in my room playing videogames

 

[manhattanbound]

Hi bro.

Cheating on a test is normal. Every person in the world has basically done this before. Have you thought about telling your parents how you feel? Are your parents normally strict? I would suggest you place priority on your mental health first and foremost.

I’m really glad you reached out and said all that. What you’re feeling makes complete sense. You’ve been through a few humiliating and stressful moments back-to-back. That’s a lot to take in, especially when you already feel down about school and piano. Anyone in your position would feel overwhelmed.

First off, you are not useless. You made a mistake — everyone does. What matters more is how you handle it now. It’s okay to cry and feel sad about it; that’s part of processing it. But it doesn’t define who you are or what you can become.

You're very young and you can always improve your piano skills. Your grades a temporary issue and those can be improved as well. I know it all seems like a lot at the moment but just know that situations can improve & it won't always be like this. You will get better at not only managing your emotions but also better at the piano, as you get older.

Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.

I never thought of telling my parents because i KNOW they wouldnt understand, im not trying to go through that hassle.. genuinely my parents are always strict and theyve been like that for all of my life. however after i got that into that test bs they have been OMD. Thanks for your help though im going to just start focusing more i just dont know HOW