I think I’m depressed

[soapbubble]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

 

[tansel]

you need plastic surgery man not suicide

 

[jizargo]

same bro

 

[ragingmanlet]

dnr

 

[GhenCohen]

 

[soapbubble]

you need plastic surgery man not suicide

I appreciate it but what’s the point? i’m not as ugly as users like schery6 who have committed in the past but why do all that if i could just end it now and not have to deal with hating myself for all that time before i reach an acceptable looks tier

 

[tansel]

I appreciate it but what’s the point? i’m not as ugly as users like schery6 who have committed in the past but why do all that if i could just end it now and not have to deal with hating myself for all that time before i reach an acceptable looks tier

but why would you end it now if the pain is temporary? you will enjoy life a thousand times more as a surgerymaxed htn/cl, & you would look back on the times before you ascended & realize how good life is for you now

 

[soapbubble]

but why would you end it now if the pain is temporary? you will enjoy life a thousand times more as a surgerymaxed htn/cl, & you would look back on the times before you ascended & realize how good life is for you now

i guess. I don’t really see death as inherently bad, just a neutral ending to my otherwise unhappy existence. Looksmaxing is one of the few things I have going for me atp, but reaching htn or cl would take a long time and lots and lots of money.

 

[shedontluv-U]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

Dnr NIGGERRRRRR but wanna talk about it ? Talkin with someon is always useful

 

[oribulator]

Ur not depressed it’s ur face, do online school, max out stats, save up, surgery time

 

[soapbubble]

Dnr NIGGERRRRRR but wanna talk about it ? Talkin with someon is always useful

It made me feel better to talk about my thoughts in the thread, so I appreciate that

 

[shedontluv-U]

It made me feel better to talk about my thoughts in the thread, so I appreciate that

Dont worry i will always be there for you david

 

[tansel]

i guess. I don’t really see death as inherently bad, just a neutral ending to my otherwise unhappy existence. Looksmaxing is one of the few things I have going for me atp, but reaching htn or cl would take a long time and lots and lots of money.

you might not see death as bad but your family will. & credit cards are a thing lol, you can always just pay for surgeries with that & figure out the rest later. or you could do the college method & just use your college loans for your surgeries

 

[soapbubble]

Dont worry i will always be there for you david

david? jfl

 

[shedontluv-U]

david? jfl

i love you too bro

 

[shedontluv-U]

david? jfl

Answear me , is your throat still sore from last night ? You can tell me what phillip did to you
I will support you no matter what because your my bro i love you so much man im sorry for what i did to you in this other universe i hate myself so much

 

[Luquier]

Same just same

Don’t do this. Fix your problems

 

[Glorious King]

pro tip , dont end it just yet

like end it once theres no hope left

 

[iblamefranklin]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

it does get better once and i think to be honest it wont be better for a long time but it will someday and when it does it will be so worth it, just keep going man

 

[elliottttt]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

relatable

 

[tomahawk]

It's never over beah

 

[elliottttt]

Get a ADHD med prescription if you really need to force yourself to work.

 

[Brava]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

Damn I feel you dude, school makes me feel so awkward and anxious. All the people there are annoying/fake/loud. Depends on what grade you’re in, homeschool might help. Also you don’t necessarily need good grades, community college is always an option. And then transfer to a university

 

[Brava]

Get a ADHD med prescription if you really need to force yourself to work.

I need that

 

[xrend]

feel u bro

 

[elliottttt]

I need that

Try get adderal or vyvanse
Ritalin a last resort

btw when they were off they can make u feel depressed (the comedown) but it's nothing like quitting weed
Never go more than 2 days without sleep MAX

U can easily get it, jewish doctors are just dying to hand that shit out

Do not accept the SNRI's like atomoxetine those are actual jewish poison, jewish docs try to give u this first

 

[Brava]

Try get adderal or vyvanse
Ritalin a last resort

btw when they were off they can make u feel depressed (the comedown) but it's nothing like quitting weed
Never go more than 2 days without sleep MAX

U can easily get it, jewish doctors are just dying to hand that shit out

Do not accept the SNRI's like atomoxetine those are actual jewish poison, jewish docs try to give u this first

Nah I can’t be depressed. I don’t believe in deppression. I can tank depression fr. My parents don’t want me taking it. So that will be hard to acquire without them. Can you get it prescribed after 18 ? Cause I will be 18 in 2 years

 

[PharmaPhaggot]

Dnr order antidepressants

 

[Iblamehyo]

Dnr

 

[Hotline_Seagull]

I feel you bro. I struggled with so much since elementary school esp with my height and body. Truth is the passion or interest youre waiting for/looking won't just come to you. Make use of the time you have, the man who walks with purpose walks further than the man who waits for it.

Also W signature love CC.

 

[kisslessvirgin]

go get prescribed drugs.

 

[SILK ROAD]

DNR if you want

For the past few weeks, I’ve lost any interest in socializing irl. I have friends I hang around with at the lunch table and laugh about random stuff with but I don’t actually enjoy talking to anyone at all. It feels like a chore, I don’t even want to be with anyone at all but they’re so exhausting and annoying to be with. I have a bad reputation at this school because of horrible past social blunders, and am underdeveloped socially so i doubt I would be able to find new friends. I’ve thought a lot about leaving them and sitting alone somewhere but then my social status would truly plummet and I’d probably be irreversibly alone for the rest of my life at this school.

I’ve also lost interest in women. I think other than the times I get a boner and feel lustful they’re as interesting as houseplants to me. Most of my free time is spent in my room ldaring, either on the forum or lying in my bed and entertaining myself through autistic escapism. Most often I live vicariously through normie characters like in The Office. Being alone in the comfort of my room is the only place where I feel free from all of my responsibilities and social judgement. It’s honestly weird to think about, but .org off topic is the only place where I really talk to anyone for my own enjoyment but I’m losing interest in that too.

I’ve thought a lot about my future and I’m honestly scared af. I don’t have any interest or passion in any careers which i guess is at least normal, and college will probably suck. My grades are pretty shit so idk if I’ll be able to secure a scholarship, and I’ll probably have to go in a lot of debt. Chances are college will be full of students who mog me to hell, which will make me feel even more regularly miserable and insecure about my face than I already am. I thought a lot about suicide, and the possibility is just feeling more real every day. I genuinely can’t see life getting any better.

Back in middle and elementary school I used to cope with blackpill and lookism with personality and deluding myself into believing I looked good, even though I was always insecure about my face and knew the objective truth. Why should I have to slave away and stress and live in misery if I can just kill myself? Life seems to be getting worse and worse and it’s just a drag to keep living. I remember thinking when I was younger that suicide is just a phase, it’s for the mentally ill and things always get better but idk how much longer I can take it. I don’t have the courage to kill myself right now which is probably good but suicide is starting to feel more reasonable every time I think about it, especially given the tools and guides online I’ve seen on how to do it. I’m scared of dying too but it’s probably just nothingness after. I have a family (including a younger brother) that I don’t wanna leave behind if I die. But if I didn’t, I’d probably end it on the spot. Nothing to lose anyways I can’t tell what’s going on with these thoughts, sometimes I feel that it’s reasonable and other times I feel that it’s retarded to kys and I have a future.

its going to get better

 

[ibIameweight]

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