I think it’s over

[Prøphet]

I saw my surgeon and when I’m wearing contacts my eye turn is back it’s just milder. But it still turns inward. He said there’s nothing more to do because my measurements are a mix between inward and outward so any adjustment would throw it off to go more one way. I also acted like a total autist at the appointment because I didn’t know how to make conversation with the residents. It’s fucking over man I don’t know how much more suffering I can take before I give up. I don’t see a path out of this hell for me. The harder I fight the worse things get.

@elxbp @tansel

 

[Prøphet]

Also I need orbital decompression and bimax and lip lift and OBO and 10 more surgeries before I could ever hope for a life worth living. If only J was born 100 years in the future where I could just reincarnate into a robot Chad body instead of this subhuman manlet body (I got height mogged by all the doctors) I want the suffering to stop

 

[NoidFiggerJew67]

just be yourself dood I know you struggle with social anxiety but just be who you are. Even if people don't like it atleast you don't have to worry about what to say next. just be you.

 

[Prøphet]

just be yourself dood I know you struggle with social anxiety but just be who you are. Even if people don't like it atleast you don't have to worry about what to say next. just be you.

Even if I woke up tomorrow and suddenly the way I acted with people was deemed okay by some miracle, I would just torture myself on purpose at this point

 

[NoidFiggerJew67]

Even if I woke up tomorrow and suddenly the way I acted with people was deemed okay by some miracle, I would just torture myself on purpose at this point

Have you ever tried it? Don't beat yourself up over peoples opinions you can't change. This is about your health too. I understand if it's hard but just say whatever comes to mind. Don't torture yourself because something goes good/bad. Enjoy the small moments you have. I promise when a small convo goes well it'll make you feel better.

 

[fantom0726]

Have you ever tried it? Don't beat yourself up over peoples opinions you can't change. This is about your health too. I understand if it's hard but just say whatever comes to mind. Don't torture yourself because something goes good/bad. Enjoy the small moments you have. I promise when a small convo goes well it'll make you feel better.

peoples opinion always matters more than yours

 

[astatin]

I saw my surgeon and when I’m wearing contacts my eye turn is back it’s just milder. But it still turns inward. He said there’s nothing more to do because my measurements are a mix between inward and outward so any adjustment would throw it off to go more one way. I also acted like a total autist at the appointment because I didn’t know how to make conversation with the residents. It’s fucking over man I don’t know how much more suffering I can take before I give up. I don’t see a path out of this hell for me. The harder I fight the worse things get.

@elxbp @tansel

You think?

 

[NoidFiggerJew67]

peoples opinion always matters more than yours

Why does a random person you might not ever see again have more impact than your own thoughts. A simple conversation isn't going to make them hate you bro they're just there to make sure you get the most out of your treatment.

 

[fantom0726]

Why does a random person you might not ever see again have more impact than your own thoughts. A simple conversation isn't going to make them hate you bro they're just there to make sure you get the most out of your treatment.

because you live for other people not for yourself