I tried to hang myself three times this summer. I failed every time

[Society hates me]

I tried to do the partial suspension method like robin williams where you tie the ligature around your upper neck near the carotid arteries and lean forward. I tied it really tight too. I definitely felt my head filling with blood and my head pounding. I basically hung there for almost 40 minutes but I didn’t even lose consciousness.

My face was a dark purple color afterwards so I know it was tight and I was cutting off circulation. But for some stupid fucking reason I’m still here. I just can’t die. So instead I have to suffer through life

 

[Sith]

how subhuman even are you.

 

[HTNGrevious]

maybe u have super powers

 

[Society hates me]

how subhuman even are you.

What kind of question is that?

 

[Sith]

What kind of question is that?

I don't know. I'm just wondering because you've tried to kill yourself 3 times within a few months. Obviously, you wouldn't being doing this unless you were depressed.

 

[Society hates me]

maybe u have super powers

If I have superpowers I’d have a much happier and more successful life. Instead I got the “can’t hang himself” superpower

 

[.Cx]

I tried to do the partial suspension method like robin williams where you tie the ligature around your upper neck near the carotid arteries and lean forward. I tied it really tight too. I definitely felt my head filling with blood and my head pounding. I basically hung there for almost 40 minutes but I didn’t even lose consciousness.

My face was a dark purple color afterwards so I know it was tight and I was cutting off circulation. But for some stupid fucking reason I’m still here. I just can’t die. So instead I have to suffer through life

Don't kill yourself bro suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If larp than your a faggot

 

[Society hates me]

I don't know. I'm just wondering because you've tried to kill yourself 3 times within a few months. Obviously, you wouldn't being doing this unless you were depressed.

Well what do you mean by “what kind of subhuman am I?” I’m a 26 year old khhv who can’t hold down a job and gets bullied everywhere he goes. I never should have been born but I can die

 

[Painful Cycle]

How did you feel after failing?

 

[Society hates me]

Don't kill yourself bro suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If larp than your a faggot

This isn’t larp. I genuinely fucking hate myself and I can’t get out of this hellhole

 

[Sith]

Well what do you mean by “what kind of subhuman am I?” I’m a 26 year old khhv who can’t hold down a job and gets bullied everywhere he goes. I never should have been born but I can die

Well by the question I guess I meant what your flaws are.

 

[BigBoy]

Seek medical help bro

 

[Society hates me]

How did you feel after failing?

Slight headache for a while. Tingly feeling in face. But the color came back after about six hours each time

 

[.Cx]

This isn’t larp. I genuinely fucking hate myself and I can’t get out of this hellhole

I get it bro I've been there haha.
You can change your life, I'm not special and it took time but I was able to do it and so can you.
Posting these threads you will possibly be encouraged so I reckon you stop that lol.
Nobody is perfect everyone has a subhuman loser side. Killing yourself won't fix anything and I think you failing to is a sign you shouldn't do those things

 

[Nigga_slayer]

I tried to do the partial suspension method like robin williams where you tie the ligature around your upper neck near the carotid arteries and lean forward. I tied it really tight too. I definitely felt my head filling with blood and my head pounding. I basically hung there for almost 40 minutes but I didn’t even lose consciousness.

My face was a dark purple color afterwards so I know it was tight and I was cutting off circulation. But for some stupid fucking reason I’m still here. I just can’t die. So instead I have to suffer through life

I think life after your death is more mysterious and scary and like it's instant after you die so don't die cause being alive is less scarier and sufferable
Who knows you become ghost and suffer in endless tunnels

 

[Society hates me]

Seek medical help bro

It’s been over a month since the last one. Why should I seek help. This isn’t a life

 

[.Cx]

It’s been over a month since the last one. Why should I seek help. This isn’t a life

A few months or years in hell is better than an eternity of darkness.
Finding help can save you, it saves a lot of people you are not cursed you do not have the worst life on earth.
It may suck and you may hate it but you can always fix it

 

[Society hates me]

I think life after your death is more mysterious and scary and like it's instant after you die so don't die cause being alive is less scarier and sufferable
Who knows you become ghost and suffer in endless tunnels

I’d rather just die and get the scary tunnels over with. I don’t even feel safe anymore

 

[BigBoy]

It’s been over a month since the last one. Why should I seek help. This isn’t a life

Because you’re still having thoughts of acting on it. Did you go to a psychiatrist or psych ward after the other 3?

 

[BigBoy]

I think life after your death is more mysterious and scary and like it's instant after you die so don't die cause being alive is less scarier and sufferable
Who knows you become ghost and suffer in endless tunnels

Wdym by endless tunnels?

 

[Society hates me]

Because you’re still having thoughts of acting on it. Did you go to a psychiatrist or psych ward after the other 3?

No. There’s nothing they can do to help me. I’d just get slapped with a 10,000 dollar bill.

Unless they can somehow make everyone in the world like me and not treat me like shit than there’s nothing that the hospital can do for me

 

[.Cx]

I’d rather just die and get the scary tunnels over with. I don’t even feel safe anymore

If you tell somebody you want to hurt yourself or end it. You can get mandatory help bro, it doesn't help if you wallow forever you can change how you are dude. If your not happy with how you are or live genuinely do something different tommorow that you don't usually do weather it's making your bed or going on a walk with music just doing anything can completely change the way your mindset is you just have to give some effort

 

[.Cx]

No. There’s nothing they can do to help me. I’d just get slapped with a 10,000 dollar bill.

Unless they can somehow make everyone in the world like me and not treat me like shit than there’s nothing that the hospital can do for me

You seem to think everything is about you.
I'm very sorry bro being selfish because the world has hurt you won't help!
You have to make a change not everyone else!!

 

[🌏Enjoying_ths_life🌲]

I tried to do the partial suspension method like robin williams where you tie the ligature around your upper neck near the carotid arteries and lean forward. I tied it really tight too. I definitely felt my head filling with blood and my head pounding. I basically hung there for almost 40 minutes but I didn’t even lose consciousness.

My face was a dark purple color afterwards so I know it was tight and I was cutting off circulation. But for some stupid fucking reason I’m still here. I just can’t die. So instead I have to suffer through life

Don't do that bro it ain't worth it

 

[Society hates me]

If you tell somebody you want to hurt yourself or end it. You can get mandatory help bro, it doesn't help if you wallow forever you can change how you are dude. If your not happy with how you are or live genuinely do something different tommorow that you don't usually do weather it's making your bed or going on a walk with music just doing anything can completely change the way your mindset is you just have to give some effort

What do you mean by mandatory help?

 

[Society hates me]

You seem to think everything is about you.
I'm very sorry bro being selfish because the world has hurt you won't help!
You have to make a change not everyone else!!

How can I make a change if everyone in the world hates me? I don’t see how me doing anything will make a difference

 

[.Cx]

What do you mean by mandatory help?

If you tell the hospital or police they have to help you. Once you say those words you become their responsibility

 

[Bryce]

 

[.Cx]

How can I make a change if everyone in the world hates me? I don’t see how me doing anything will make a difference

That's the thing everyone in the world doesn't hate you that's how your perceiving things since you probably not got what you've wanted out of life
You have to ask yourself why do you think that way

 

[Gengar]

Good, you shouldn't KYS.

 

[_MVP_]

Tried focusing on crime before u Go Out?

 

[Society hates me]

If you tell the hospital or police they have to help you. Once you say those words you become their responsibility

I mean what kind of help? Do they get me a job and a little money?

 

[Nigga_slayer]

I’d rather just die and get the scary tunnels over with. I don’t even feel safe anymore

Why do you hate your life so much is it because of looks , money , job , height, relationship, friends , your value in society ?

 

[Petsmart]

 

[.Cx]

I mean what kind of help? Do they get me a job and a little money?

Actually yeah they could help you get a job!
They would first help you with your mental health first. It's not a click a button become better scenario it's a proven process to help guide you

 

[Society hates me]

That's the thing everyone in the world doesn't hate you that's how your perceiving things since you probably not got what you've wanted out of life
You have to ask yourself why do you think that way

Well, I try to ask myself why I feel that way. But it just keeps circling back to me thinking of all the horrible situations that I’ve found myself in,

 

[Society hates me]

Tried focusing on crime before u Go Out?

I’m not smart enough to pull off committing a crime.

 

[.Cx]

Well, I try to ask myself why I feel that way. But it just keeps circling back to me thinking of all the horrible situations that I’ve found myself in,

Those bad moments didn't last forever they came and went just like these feeling you have now will.
Things change you might just need help making the change happen

 

[PureImagination]

maybe u have super powers

His super power is his incel jawline that makes him slip through the rope whenever he tries roping

 

[HTNGrevious]

His super power is his incel jawline that makes him slip through the rope whenever he tries roping

 

[Society hates me]

Those bad moments didn't last forever they came and went just like these feeling you have now will.
Things change you might just need help making the change happen

What if they don’t go away. I hate how I just feel nothing but jealousy. Just a deep pit of jealousy when I see others getting love and attention

 

[Society hates me]

His super power is his incel jawline that makes him slip through the rope whenever he tries roping

Ironically, I don’t slip through the rope. I tied it really tight each time right around the spot where they say the carotid arteries are

 

[.Cx]

What if they don’t go away. I hate how I just feel nothing but jealousy. Just a deep pit of jealousy when I see others getting love and attention

It would be impossible for those feelings to never go away your never the same person you never last week or last year your a little different.
With time you'll be completely different and with outside help you could be somebody you want to be

 

[Society hates me]

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I wish I could understand what this picture means

 

[Nigga_slayer]

Wdym by endless tunnels?

I mean my cousin used to live in a rented house for about 3-4 month and he experience strange activities and like overall environment was bad , later he found out 5 people suicided there (with rope ofc)

Ik it's sound stupid and tales but it's true story and i believe people who suicide suffer for eternity (endless tunnels = multiple dimension)
It's my theory tho but that story is true

 

[rawr]

I tried to do the partial suspension method like robin williams where you tie the ligature around your upper neck near the carotid arteries and lean forward. I tied it really tight too. I definitely felt my head filling with blood and my head pounding. I basically hung there for almost 40 minutes but I didn’t even lose consciousness.

My face was a dark purple color afterwards so I know it was tight and I was cutting off circulation. But for some stupid fucking reason I’m still here. I just can’t die. So instead I have to suffer through life

honestly if you try to kill yourself that many times and fail suicide isnt for you

 

[rawr]

Slight headache for a while. Tingly feeling in face. But the color came back after about six hours each time

must feel really weird hanging yourself
i feel like the pov would be the most surreal thing ever